"Of all the times I've tried to kill myself, I think jumping off a building was the messiest. The time I jumped off a bridge I woke up mostly naked on a beach 65 miles away." Now this was a topic he could delve deep into. Judas had died a lot. The worst was always going to be the first one, though. Sometimes he had nightmares about being a swollen man all filled with pus with worms in his genitals. Those early haters had been imaginative.