God above, Alan wanted that to be all true, that he'd gotten more right than he got wrong. But if that was the case then why did it never last? How did everyone around him stay with people for years and decades and he could never make it work forever. All Alan wanted was that forever love, the one that would last, the one that would be true.
Alan managed to drag himself out of his tears and took a shuddering breath. "I'm so tired of all of this," he breathed.