"It's going to sound like I'm ungrateful-" Nicholas sighed and leaned hard against his pillows. "I'm glad they found me, don't get me wrong. But down in that room there was a sense of- I mean, not at the beginning, at the beginning it was horrible, but once the pangs went away and the Antichrist mostly left me alone it was just...peaceful? It didn't feel horrible; not physically. Since coming back, it's all be horrible. I couldn't feel the hunger any more and I was just slipping away and now I have to fight all the time- The pangs never go away. I'm not sad they found me but it's hurt more since they have than it did before-" Nicholas sighed and then he offered Ceridwen a small smile. "Which is why you have no idea how much I appreciate this. Unless...you do, and then I'm so sorry."