Cassius. (miserydreams) wrote in newhavenlogs, @ 2020-06-16 20:53:00 |
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Proposing to your boyfriend should be easy. Likewise, finding the time to do it should have been easy. It wasn’t. Between his schedule lately and Kyal’s schedule things weren’t matching up. He couldn’t get his boyfriend alone with him long enough to ask him. Certainly he could have forced the issue but somewhere in Alec’s mind it felt as if things should just come together on their own. He didn’t want to have to force the situation. He didn’t want to have to put too much stress into it. Not work but stress. It should be natural, feel natural and feel as though this was the next step in their relationship. As effortless as he wanted it to look then, Alec was spending an inordinate amount of time and effort on it. From using what time he had in the outside world to procure the rings that he knew would be perfect for Kyal, any means necessary, to finding the right time to ask him. It was honestly about as exhausting a process as he’d always imagined it would be but for once in his life he realized that this was worth it. Kyal was worth it and he was going to have him any means necessary. Most of his life he’d felt out of place and as if something was just wrong with him. Dates he tried to go on for his mother’s sake with girls just didn’t work out. He didn’t find them interesting or he did but not beyond friendship. Realizing he was gay was a big step. Realizing he was unhappy with his life and didn’t want to continue lying to himself or anyone else, was a bigger one. But this? Asking Ky to be his? This would be the biggest of them all. After trying once more to get Kyal’s attention, Alec gave up and decided it was now or never. Despite being the dominant in his relationship, at the moment he felt almost powerless because in taking that lead role, he really gave Kyal all the power. One word from Ky and it was over. One word and they would be over. ..what if he said it tonight? He didn’t have much time to think about it because he heard the door open. Deciding it was time, he stepped into the main part of their house and watched as Ky joined him. When Ky came into view, Alec was down on one knee already with the box containing the ring open and waiting. It took him a moment, he wanted Kyal to process what he was seeing. “Marry me,” escaped him finally after a long moment. |