Zoe (history_repeats) wrote in nevermore_logs, @ 2015-10-13 14:04:00 |
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Entry tags: | greed, zoe hansen |
WHO: Zoe & Greed w/ NPC Morgan
WHEN: October 5
WHERE: Zoe and Morgan's apartment
WHAT: Talking about Sin babies and lack thereof
WARNING: None
Note: The log reads backwards
"No. But it has everything to do with how she sees things. If I roll up with someone soft, kind and sweet shes going to think I went off my rocker and do everything to bring me back. She doesn't want me soft or human." Sadly, it had everything to do with Greed and what Lust would do to hurt him. This way might lessen the blow. "Lust doesn't want me happy, she wants me just like her and thats a game I can play if I need to to keep my things safe."
On Oct 9, 2015 6:51 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She was silent as she stared into his eyes, "Tell me honestly..." she said softly, "Are you embarrassed for her to know you picked me...?" she'd asked him that before when it came to his mom and when it came to Sloth. But this was Lust. This was very different.
On Fri, Oct 9, 2015 at 3:48 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Because I want to keep my baby seal. If Lust sees a seal she's going to destroy it and I'd rather make her think otherwise so she leaves you alone." He wanted her all to himself. Was that too much to want?
On Oct 9, 2015 4:53 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She groaned, she hated Mary. The woman was a dick hungry ditz. She shook her head, "If I don't go then you have to kiss another girl and... it just makes more sense for me to go." she looked into his eyes when he touched her cheek, "If she's going to hate me no matter what, explain to me again why I have to pretend to be Mary? If she's going to hate me, why can't she hate the real me?" she was wondering if it was because Greed didn't want Lust to know he was in love with a baby seal...
On Fri, Oct 9, 2015 at 1:48 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Basically. There is nothing else in Lust's world. Remember Mary? Pretend that's your Halloween costume this year." He wiggled his fingers every time she touched a line of his tattoo. "I'd rather you not go at all, but we're gonna come to this point eventually. I'd rather it be on my own terms then hers." He lined his finger up her arm until he reached her cheek. "I want you like this. I want to keep you like this. Just remember that if I get carried away in the rouse." He didn't want her to doubt his desire for her and her alone.
On Oct 9, 2015 4:35 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Zoe wrinkled her nose, "So I have to be a floozy and you have to be a dildo." she put his hand in her lap, tracing the lines of his turtledove tattoo on his wrist, "Would that work better than an escort...? I mean, at least you could touch me."
On Fri, Oct 9, 2015 at 1:30 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Wear more makeup, dress you up. That's what I'd have to do. Sadly, you might have to act like you're only into me for my body. That's how this stuff works with Lust. Its nor able warm happy, fuzzy feelings. Maybe at one time she loved a guy but it wouldn't have lasted anyway." He'd snuffed that out before Lust had had a chance. In the end Greed knew the outcome would have been just as terrible.
On Oct 9, 2015 1:55 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Zoe made a totally uggggggggh face and burrowed into him, not liking that idea at all. She sighed, "Well... if you were to make me into someone I'm not... what would I have to do...."
On Fri, Oct 9, 2015 at 10:53 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"I might. I can't look like I'm with a stranger." He could get more touchy, Lust could bring out some side effects. But he wanted Zoe safe.
On Oct 9, 2015 12:21 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She made a face and squirmed, not looking at him, "Well... would you.. have to kiss the pretend girlfriend or hold her hand and stuff..." she didn't like the idea of him being with another girl even for pretend. And it was Lust! What if he just felt naturally more touchy feely and rubbed all over that girl.
On Fri, Oct 9, 2015 at 9:19 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"I don't know. I've told you what I think will work, but you don't want to do that. I know Lust." He knew where this could go. "I have to create a believable rouse." He didn't want to ask Zoe to do that again, but if she didn't want him to hire an escort he didn't have a choice. Lust would be ugly to both of them and he didn't want Zoe thinking less of herself again because of Lust's harsh demeanor.
On Fri, Oct 9, 2015 at 12:12 PM Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She frowned when he mentioned she might hurt him, that she didn't want. "Well I don't know why she wants to meet your girlfriend if she's going to be all murder-y about it." She squeezed him and said, "I don't want her to attack you.. how do we keep that from happening?"
On Fri, Oct 9, 2015 at 9:04 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"When she sees us together," he motioned a finger between them, "She's going to attack like an animal. If it's not you, it's gonna be me and it's going to be ugly. She's not going to be happy, nor will she be okay with it." Perhaps this was where they were destined to meet at this point. He'd been putting it off for so long, he just knew he wasn't going to walk away the same person.
On Thu, Oct 8, 2015 at 10:41 PM Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
"I don't WANT her to tear me apart and I'm not okay with it but why should we have to hide anymore? You want to be with me and she should just deal with it. Maybe.. maybe if she SEES us together then.. I don't know, she'll.. be okay with it.. or something." she said it hopefully, wanting to believe it.
On Thu, Oct 8, 2015 at 5:49 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"You want her to tear you apart? Maybe you're okay with it, but I'm not." They couldn't seem to agree on this. It was like Zoe actually wanted to do this---and Greed was getting anxious. This wasn't what he'd had in mind. He'd just thought he'd pay some escort to play girlfriend for a night and that would be it.
On Thu, Oct 8, 2015 at 2:41 PM Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She snuggled into him and countered, "If she's feeling violent won't she hurt me whether I go as someone else or myself?" she didn't see the point in disgusing herself as some tart if Lust was gonna rip her to shreds anyways.
On Thu, Oct 8, 2015 at 11:39 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Not if she's feeling violent!" He sat upright now, there was this need to hug her close. He needed her to understand. She was still trying to bargain with him (and he supposed he trained her right), but this wasn't like a dinner with Satan.
On Oct 8, 2015 1:58 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She took his hand and kinda hugged it as she said, "Well wouldn't she still degrade me even if I'm not me? I mean... if she's going to hate me anyway, then shouldn't I just go as myself?"
On Thu, Oct 8, 2015 at 10:54 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Lust isn't Sloth or my mom. Lust doesn't have a nice bone im her body that isn't to hurt someone later. She's ruthless Zoe. This isn't going to end well if she meets you as you. She will degrade you. She will make you feel worthless and I don't want that. Don't you think I know her better than anyone else?" He'd been very sneaky these last few years, and if they played this his way, they might come put of this unharmed."
On Thu, Oct 8, 2015, 12:52 PM Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
"No I didn't, I met her as your nanny chloe." she shuffled around and looked at him imploringly, "You tried to dress me up for Sloth and he liked me better as myself. Maybe if she sees me as myself then she'll.. I don't know.. she'll understand? I met your mom as myself too and that wasn't totally horrible... aside from the veiled threats and clawing your shoulder." his mom had met her as 'chloe' too and threatened her then too but seemed kinda amused when he discovered Greed was domestic with Zoe.
On Thu, Oct 8, 2015 at 9:45 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com>wrote:
"You met her as you and it got weird. I would rather not tempt her with slitting your throat if at all possible." Did she get his worry? If he didn't cloak her with a mask of some sort or replace her for a night he didn't know what could happen. "She's unpredictable."
On Oct 8, 2015 11:53 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Zoe sat up and was kinda reeling from this still... a second ago they were talking about having a baby together and now they might be dying. She stayed silent as she thought about it and this small voice in her head was saying that maybe this wasn't such a bad idea... "What if... what if I meet her.. just as myself?" would that be so horrible? She met Greed's mom as herself and survived and Zoe wanted to live her life freely with Greed.
On Thu, Oct 8, 2015 at 7:17 AM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"You want me to put you in the mouth of a tiger? She'll either rip you to shreds or destroy me in front of you. I'd either have to fake you as someone else or do what you hate...Make you up into someone you're not." He could toy with Lust all he wanted but she might throw a wrench in their little bubble of happiness.
On Oct 8, 2015 12:39 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Okay that was so not what she'd been expecting to hear. "Meet me?" she gave him a wary look because did Lust want to kill her or something? Then she frowned even more, "Why would you get an escort? You think she might kill me and she'd kill the escort instead? Why does she want to meet me anyway.." she pushed at his chest trying to sit up, very very weirded out.
On Wed, Oct 7, 2015 at 9:35 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"She wants to meet you." Or a version of her. "I could get an escort. Make her think in a week or two that I've moved on." He'd gotten good at fooling Lust. He wondered if Glutt were there if he'd be able to scam him as well. "She wants to meet on Friday."
On Oct 8, 2015 12:05 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She was very very tense, she hadn't even blinked as she stared at him, "And... she.. wants you back..?" she was on the edge of panic.
On Wed, Oct 7, 2015 at 9:01 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
When she didn't say anything he proceeded, saying it slowly so she heard him without creating her own story ahead of him. "I slipped and said I had a girlfriend to Wrath's kid. She saw it." Now she wanted him to show up with his girlfriend or he again played up a rouse to knock her off track.
On Wed, Oct 7, 2015 at 11:35 PM Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Her eyes went wide as he mentioned his sister and she bristled because she was never good news. Was he leaving her? Was he going to go sleep with her? Her heart was racing and she was stiff on top of him but she only stared, waiting for him to go on. She was holding her breath.
On Wed, Oct 7, 2015 at 8:28 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
He was going to murder her happy moment. He was going to crush her with just his sister's name alone. "It's Lust." He waited for her to breathe again after he'd sucked out the air from her lungs. He dreaded this now, it was only going to add to her suspicions and worries.
On Wed, Oct 7, 2015 at 10:22 PM Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
"Oh I'm sure you will." and she smooched him again, loving his smile. But it fluttered away as he said there was something else. "Oh?" her eyes blinking, not knowing what he was gonna say.
On Wed, Oct 7, 2015 at 7:21 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"You say that like you don't believe I can find one. I'll prove you wrong." He gave her the first real smile since he came over. It would be a little peace offering before he dropped another bomb, because those bambi eyes of hers just poured out the depths of his inner everything. It made his stomach clench in knots.
"There's something else..." Fuck honesty. It really was a beast.
On Wed, Oct 7, 2015 at 10:13 PM Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She smiled a little and pecked his lips, "They do not do rent-a-baby services. If you drop the kid or something, they'd get mad." she kissed his lips again, "But I tell you what, if you can find a LEGIT rent a baby service, we can give it a shot and see how we are." she was pretty sure he wouldnt.
On Wed, Oct 7, 2015 at 7:10 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"They do rent-a-maid services. Can't you rent a baby?" Oh. My. God. It was brilliant! Surely he could pay someone to give him a baby for a few days or something? He still hadn't picked up on the big M-word that she hadn't said yet. He was focused on baby, baby, BABY! He hadn't even told her about Lust yet...
On Wed, Oct 7, 2015 at 9:01 PM Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She opened her mouth and couldn't say it, a pink hitting her cheeks and she closed her mouth, opened it again but he just seemed so far into having a baby the fact she wanted to be married before she had kids seemed like a whole nother giant problem. So instead said, "It's.. just.. we aren't equipped for taking care of a baby. And it's not like they have a rent-a-baby where we can try it out."
On Wed, Oct 7, 2015 at 5:56 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"What other thing?" She'd lost him now. He was still thinking about the difference between a newborn and the baby they'd taken care of together. Greed could easily get jealous of a baby in the same way he'd been jealous of Sammy at first. He didn't seem to care right now he just WANTED her to say yes to having one in Kansas.
On Wed, Oct 7, 2015 at 4:29 PM Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
"Yeah, I've heard it's realllllly painful. And we took care of a baby that wasn't a newborn. A newborn is about half the size of the Ava we had for a little while. Newborns are tiny and they sleep for like two hours at a time. And they poop and throw up a lot. I can't do all that on my own and...." she looked down at his chest and chewed on her bottom lip, "And... you know.. there's... the other thing..." she vaguely said.
On Wed, Oct 7, 2015 at 1:27 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Wrath said it was painful." He emphasized his sisters words with a little drama. "We took care of a baby before," when Greed stole it from church and spoiled it. She would be a few years older now. He had forgotten how much poop and vomit came out of it. Sammy wouldn't have even survived on his own with Greed without Zoe to do most of the work. And Greed's golden betta was at Zoe's mercy if left to Greed alone.
On Oct 7, 2015 2:04 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She gave him a look, "I like your brains. You always say you're okay with being in pain and even dying but... I'm not. It..." she wiggled her fingers against his chest, she was seriously thinking about this and said, "Okay, even if.. IF I agreed to try for a baby in Kansas... it's not gonna be any time soon. I told you before, we aren't equipped to take care of a baby.. for one we can't live together and I'm sorry but I'm not going through pregnancy alone, it looks terrifying. And then once the baby is here they dont sleep through the night and you have to change diapers all the time. Are you gonna risk getting baby poop on your shag rug at your place?"
On Wed, Oct 7, 2015 at 11:01 AM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"So we scramble my brains. I want an Ava more." She knew how far he'd go for anything. This was no different, and he was making an effort to find another alternative to demon deals.
On Oct 7, 2015 1:03 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She wrinkled her nose, no, she couldn't sleep with him in another face. At least Zombie him the body was familiar. She sighed and shook her head, "It messes you up too much. Taking monthly trips to Kansas when I'm ovulating is gonna scramble your brains. Besides, we can't have a baby right NOW. We can try Kansas later.. when we're more ready."
On Wed, Oct 7, 2015 at 10:00 AM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"You'd rathwr have sex with me in a different face?" Clearly she wouldn't be comfortable with it. He shrugged at mentioning Kansas. It had been a long time since he vomited black bile and felt like he was dying. But it it took that, he didn't give a damn how many times he had to try. "So, we just keep trying until it sticks."
On Oct 7, 2015 12:32 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Zoe made a face, "I don't wanna rape him... and you'd be okay with that? Watching me have sex with zombie you? Cause ya know its' not you, it's a completely different person. Plus... he won't be able to get it up if he's passed out or scared.." she thought about what he said about kansas and bit her bottom lip as she looked into his eyes, "Kansas.... it does things to you. It takes you awhile to recover... and even if we did, it doesn't mean that it'd work. I mean.. pregnancy requires a LOT of tries over a period of months.."
On Wed, Oct 7, 2015 at 9:28 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"So I tied him to the bed and make him. Drug him...something..." he was desperate. It was in his voice how far he was trying to go that didn't involve a third person. Well, a third person that wasn't really him.
"There's always Kansas..." though it turned his insides to mush, he was willing.
On Oct 7, 2015 11:54 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
He didn't answer her but his not answer meant no. She frowned, "What.. turn your body into a zombie that hates me again? Firstly, there is the whole he dislikes me thing, secondly, I'm not sleeping with him again if he's not you. Which he wouldn't be. Thirdly, wouldn't that make it a baby that LOOKS like you but isnt you? Wouldn't it give the baby the zombie traits and not yours?"
On Wed, Oct 7, 2015 at 8:52 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"I just wanna come up with a way to get what we both want." He was mapping out every alternative but the one Andras gave him. "What if...I changed faces again? Separate the boy
from Sin?" It would make a perfectly human baby."
On Oct 7, 2015 2:20 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She closed her eyes at his touch and nodded but still... "Will I be enough for you..?" she asked. There was a chance for him to have a baby out there. With her, he'd never have it. And neither would she. She could have a baby with another man.. but she was choosing to be with Greed.
On Tue, Oct 6, 2015 at 11:09 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Its not mine without you." He softly ran his hand through her hair. "I need Ava to have you in there or its not Ava." He hadn't told her that, but it was important. He had created a Frankenstein baby in his head and so had Zoe. That was their fantasy.
On Oct 7, 2015 12:41 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She shook her head, her eyes incredibly sad about it. 'You didn't care. You had a mini you that was all you and you didn't need me you said." Zoe didn't want a mini her, she wasn't interested in that, she wanted a mini them. And she knew that Greed hadn't said that to her in real life, but it didn't make it hurt less.
On Tue, Oct 6, 2015 at 9:35 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"You weren't there?" He didn't want a little girl that didn't have her golden caramel skin. She looked like she was kissed by the sun, it made her glitter in his eyes. She was his glittery jewel of the Nile. Ava would only be Ava with that same gorgeous complexion. The demon deal may still be twirling around in his mind, but the more it swirled the less happy he was with the terms.
On Tue, Oct 6, 2015 at 11:13 PM Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She stayed quiet for a few moments, swirling patterns on his chest, following his chest hair, "You had a baby. A little girl. With blonde hair, blue eyes, crooked nose, she looked exactly like a mini you... and you were so happy with it that you didn't need me anymore." which was her worst nightmare right now.. that he'd take the deal the demon offered, the temptation would be too great. And that he'd end up happy with it.
On Tue, Oct 6, 2015 at 8:02 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
Greed was still coming awake, but he could hear the sadness in her voice. "What was it?" because she was going to give him that sad puppy face and stay up all night if he didn't get her to say what was wrong.
On Tue, Oct 6, 2015 at 8:10 PM Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She shook her head, "Not for a few hours..." she sighed, "Nothing... had a bad dream..." was all she said and looked at his chest instead of his eyes. She was pretty wide awake.
On Tue, Oct 6, 2015 at 3:33 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
Greed blinked, rubbing his eyes seemingly confused with the fact it wasn't daytime. "Its not time for me to go to work?" He blinked a few more times, opening up his eyes to find hers staring back at him. "What's wrong?" She wasn't sleeping. Usually she slept so easy with him.
On Oct 6, 2015 4:34 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Zoe grinned as he kissed the air, searching for her lips. He was an adorable goofball, she watched him for a few seconds and then brushed her lips over his. She rested on his chest, no sun, but her brown eyes were staring at him as she asked in a hushed voice, "Did I wake you?"
On Tue, Oct 6, 2015 at 1:32 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
He kissed the air to feel her lips again, but he just felt air. After a few excruciating moments he squited his eyes open for the daylight sun. It was still dark. Now he was confused.
On Tue, Oct 6, 2015, 4:27 PM Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
"I'm right here..." she replied just as softly and shifted a little so he could feel her body move against his. But she wasn't sleepy at all anymore. She didn't want to have nightmares again.
On Tue, Oct 6, 2015 at 1:18 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Zoe?" He called out softly, eyes still closed when he didn't feel those little kisses anymore. She had him confused and he needed cuddles.
On Oct 6, 2015 2:13 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She felt comforted by that kiss, she liked how he responded to her even in sleep. She kissed his nose and his cheek and his jaw because he was adorable and sweet even if he was a creation of hell meant to corrupt and destroy. She loved the way they fit in her bed, there was barely any room for Sammy even except at their feet. It was like her life, the bed was made for one, for her, and Greed was so big but he managed to squeeze in.. and made it work.
On Tue, Oct 6, 2015 at 11:09 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
His features softened a little at her sweet touch. His lips even kissed her back, but he was still deep in sleep. In his head the touch was just part of his dream.
On Oct 6, 2015 2:07 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She just looked at him for a few moments and then ran a hand over his hair in the middle before touching his cheek and giving him a kiss. She needed to. Feeling him there physically with her was one thing, but this was to feel him in a whole nother way (even if he was asleep).
On Tue, Oct 6, 2015 at 11:02 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
At her poke Greed just grunted but didn't open his eyes. He was in a deep dreamy sleep himself. He had no idea she was awake or that she'd had a such a sad dream. The one he was in was not pleasant either. Both of their fears were still deeply rooted in their subconscious and it was lashing out at thwir happiness and trying to squash them both.
On Tue, Oct 6, 2015, 1:58 PM Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
That was the thing about grief and sadness, it was exhausting. So she had some sleep but after a few hours, she woke up again with a jolt. She had a dream about a little girl that looked like Greed and nothing like her.. that Greed didn't need her anymore. But Greed was right there with her, in just his boxers since they both shed their bottoms and their legs were tangled together. She poked him lightly in the arm as if to check he was real.
On Tue, Oct 6, 2015 at 9:34 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
Zoe was the only thing of comfort in this dark, dark place. At one time he'd had Lust, but her babying only made him feel like a coddled child. Zoe made him feel as if they were on equal ground. A lover who grieved for not only herself but for him too. It was nice to not be alone or he would have done something bad. Something really bad.
He held onto her after that, cuddled tightly in that small bed of hers as the lights above cast little twinkling shadows across their skin. They fell asleep twisted in each other's arms, bundled under the covers.
On Tue, Oct 6, 2015 at 12:51 AM Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Zoe could feel him start to cry and her own tears spilled onto the tattoo as she squeezed him. She eventually moved under his arm and burrowed around to his front so she could hold him tight and he'd be able to feel her and hold onto her as well. Sometimes it was important to talk, but right now.. it was important to grieve.
On Mon, Oct 5, 2015 at 9:49 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
It was pathetic this kind of behavior. Tears? So childish. It was a disgusting way to react, but Greed was being told once again that he could not have something. He didn't want Wrath's kid. He didn't want someone else's kid. He wanted his, and more importantly it had to be with Zoe. It meant he could create something, just as Zoe said he could do. He could build his own family and have his own.
That was too human. That was something reserved for the rest of the world. That wasn't going to be a part of Greed's own hoard of things. And just like the time he lost Josie and broke down, here he did the same thing.
On Tue, Oct 6, 2015 at 12:40 AM Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Zoe put her arms around his middle from behind and kissed the tattoo he had for their Ava. She rested her cheek against it and just held him like that. She could feel it rolling off him in waves... that he was heading towards a dangerous area and she wanted to keep him here with her. She'd normally ask him to talk to her.. but she didn't know what else there was to say.
On Mon, Oct 5, 2015 at 9:38 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
Once she had his shoes off, he put his feet over the side of the bed and just sat there for a minute as he pulled his shirt off. He sat with it balled in his hands, his head down, giving her a clear view of the tattoo that would always be their Ava. Greed didn't say a word, he was quiet and he looked near tears. This wasn't fair. Why was he denied something else? He wanted to break things. He wanted things to hurt.
On Tue, Oct 6, 2015 at 12:32 AM Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She scooted over on the bed so he could sit down properly. She tugged on his legs so he could put them up and she could take off his shoes since he wouldn't remember. She'd glanced at the peeping tatt but looked away. She wanted to have more than just the story right now.
On Mon, Oct 5, 2015 at 9:26 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
He wouldn't tell her about Lust's invite tonight. It would completely ruin the moment. When he put her down on the bed, he kissed her forehead, releasing her only long enough to take off his leather jacket. He sat on the bed, the collar of his t-shirt low enough to reveal that pretty little tattoo he'd had plastered across his neck. It was their Ava. It was the story that they'd tell each other again and again.
On Tue, Oct 6, 2015 at 12:23 AM Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She put her arms around his neck as he swept her up into his arms. She was pretty tiny in his arms and she loved how safe she felt in them. Even with how sad and painful tonight was, she felt like as long as he was with her, it'd become okay eventually.
On Mon, Oct 5, 2015 at 9:20 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
They were just a ball of emotions tonight. Crazy, psychotic ball of emotions that just needed to be cuddled. He picked her up off the floor, her feet dangling off his arm so he could carry her into her room like a fireman rescuing a small child. It was manly. It made him feel like he was protecting her again from the big bad hound.
On Mon, Oct 5, 2015 at 10:48 PM Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
"I know..." her tone said she knew EXACTLY how he felt. Because this was something being denied her too. And she could have a baby. If she wanted one, she could go out and get pregnant. But she wanted one with Greed. She just hung onto him as a tear slid down her nose and off the tip of it.
On Mon, Oct 5, 2015 at 7:45 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
He was the one clinging to her now, his arms vices around her middle. "It doesn't mean it hurts any less." It didn't. It hurt a lot. It made him sad. Here he had something none of the others did and now he'd been cheated again from something else.
On Mon, Oct 5, 2015 at 9:45 PM, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Her hands curled into his jacket and she held on, "Then when you're tempted... hold on to that image. That feeling." she knew it was painful and it sucked but if it prevented him from destroying their lives.. then she was fine with it.
On Mon, Oct 5, 2015 at 6:39 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"I would die." He was being dramatic but it practically stabbed him over and over again to think about. It hadn't even happened and he was replaying the movie in his head of what would happen. "I'd murder the father." He'd be ruthless. He'd be mean. He'd hate it.
On Mon, Oct 5, 2015 at 9:19 PM Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
"What if I was tempted..." she said, using his own words back at him. She wasn't tempted to procreate with anyone else. If she did have a baby, she'd want it to be with Greed because she didn't want a child for the hell of having one, she wanted one that was a mini them.
On Mon, Oct 5, 2015 at 6:15 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
He took a deep breath, coming out as an irritated huff. "I wouldn't let you have a baby with someone else." That was out of the question, which was her point. She had to reroute his brain when he stood between a rock and a hardplace.
On Mon, Oct 5, 2015 at 9:11 PM Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She knew that but she still felt like she'd been stomped on, "When you get tempted.. and I'm not there..." since his last deal had happened without her being present for it, "I want you to think of what if the situation was reversed. You know I want a baby one day.. but I want one with you. So think of how you would feel if I went off, slept with someone else.. and had a baby with them." she knew he had a hard time of thinking in her place unless she put him there.
On Mon, Oct 5, 2015 at 6:08 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com>wrote:
"I can't help it..." he whispered, his chin sitting softly atop her head. "I can't help that I'm tempted and that I fight with myself of what I'm denied in both cases." He knew what would hurt more. Because having an Ava without Zoe didn't make it an Ava. It also meant being alone. He'd grown used to having her. He knew without a doubt he'd be miserable without her. He knew that because he was before.
On Mon, Oct 5, 2015 at 8:41 PM Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She buried her face into his chest, "And you're still tempted..." she said quietly because she knew him and she knew it was who he was. Hot tears lined her lashes and she could feel a sharp pain in her chest because when he'd dumped her to go play with his new face, that was callous and painful. But a child... something she wanted with him and couldn't have.. for him to go and knowingly have it with someone else. She would never recover from that, she'd never forgive him.
On Mon, Oct 5, 2015 at 5:38 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com>wrote:
"I know what it'll do. I know it'll destroy everything. I won't be able to come back from that." He knew it could destroy him. A new face was one thing, but this was treading too far into the deepest end of the ocean. She'd leave him for sure. Destroying him more than her growing old and dying was the fact that she would still be alive and despise him.
That he couldn't live with.
On Mon, Oct 5, 2015 at 8:29 PM Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She knew it was being honest but it still hurt. "If you... if you end up making the deal... that's your choice. I won't stop you." she never did, she knew it'd make him want it more, "But I'm going to be honest with you too.. if you go make a baby with someone else... you'll break my heart into such tiny pieces, it won't ever be able to get fixed." her face crumpling cause the thought of it even was enough to kill her.
On Mon, Oct 5, 2015 at 5:24 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"It is. It's very tempting..." and he didn't finish the sentence because it was still tempting him. He would talk himself one way and then another. Greed own greed would push for anything he didn't have, and he had to bargain with himself that if he made that leap he'd suffer dire consequences as he had before. Maybe even worse. That burn was what stopped him from saying yes right away.
On Mon, Oct 5, 2015 at 7:56 PM Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
"I know.. and I always want you to tell me the truth even if it hurts." she rubbed her lips together and said, "I do too..." she hugged him tight, "I just... I know it's tempting for you.."
On Mon, Oct 5, 2015 at 4:45 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
She held on to him so tight like he'd vanish into thin air. The leather of his jacket choking against her grip and making noise. "I wanted to tell you the truth. But the truth is if I made another deal it would sour and I still wouldn't have what I want. I want a Sin baby, but I want it to be part of you." And he was still fragile though, questioning that deal if only because it was the promise of a baby.
On Mon, Oct 5, 2015 at 7:30 PM Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She closed her eyes and let his kiss soothe her even tho she still felt the sting of earlier. She kissed him back and held onto his jacket and was actually really glad he was here. She needed him right now. She wasn't thinking that she wanted a baby because Wrath had one, Zoe had wanted one with Greed since... since probably the day they had the pregnancy scare. It just seemed like everyone else was having babies, her father, his siblings, and they, the one couple that WANTED it, couldn't.
On Mon, Oct 5, 2015 at 4:27 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
He cupped her face, nose to nose and gave her a sweet kiss. He was worried deep down. The desire to have something else that one of his siblings had had struck a chord with him. A chord he didn't even know he wanted quite this bad. Wrath being with George had prompted Greed to want a relationship. Now Wrath had something else that it seemed he'd never have. Unless...he struck a deal with a demon that he knew would turn up on it's head.
On Mon, Oct 5, 2015 at 7:02 PM Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Zoe smiled a little but it was sad, "Well it can be golden like yours and candy floss feeling like mine..." cause she knew he liked how her hair felt. They could say she could have two heads for all it mattered, they'd never have a baby. She didn't even look in Morgan's direction as the other girl left.
On Mon, Oct 5, 2015 at 3:54 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"You want her to have my hair?" He felt a little giddy about that. "I wanted her hair to be like yours." Both of them wanted the other to be the image they saw, and in a way they were cooking up their non-existent baby. It only started to make him sad again.
At this point Morgan had said her goodnight and went back to bed. This was a little too weird for her to understand. She'd ask Zoe about it later.
On Mon, Oct 5, 2015 at 2:27 AM Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
"Your shit eating grin. Your golden hair." she touched his head, "Your crazy laugh. Your fat bottom lip. Your creativity. Your curiosity. Your intelligence. Your sense of humor." she rested her hands on his jacket. Their daughter would have been a little dynamo.
On Sun, Oct 4, 2015 at 11:24 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"What of mine would she have?" If she was going to have brown eyes like her? She was right though, her eyes had captured him and tied him up. She was the lighthouse that his boat was hung up on her shore.
On Oct 5, 2015 2:17 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Her eyes filled up with tears and she sniffled and shook her head a little, "Brown eyes. She has to have my eyes because then you won't be able to resist her." since it was Zoe's eyes that had done Greed in.
On Sun, Oct 4, 2015 at 11:14 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"It won't be the same." He'd had a moment of weakness. He'd considered the deal. He wouldn't have been Greed if he'd not fallen to temptation...he was temptation in itself. He gave into things when he had his mind set. But he knew Andras' baby wasn't going to have the things he'd dreamed his Ava would have. "But it wouldn't be your Ava. It wouldn't have caramel skin or candy floss hair. It won't have blue eyes or a shit eating grin." It wouldn't be their Ava.
On Mon, Oct 5, 2015 at 2:11 AM Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
"And now we're in a relationship." said Zoe and then her eyes went wide as Greed bounded in and took her face. She could only blink for a moment and then said, "Apparently there IS a person you can actually have an Ava with." and it wasn't her. She didn't even care Morgan was there, this was more important.
On Sun, Oct 4, 2015 at 11:08 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
Morgan looked a bit shocked. "I thought you were just dating?" It was curious to her now of course, because in a short span of time they'd made it official? And yet, here Zoe was looking as unhappy as ever. When Zoe opened up the door, Greed bounced in and grabbed her face, his nose on hers, his voice just a breath pitter pattering against her face. "I can't have Ava's with anyone else." Of course the scene in front of others looked like he was a psychopath.
On Mon, Oct 5, 2015 at 2:04 AM Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Zoe frowned as she heard the key at the lock, "Is that.." and then the hammering started and she just knew it was Greed. Morgan sighed, "That guy you're dating was trying to barge in." Zoe gave her a look with a sigh, "That guy is my boyfriend." she padded over to the door and removed the chair, opening it to her insane boyfriend.
On Sun, Oct 4, 2015 at 11:02 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com>wrote:
Greed juggled the door when it felt like forever. How long did it take to ask the damn question? He slipped his key in and tried to open, but all he did was make the chair squeak. When that didn't get an answer he started hammering on the door. He was not walking away when this shitstorm of a situation had just poked the holes he'd just patched up.
On Mon, Oct 5, 2015 at 1:45 AM Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Zoe heard the stamp of the foot and the scuffle and then the door shutting. She frowned and got up going to her door and opening it, sticking her head out, "Morg..? Everything okay?" Morgan smiled, "Yeah, just.. you know, being extra careful. Why don't you go back to sleep..." the poor girl had been crying, she could tell but Zoe clammed up whenever she tried to prod about it but Morgan tried again, "I mean Zoe.. you can talk to me if you want to ya know." Zoe instantly shook her head, "Just blue. And I am tired... goodnight."
On Sun, Oct 4, 2015 at 10:41 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"This is an emergency!" He stamped his foot like a little kid. This girl was the Cerberus guarding his entry into hell. He'd made a big mess (like he always did) and he had to fix it before it just splintered everything. "I'll have to ask Zoe." He tried to make it past her again but she was skeptical, closing the door partially on his face before shutting it again, putting a chair up under the knob so he couldn't get in even if he tried to use the key again.
On Mon, Oct 5, 2015 at 1:38 AM Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Zoe wasn't asleep. She couldn't sleep. She was just staring up at the little lights Greed had put up for her and lay there in her skull tank top (cause it reminded her of his ava tattoo) and her pj's. She thought she heard voices but figured Morgan had someone over. Morgan pointed at the door, "You can't just show up like this, and didn't Zoe say you could only use that key in case of an emergency?"
On Sun, Oct 4, 2015 at 10:34 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
Zoe didn't return his calls for hours. He kept getting thrown to voicemail. In the midst of all this baby talk, demon deals and becoming an uncle overnight, Greed was overloaded. One thing was for certain---his girlfriend had shut down and cut him out for the night.
He couldn't sleep with that. So he showed up in the middle of the night. He was working the key to the door, trying to wiggle it open but something stopped him. It was Morgan. The bitchy red-head on the other side. With her bedhead and ugly frown she looked at him on the other side, eyes practically open. "What the hell are you here for?" He pulled his key out of the door and stood there with a half-hearted grin. "Zoe?" He started to make his way in, but Morgan stopped him, her hand on his chest. She wasn't letting him in the apartment this late at night.
"She's asleep. Let her sleep." She'd gone to bed early, and even Morgan didn't get the chance to be around her before she left.
On Mon, Oct 5, 2015 at 12:53 AM Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Zoe shut off her phone and told Morgan she was gonna turn in early. She thought about staying up with the girl and doing a girls night but Greed thinking about having a baby with another woman felt like a kick to her stomach when she was already feeling down. She wanted a baby with Greed. Some day. She wanted a wedding. She wanted to be married to him. And she was trying to accept she wouldn't get those things and she never stopped to consider he'd just go get those things with someone else. It was his nature. So she picked up Sammy and took him to bed.