"I'm not gonna tell - who would I tell??" Much ran through his options - the Wills were both too broken, mostly in ways Much couldn't or hadn't seen, Alan was too deep in his own misery, Robin was too focused on helping Marian and Marian didn't need any more dumped on her. "And it is my responsibility, you're my friend! How many years have you lost cos we weren't looking out for you, Tuck? How many years have all of us lost, cos we weren't paying attention? Fuck! I don't - I don't wanna lose any more. Course it's my responsibility! Like I said, lay it on me!"