WHO: Theseus & Sophia WHEN: March 3 (Night)[Backdated] WHERE: Theseus' boat WHAT: Married Life WARNING: None Note: The log reads backwards
"I always loved you." He reached out to touch her hair, like he used to do. It still amazed him that under his fingertips she felt so real.
On Monday, March 7, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She sighed, getting ready for sleep in his arms, "Goodnight honey," she said softly, "And if I don't see you in the morning... I love you."
On Mon, Mar 7, 2016 at 4:28 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: He found himself easily sinking around her. He'd gotten used to sleeping over at Nike's when she wanted him to. And for a moment he thought he was cheating again---but how could he really cheat with a ghost. He now seemed a little uneasy.
On Monday, March 7, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: "Oh don't seem so smug about it." she kissed his cheek and then settled in next to him so he was spooning her.
On Mon, Mar 7, 2016 at 12:39 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: He smirked happily. "You can't forget me." He was still for a moment them scooched over so she had room. It was weird that a ghost needed room for anything.
On Monday, March 7, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: "I look in your eyes and realize even death hasn't kept me from loving you." which was scary and exhilarating, "Now if you want me to stay, you have to scoot over a little."
On Mon, Mar 7, 2016 at 9:17 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "Frightening? How on earth am I frightening?" He had his charms, skills and such but he wasn't his father. Intimidation he could do but he wasn't a monster. Poseidon was rotten to the core.
On Monday, March 7, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She leaned down so she could peep his peepers closer, hmmming like she was examining something scientific, "This is very attractive and frightening." she grinned, "I don't know if I like it."
On Mon, Mar 7, 2016 at 9:05 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "It might have been." He chuckled, opening his eyes with heavy lids so she could see what honesty looked like coming from him.
On Monday, March 7, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She scooted a little closer to him on the bed and looked surprised, "That almost sounded sincere..." she was used to getting his heart covered in slick oil so this was new.
On Mon, Mar 7, 2016 at 5:08 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "Please...." He said in a groggy voice, not above apologies or asking if he needed to. Zoe had opened him up to that and learning that his running had cause and effect.
On Sunday, March 6, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She smiled, her eyes crinkling because he had always been such a charmer, she'd been a goner from the beginning. "I can make an exception.." she nodded, that smile never leaving her lips, "Some begging would be nice to hear."
On Sun, Mar 6, 2016 at 7:27 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "I thought I was too pretty to hurt?" He smiled, eyes closed, dragging her hand with his to his lips where he kissed it again. "Do I have to beg?" He hadn't once lost any of his flirtatious charm.
On Sunday, March 6, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She looked to the side and then back to him pursuing her lips, "Theseus, if you don't stop pretending to be asleep and answer me I'll just have to find a way to wake you up." her free hand went to her waist and she wasn't talking about sleeping beauty his butt either.
On Sun, Mar 6, 2016 at 7:18 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: He didn't respond either, but not because he didn't hear her. He heard her, he just pretended to be asleep to see if she'd stay.
On Sunday, March 6, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: "Mmmm cant say stabbing you with something sharp isn't a bit tempting." she softly chuckled. But you're too pretty for it." she wiggled their joint hands, "Hey honey, you gotta choose before you pass out and my hand is trapped..." he hadn't told her to stay or go.
On Sun, Mar 6, 2016 at 7:05 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "There might be one in the chest at the foot of the bed." He smiled in his sleep, voice hoarse as he continued to try and keep a steady conversation.
On Sunday, March 6, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: "Mine is broken. Have a sewing kit?" she smiled a little and sat down on the edge of the bed, ghost she may be but this had been a lot to take in and she'd love to sleep too.
On Sun, Mar 6, 2016 at 6:13 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "What if my heart is torn?" It was. The longer Sophia stated, the more clouded on reality it became. She was his unfinished business, not unlike his son that he wished could have had a different outcome. No matter what sense she made on the unfolding of events, he would forever wish he could fix his mistakes (not all his mistakes), but the ones that mattered.
On Sunday, March 6, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She grinned, "Sounds like you." she moved her fingers so they threaded with his and pressed her palm against his. "Just go with what you feel like."
On Sun, Mar 6, 2016 at 5:38 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "I don't know what I want..." He flipped his head to the side to look at her with weary eyes. He was weak right now and despite how strange and crazy it was, he wanted her close tonight.
On Sunday, March 6, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: Sophia reached out, the tips of her fingers touching his, "Do you want me to?" she wouldn't decide for him. He was choosing to make his bed and lie in it... with whomever he chose.
On Sun, Mar 6, 2016 at 1:49 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com>wrote: Theseus pulled off his shirt, just letting the cool air inside calm him down. "Are you staying?" He asked, with his arm out, eyes closed as he sunk down into the pillow.
On Sunday, March 6, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: "Alright, how bout you not be tired with your eyes closed.. I'll sleep on the sofa, okay?" he'd still been kinda stand offish with her, she didn't know how he was dealing with her back and she wanted to give him as much space as possible.
On Sun, Mar 6, 2016 at 12:54 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "I'm not that tired..." But the moment he sat on the bed and pulled off his shoes he felt it hit him like a ton of bricks. He felt heavy and the entire day had drained him completely.
On Sunday, March 6, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She took his hand and put his arm around her neck like she used to do when he got too drunk to walk back to bed. She'd married an alcoholic playboy and she accepted him for what he was because she saw a seed for something so much more in there. It was just a shame the seed didn't grow till after she died. She walked him to the bed and said, "Don't fall on me now.."
On Sun, Mar 6, 2016 at 12:00 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: He staggered sleepily to his feet following her as if this were the normal routine for them both. It seemed more natural now and he knew he didn't need to set himself for anything either. It was going to be hard on him too.
On Sunday, March 6, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She smiled and stood up, pulling on his hand to hoist him out of the deck chair, "We'll deal with tomorrow tomorrow. Come on... it's getting cold out."
On Sun, Mar 6, 2016 at 9:47 AM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: He tried to hold his eyes open when she called him out. It failed. "Zoe's going to want to see you tomorrow with Greed." He didn't know if he really wanted to tell her now greed was immortal. It might be better to see what Greed undid himself.
On Sunday, March 6, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: After a while Sophia said, "You should get to bed, it's been a long day..." his eyes were heavy and she knew that it was more than physically tired that was wearing him out. But she still held his hand, she might be a ghost but she was real in the moment and very happy to be with him again.
On Sun, Mar 6, 2016 at 8:59 AM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: He smiled softly, feeling guilty again but for the fact that all those feelings he had for her returned and should he have had them at all when he was dating Nike? He watched the stars too, just enjoying the calm for a moment.
On Saturday, March 5, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: "That's why I married you, honey. You needed me." she winked at him, still holding his hand as she looked back up at the stars, trying to enjoy the moment.
On Sat, Mar 5, 2016 at 5:57 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: Sophia liked to lay things out so that everything was like a string connecting to another to make one big web, which in the end was beautiful. She was making this web not seem as tattered and torn as it seemed at just one one end.
"Fate has a strange way of wielding such a big web, and you have always had a way of making me see it."
On Saturday, March 5, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She turned her hand to hold his and said, "I won't lie, I hated you when you came back for that one night. I was so happy, I thought you'd never come back and there you were. And then you were gone again. And I kept waiting. And I started to think damn you for giving me that little bit of hope. But after Thea passed away.. I had Zoe. And if you hadn't come back for that one night.. I wouldn't have had her. Our baby wouldn't be here with you now. I'd have died alone. You'd still be adrift at sea. So don't take it back, my love. Things happened just like they were supposed to." and she had to believe that or she'd never have peace.
On Sat, Mar 5, 2016 at 11:21 AM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: He couldn't rewind. He couldn't give her back all those lost years. "I know...." He whispered. "I'd take it back if I could."
On Saturday, March 5, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She smiled at his gentleman's kiss and said, "Well she gets that drama from you too." her eyes were sad but her hand warmed his cheek as he held it there, "She'll still have you and she'll need you more than before. It's not fair, I know..." but then again he'd missed outon so much and it hadn't been fair on Sophia either.
On Sat, Mar 5, 2016 at 7:00 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: Theseus reached out for her hand and kissed the top, surprised that it wasn't cold. "She didn't accept it right away when I told her. She didn't want to believe I was her father either. The whole thing is pretty Greek..." He chuckled softly at his own lame joke. "She came around eventually. Now I'm afraid she's going to lose you all over again and it's going to destroy her." He out Sophia's hand to his cheek.
On Saturday, March 5, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She tried to give him a smile but it didn't reach her eyes, her gaze dropped to the sea, her hand limp on the deck chair arm rest, "I was devastated that I couldn't say my little girl. Zoe.. Thea always dumped her on me when she couldnt handle her or was going on a bender and I thought.. I just want Zoe to have normal and happy. So I hid everything from her. I told her stories about myths and you. When Thea and that man died.. Zoe was this lost little girl and I was dealing with my own grief, I became adrift and decided she was too young, I'd tell her when she was 18 but then she was going to college and her boyfriend had broken her heart and I thought okay, I'll tell her when she graduates. And then.. I got sick. And I didn't want to tell her till I was better." she finally looked at him, "And I didn't get better."
On Fri, Mar 4, 2016 at 10:11 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "By then?" He tried to get her to finish. That intense guilt waved right over the top of him again. Thea had ended up lie the teenage boy he'd had that committed suicide. These once people he thought he was leaving and forgetting were left with unrest and their lives destroyed. He couldn't help Thea, and his atonement with Zoe was at least some comfort.
On Saturday, March 5, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She was quiet for a few moments and then said, "I was... alone and pregnant at 40, Theseus. Thea was already 20 by then. She was.. lord, she was outraged and embarrassed that I was pregnant. She hated that you were the father. She never understood or forgave you. She never understood or forgave me for being with you. For letting you back in even if it was for only one night. She.." she took a deep breath and let it out, "She was dating a married man. Drinking way too much. Just heading down a really bad path. And then she asked me for the baby. The man was going to end his affair with her and she knew if she told him he got her pregnant and the baby was his, he'd pay for everything. It was... insanity. But after months of her begging and harassing me.. I started to think maybe if she had a baby. Maybe if she took care of her baby sister like her own, it'll calm her down. Maybe if I did give her the baby, it'd save her... so Thea went into hiding until I had Zoe, then she took her and that man, who I think had a feeling the baby wasn't his, he paid for everything. He was good to Zoe. Not.. around much but he'd buy her little presents when he saw her. I thought.. okay so I'm the grandma, this makes sense to her. Then... the car accident. And by then...." she trailed off.
On Fri, Mar 4, 2016 at 9:55 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com>wrote: "She was bound to get something from me besides my good looks and your eyes." He denned his fingers on the cup. "Why did you want to keep her from knowing you were her mother for so long? I know I messed up with Thea, but---" it had been one of his and Zoes biggest struggles.
On Saturday, March 5, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: Sophia smiled and hummed, "Mmm she is a handful," she pointed at him lazily, "She gets it from you. She wasn't that.. energetic when she was younger. Shy, nervous little thing." she'd missed out on their baby too cause she'd given Zoe to Thea to raise. They'd both been shitty parents who had to make up for lost time since Zoe went right back to Sophia when she was 12.
On Fri, Mar 4, 2016 at 9:47 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "I'm babied out," he laughed with her, that sneaky grin of his looking as devilish as ever. "Zoe is plenty for me right now." Him and Nike were on the same page as far as kids and marriage and babies went. He just wanted to enjoy her and not run full steam ahead like usual.
On Saturday, March 5, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She silently laughed, her eyes crinkling and her smile bright as she took the cup with a thanks. He always had been so smooth. "You know you said the same thing to me last time I saw you. Luckily I'm dead and can't get pregnant cause honey I ain't having no more of your babies." she said with a grin. Since the last time he'd popped back into her life for one night she'd wound up pregnant with Zoe.
On Fri, Mar 4, 2016 at 9:09 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: The table and chairs were still out since he and Zoe's brunch. He peered out in the deck where Sophia sat still just as real as she'd been hours before. He had some tea steaming on the stove. Did ghosts eat and drink? Regardless he came out with two cups that he sat on the table, taking the seat beside her. "How do you look so beautiful?" He was having a hard time convincing himself that she was dead.
On Friday, March 4, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: The park had been draining and overwhelming. Sophia had expected zoe to be angry or sad, she hadn't been ready for her utter insane joy. Despite Zoe wanting to spend her time with her parents, she opted on taking the night to convince her boyfriend that her mother was not a zombie or a demon or something so when they DID meet he wouldnt attack her. It left Sophia to go home with Theseus and right now she wore pants that were fashionable for a sailor's wife as she sat on a deck chair, looking up at the stars on her husband's boat just like she used to.