"Neither of them do or could love me in return, so I'm quite aware of the disappointment and pain that is offered with emotion," Jonathan said, his tone cooling. "The only thing more they could do to me would be to kill me and that would be a welcome relief from the pain I feel every time I'm near them,"
And yet he actively seeked them out, actively endured that pain just to be near them, to hear them speak. Hell he lived with Edward and endured the pain second by second.