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Tweak says, "ride with the devil"

Patrick Clark | Patroclus (borrowed_armor) wrote in nevermore_logs,
@ 2016-04-28 03:10:00

Current mood:	anxious
Entry tags:	patroclus, roxanna fielding

WHO: Patroclus and Roxanna Fielding (Open to other Kemps)
WHAT: WE SHOULD ACTUALLY TALK TO EACH OTHER LIKE HUMAN ADULTS AND ALSO ONE IMMORTAL
WHEN: Wednesday evening
WHERE: Kemps
WARNINGS: FLoof? Language? I DUNNO. confusion

The entire way to Roxanna's house, Patroclus felt like he might throw up. And as unpleasant as that was, there was a tiny bit of him that was glad for the feeling. It had been a long time since a girl made him want to throw up like this. It meant he was in a relationship he felt was equally balanced. He hadn't had that for decades now.

He probably wouldn't mention that she made him want to hurl though; he was fairly sure she would take it the wrong way.

When Lena admitted him, he gave her a guilty little smile and handed over a bag of groceries he had bought for them. He knew Thomas was still injured and he figured every little bit helped, right? He had also brought along food for himself and Roxanna because he hadn't eaten since Deirdre had forced food on him over a day ago. Then he went on his way up the stairs and knocked gently on Roxanna's door.

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bang_a_drum
2016-04-27 03:24 pm UTC (link)

Roxanna had taken to pacing her room like a caged tiger, waiting for Patroclus to show up. At Jamie's advice, she'd changed out of her ratty sweatpants and combed her hair, but that was the extent of it. "Well at least you don't look homeless anymore," Jamie had muttered on his way out. Roxanna tossed a drumstick at him.

When the knock on her door came, she knew it was him, since Jamie almost never knocked. So she got up to open the door, managing a faint smile for him, despite everything. "Hey," she said, stepping back to let him inside. "Come on in."

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	borrowed_armor 2016-04-27 03:32 pm UTC (link)
	He returned the smile, equally as faint. "I brought food," he said weakly. "I'm sorry I've been so- I've had a rough few weeks. How about you?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	bang_a_drum 2016-04-27 03:38 pm UTC (link)
	"Pretty much the same," she answered, closing the door softly behind him. "Reality continues to ruin my life. Been spending a lot of time with Jamie and Julia." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	borrowed_armor 2016-04-27 03:42 pm UTC (link)
	Patroclus let out a sigh and he sort of shifted uncomfortably on his feet. "Should I...sit?" he asked carefully. "I think we should probably talk. Oh! Oh it's nothing bad! I promise it's nothing bad!" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

bang_a_drum
2016-04-27 03:51 pm UTC (link)

"Oh, yeah, sure," she said, waving him toward the desk chair. She sat herself down on the bed, crossing her legs under herself.

Her heart sank to somewhere around her toes when he said they should talk, and his insisting that wasn't anything bad didn't do much to make her feel better. But she swallowed around the sudden lump in her throat and said, "Alright. Yeah, we probably should."

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borrowed_armor
2016-04-27 04:01 pm UTC (link)

Patroclus seated himself on the desk chair, the bag of pasta salad resting beside him, forgotten. "Uhm. I know my ex-girlfriend being back in the city isn't- Roxanna," he swallowed roughly then, his eyes trained solely on the print of her bedspread, "I am terrible at this. I'm not- I don't want you to worry. About her. And I know you might be anyway, but I love you. I love you and I don't want anything to ruin that."

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Babies <3 D:

bang_a_drum
2016-04-27 04:08 pm UTC (link)

He wasn't even looking at her, and even though he was saying all the right things, Roxanna still felt like she might just vibrate out of her skin. Her face felt hot and her throat felt tight...oh gods, she was going to cry. She hated crying in front of people, even Lena or Jamie.

"Pretty sure I already am," she said thickly. "I mean-I'm trying really hard not to, because a relationship has to stand on trust. But at the same time, I'm 21 and you're the first guy I've dated who ever stuck around long enough for me to fall in love with. Also: your ex is Helen of Troy. Which I know you know, but...yeah. So I'm kind of freaking out."

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I LOVE THEM

borrowed_armor
2016-04-27 04:24 pm UTC (link)

He raised his gaze to meet hers, and he watched her for a moment before leaving the desk chair behind entirely and moving to sit next to her on the bed. "It's okay," he sad softly. "I mean yes- Yes, my ex is Helen of Troy. But Helen of Troy left me. She left me twice before I really go the message. I am so sorry you're freaking out. But honestly? I wouldn't go back to her, even if she wasn't with someone else."

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bang_a_drum
2016-04-27 04:39 pm UTC (link)

Roxanna let out a small, choked noise, swiping hard at her traitorous eyes. "Ugh, god, actual human disaster," she muttered. "I just-I'm pretty sure I blew all of this out of proportion, and I'm sorry about that. I was just so paranoid that one of the best things in my life was going to be taken away from me. And I was finally getting to the point where I wasn't so used to everyone leaving. But I don't understand why she'd want to leave you, either. You're awesome."

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borrowed_armor
2016-04-27 04:49 pm UTC (link)

He gave her a fond look when she called herself a human disaster. "You're not," he informed her. "Or if you are, I am too. I understand, but I am really not going anywhere. I don't want to. It- It does hurt, seeing her with Paris. But mostly? It's because Paris is a gigantic douche who killed my best friend. He was saying all this seriously possessive stuff too, which was gross. Augh, my pantheon is being very dramatic right now."

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bang_a_drum
2016-04-27 04:58 pm UTC (link)

"Well...good," she said, resting her head on his shoulder. She needed some contact right now. "I like having you around, I was all set to...I don't fucking know, challenge her to a duel, or something."

She pulled a face at the mention of Paris. "Ugh, that is gross," she agreed. "And it feels like your pantheon's pretty dramatic every other day, unless something bigger happens. Like a tornado."

She reached over to her bedside table and grabbed a tissue, dabbing at her eyes. Her head was throbbing and she felt about three inches tall, it wasn't the greatest feeling ever. "Gross, I'm gonna be all blotchy and snotty," she muttered, lobbing the tissue into the trash can before settling back in next to him again.

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borrowed_armor
2016-04-27 05:26 pm UTC (link)

Patroclus wrapped his arm around Roxanna and he snorted a little when she said she would duel Helen for him. "Duels are unnecessary. And yes, Paris is gross. A lot of them are." For a split second, Patroclus thought about Hermes, and then he closed his eyes and willed those thoughts to go away. "You're not gross." He kissed her hair and cuddled her close to him. "Not even a little bit. There's more I wanted to talk to you about though, but it's not about us. It's just more of my dramatic pantheon. There's a man in the city and he's...horrible."

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	bang_a_drum 2016-04-27 06:06 pm UTC (link)
	"You say that now, look at my face." She gestured with one hand. "I'm such an ugly crier. But yeah, there's a reason I don't talk to most of them. I'm not really inclined toward being treated like a possession to be fought over or given away." She burrowed in closer next to him, pretty sure she was going to need the touch. "Worse than my father?" she asked. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	borrowed_armor 2016-04-27 06:10 pm UTC (link)
	"You're not," he assured her. When she mentioned her father, Patroclus winced. He could feel his heartrate increase and he honestly thought he might have a panic attack even though nothing had happened. "Sorry, just- Yes. I mean not as powerful, but- Your father has redeeming qualities." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	bang_a_drum 2016-04-27 06:20 pm UTC (link)
	Roxanna looked up at him, concern all over her face. "Fuck, he must be terrible," she said, surprised. "I think that's the kindest description you've ever used for him." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	borrowed_armor 2016-04-27 06:28 pm UTC (link)
	"Eugh, I think it physically hurt me," Patroclus grumbled. "The man is Achilles' son. His name is Neoptolemus and he- The things he's done- I just worry you'll be a target if he finds out about you." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	bang_a_drum 2016-04-28 04:30 am UTC (link)
	That made her snort. "Well you don't have to do it again," she promised. Then she scrunched up her face, thinking. "I don't think I know much about him," she said, after a moment. "And the look on your face tells me I don't really want to." (Reply to this) (Parent)