Henry blew out a deep breath, since it was all going to get heavy again. "Iestyn and I have been together since late January, early Feb. And my life since him just- I loved it. I loved my life for the first time. Ever. And then Lucifer told Iestyn if he didn't break up with me, he would torture me. And Iestyn had to end our relationship and I lost everything. I lost the man I loved, I lost his sister, who had become really...my only friend. I lost his dad, who-" Henry chewed on his lip and glanced at Nick, "who I felt was the only person who treated me like a son. My entire world shrank down to Tinse and Merry. And I love them. God, I love them. But they both have their own things. They're so busy."
Henry rubbed his eye as he continued the painful information dump. "I just didn't want to miss my family any more. I had nothing and I wanted you all back. And I thought you genuinely didn't care about the person I was so I- I thought I had to change everything about myself so you would love me. I switched to business studies and I changed how I dressed and all of it was just because I have been so lonely for so long and I just wanted you to love me." Henry squeezed his eyes shut then because talking about this was so painful.