Judas struck out at her, to push her away from him, rejecting her words as much as her intensity in his personal space. "I don't want this! I never wanted it! He shouldn't have made himself a target! He should've known it was going to happen! I've had to live with this for two thousand years, you think I haven't considered every possible angle? You're just jealous you were never a real disciple, and I at least had that!"