"Yeah, and I'm not what you need. I'm getting that, loud and clear. What did you expect would happen between us? That I'd just understand and accept it and bite everything back again, go back to uncomfortable sexual tension? Because you can't give your own body freely without their say-so? They can send you off into the middle of nowhere to fuck dangerous creeps with zero oversight, but you can't choose to have a good time with someone who loves you!" He didn't mean to raise his voice but he did, and he stopped, his jaw working as he tried to control himself.