Zoe (history_repeats) wrote in nevermore_logs, @ 2015-06-17 11:44:00 |
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Entry tags: | greed, zoe hansen |
WHO: Zoe & Greed
WHEN: June 2 [Backdated]
WHERE: Zoe's apartment
WHAT: Greed moving out
WARNING: None
Note: The log reads backwards
"I think you just wanted to put my insides on a roller coaster for about five seconds." He hugged her then. They'd been doing a lot of that since everything with Digger had started. They were both shaken up, but now they were starting to see they'd done a lot of it to themselves and that was where the dishonesty really was. Between them. Something they'd said they wouldn't do.
On Wed, Jun 3, 2015 at 1:34 AM, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She kept the jar raised, her eyes peeking out over it at him waiting to see if he'd hurl, and ready for it. She didn't expect him to say it back, she honestly didn't know if he was even sure he felt it even tho he claimed he did. But it was okay.. she'd give him the time he needed and just hope.. just hope. When it seemed like he'd managed to calm it down, she put the jar in her lap and leaned in to kiss his nose.
On Tue, Jun 2, 2015 at 10:25 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
She jerked a knot in stomach. No matter how she said that he felt his insides come up through his throat. That cookie jar was almost necessary, but he managed to swallow it down. More than that he felt the tug to say it back.
On Jun 2, 2015 11:34 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
He wasn't the guy that adored and cherished her, he wasn't the guy that suffocated her with so much love she had no choice but to give in, he wasn't the guy that chased her to the ends of the earth and tackled her into a relationship. But he was still Greed. She looked to the left and then the right and leaned over, grabbing the cookie jar on the counter. She opened the lid and held the open jar in her hands between them, "But I still love you." and she meant that. She lifted the jar a little higher and closer to his mouth if he wanted to barf.
On Tue, Jun 2, 2015 at 8:31 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"I'm not there yet...I'm still not your Greed...." and he knew that. This death and resurrection thing had set him back more than he realized, and on his own it just took him that much longer to get things underway. He was fast mentally, but everything else was catching up slowly. It was putting a stunt in their relationship.
On Tue, Jun 2, 2015 at 8:58 PM, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She had a look on her face like he was telling her being with her was like being with garbage. "No one wants Lucky Charms without the marshmallows..." she said softly and tucked a strand of hair behind her ear, waiting for him to move because this.. this closeness and sweetness, she totally expected it to end and this to be a fluke.
On Tue, Jun 2, 2015 at 5:50 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"It's like having a box of lucky charms without the marshmallows. I still want it. It tastes good but not as sweet. I fell for you but things are still off a bit. I'm not the carbon copy of what I was before. I got some catching up to do..." She wasn't giving him time to do it. It was a mess, but in the end...it was going to work wasn't it? He was starting to be at least some of himself.
On Tue, Jun 2, 2015 at 12:40 PM, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She took a deep breath and still didn't look at him, wringing her fingers together, "When you came back.. and we'd gone to Fiji and you kept forgetting me.. we realized it's cause you knew you wanted me but you didn't know why, you didn't feel for me. Then on New Years you fell for me again... but you didn't say you loved me till a month ago. But you said it. If you fell for me on New years, isn't that a inner connection? Or when you said you loved me? Isn't that an inner connection?" but here they were and he was saying now he was having that connection and didn't before.
On Tue, Jun 2, 2015 at 9:37 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"I said what?" She needed to tell him or it was just empty air up in that head of his. He said and did a lot of good and a lot of shit things. He didn't always remember either, even tho he was receptive and observant. Considering his lack of observances lately, she needed to fill in a few more blanks.
On Jun 2, 2015 12:47 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She didn't look at him but at his shoulder so her gaze raised so he could see her eyes, big brown and wet and filled with hurt. "You said that before.. you said..." and those tears came back fast and hard because she just felt like falling apart. Because he fell back in love with her at the beginning of the year.. he said it to her.. well, asked and then spit it back that he did too just a month ago.. wasn't that an inner connection?
On Mon, Jun 1, 2015 at 9:41 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
When she looked like a bird whose wing had just been crushed it made her being the scapegoat less appealing. He wanted her to hurt some, but she made it not as enjoyable. He shook his head with a sigh. "It's because I wasn't as into it before. It was physical. It was sex. But I didn't have the inner connection I have now..." He was the reason she was confused.
On Jun 2, 2015 12:08 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She looked wounded when he brought up the fact she lied and looked at the ground, her hands leaving him to fold together, "I'm not saying you're a liar.. I'm just saying I'm not used to you wanting to touch me anymore unless you want sex.. my body isn't used to it and if that's how you want things then fine, that's how they are and I'll deal with it but.. please don't get me used to this again if you don't want to do it." she wouldn't be able to handle it, to lose his little sweet touches again.
On Mon, Jun 1, 2015 at 8:58 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"You lie to me and now you're calling me the liar. You think I planned that?" She was freaking out and while he knew why, it didn't mean he was okay with it. "So, you want me not to do it anymore?" Her unsurity was really starting to mess with him, so he had to steer it back on course so that she made sense again.
On Mon, Jun 1, 2015 at 10:34 PM, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
"Well what if next time you don't..." she rubbed her temple, confused and kinda exhausted. "What if this was a fluke and you go back to what it was before. Greed, you don't.. you don't even kiss me hello anymore when you see me. You only do it when you want sex or making out. And if you start this.. I don't know how to react." which was a really sad thing to say because what they had used to be so natural and instinctual but now Zoe just wasn't sure of anything.
On Mon, Jun 1, 2015 at 7:29 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Well, this time I did...." Greed was starting to really get that he'd steamrolled this himself. He'd completely flattened her out and now she didn't know what was what anymore. More of this was his fault than he'd even thought before and it just made him mad at himself as well as the rest of his family's intervention with his world. Now what was he supposed to do? He wanted to kill, maim, boil in hot oil and fix his girlfriend.
On Mon, Jun 1, 2015 at 10:07 PM, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She was having a hard time articulating it and finally lifted her head, her brows knitted as she said, "I don't know, I don't know anymore. You never kiss me anymore unless you want sex, I'm so used to you only doing that when you want something sexual that my body doesn't seem to realize that a kiss or a touch or a nuzzle can be delicate and gentle and loving and for non-sexual reasons and that scares me and I.. don't understand any of it." this was not her area, she was feeling like she was disconnected from her body right now and it was unnerving.
On Mon, Jun 1, 2015 at 7:02 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"What? You don't know what?" He needed her to tell him what it was, even if he knew. He needed her to not keep things from him again, because as she learned from his lies, there was a little bit of broken trust now. Greed had enough trust taken away from his family, he didn't need it circling his new family.
On Mon, Jun 1, 2015 at 8:43 PM, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She squirmed again but stayed in the crook of his neck, "Because that's.. you know I'm not that girl. I was listening and I was.. I didn't.. I don't know..." she was wickedly confused, it wasn't like her to get aroused during a serious talk.
On Mon, Jun 1, 2015 at 5:40 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Why are you so upset?" He'd confused her and completely derailed anything she'd thought she'd learned with his returning to the land of the living. Of course more than her mind would be confused, so would her body.
On Mon, Jun 1, 2015 at 7:01 PM, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She pouted, "Of course I was!" and smacked him lightly again, putting her head back on his shoulder. She wasn't smiling, she was mortified and upset and mainly confused. He'd done a very good job of teaching her body what his touch meant, it meant GO, he had managed to suck all the sweetness and softness out of what his touch used to mean with her and she had no idea that it'd even happened.
On Mon, Jun 1, 2015 at 3:58 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Oh, you really were listening." He smiled for the first time since they started discussing this whole debacle. He was amused now, but he saw the effect he had on her and himself since returning. Everything had him focusing her as if she were a replacement for Lust. Sadly, he was doing the same to Digger, recreating a Sin of his own because of what he didn't have with his own family.
On Jun 1, 2015 4:45 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She made a small whine of protest when he purposely wiggled to make it worse, she smacked his chest and said, "You want to tie up Digger and you want to boil them in a vat of hot oil and you basically want them to hurt because you're hurting. You want to punish them." and she gave him a look, see she was listening.. it wasn't her fault entirely that he switched things around her again.
On Mon, Jun 1, 2015 at 1:43 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"If you heard every word, what did I say?" He wasn't letting her off the hook just yet. He also liked tormenting her a little at the thought he'd had that profound of an effect. He wiggled between her legs a little just to make her squirmy.
On Jun 1, 2015 2:20 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
"I wasn't.....!" she whined, still hiding in his shoulder, "I was listening, I heard every word you said but..." she paused, not wanting him to get upset but finally said, "...you never do.. this.." she gestured with a hand at them, her on the counter and his nuzzles and kisses, "...anymore unless you want sex. My body just..." she trailed off. She had been used to him having conversations like this once upon a time but lately he rarely kissed her at all unless he was horny and wanted some sexual release. Her body was now used to that and couldn't keep up with his mood changes fast enough.
On Mon, Jun 1, 2015 at 11:16 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
There was some sweet satisfaction in her mortification. He also didn't want everything he said to have been dropped to the floor because he'd turned into sexy beast somehow. "You were obviously thinking about it, unless your body decided to betray you."
On Jun 1, 2015 11:24 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She was mortified and put her forehead on his shoulder, basically trying to hide, "I wasn't either.. I was listening to you, I swear." her voice strained because she didn't want him to think she wasn't paying attention.
On Mon, Jun 1, 2015 at 7:53 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
He stared at her for a long time. His brain wasn't getting the memo until she squirmed around him. Then he could feel that wave of want and lust. It made him snort. "I wasn't even thinking about sex..."
On Jun 1, 2015 10:20 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She would not look at him as her face turned a brighter shade of red and she mumbled, "I need to change.." squirming on the counter.
On Mon, Jun 1, 2015 at 7:13 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Your face gives you away. What?" He tilted his head, narrowing one eye at her peculiar behavior.
On Jun 1, 2015 2:30 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She kept staring at him like she'd done something wrong and she knew he knew, "Suspicious?" she squeaked out as if she'd been caught. But how could he know??
On Sun, May 31, 2015 at 11:29 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"You look suspicious...." he still hadn't smiled, but had an eyebrow arched when she just stared at him like a cat who'd just climbed a curtain. He had her trapped.
On Jun 1, 2015 2:20 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Really? He spent a month not realizing she was keeping a huge secret from him but this? THIS he picked up on? She furrowed her brow and tried to focus on making her face a normal color but it wasn't working, "What...? I was agreeing with you.. you shouldn't be nice.. they were wrong..." but she felt like he could tell. Could he tell or was she imaging it and her eyes looked at him like big saucers.
On Sun, May 31, 2015 at 11:18 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"What?" He looked at her with innocent eyes and she was hiding something. He squinted with a glare. "What are you not saying?"
On Jun 1, 2015 2:11 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She was a little stiff and trying not to be but all she could think about was how she had to change her underwear and she couldn't believe she did this when he was trying to have a serious conversation with her. Her mouth was hanging open a bit and she mentally kicked herself and said, "No, no need to be nice..." oh god oh god oh god... she was the worst person ever.
On Sun, May 31, 2015 at 11:08 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
He ran a hand through his blonde puff of hair, blue eyes fixated on her. Her face was a beet now. Even the tip of her nose had changed color. "I still don't think I'm gonna be nice." His other hand slid down from its perch down her side to rest on her hip. He had now idea he'd just given her such a physical reaction.
On Jun 1, 2015 2:00 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
"You could surprise them..." since they'd expect violence and maybe he could try to not do it. She tried to keep her eyes open as he kissed her, she wasn't used to so much attention without it leading somewhere... her eyes closed after a moment in the kiss and she felt something... that she should not be feeling during a serious conversation, her cheeks going from pink to red.
On Sun, May 31, 2015 at 10:56 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"They know but they never think I'll hurt them until I do." He'd done it to Lust and to Envy. It was Sloth's turn now. With all her lite touches he returned a kiss. It wasn't a sexual one or expectant one, but it was needy in an entirely different way. It was.his natural need to have some physical contact.
On Jun 1, 2015 1:52 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
"She knows you're big and bad otherwise she wouldn't have tried to hide it.." he looked so sad that she tried to ignore how heated her skin was getting where he was touching her and she tried to give him some soft soothing touches and light kisses on his cheek.
On Sun, May 31, 2015 at 10:47 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com>wrote:
"Reminds her I'm big and bad too. Shouldn't the punishment fit the crime?" He really wanted someone to hurt until his insides stopped bleeding and crying out. One hand sat on her side the entire time, his thumb rubbing idly under the band of her bra, just at her ribcage, where it drew circles against her skin.
On Jun 1, 2015 1:42 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She wrinkled her nose at the thought of him being boiled in oil, her arms around his neck cuddling him a little closer for their nuzzling, "How will that benefit you..." she asked quietly, "Aside from momentary satisfaction.." she was trying hard to focus on the conversation but he was not making it easy.
On Sun, May 31, 2015 at 10:39 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com>wrote:
"Boil her in a vat of hot oil? Had that done to me before. Its effective." His nose rubbed hers un an Eskimo kiss. He watched her cheeks change, her freckles an entirely new hue against that pink afterglow.
On Jun 1, 2015 1:31 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She was mentally yelling at herself to keep it together because she knew Greed needed her right now but her body always followed his example. He didn't want sex but he was acting in ways that her body was responding to and she was struggling to hold on even as the pink in her cheeks was rising. "Sloth is your sister and she did something wrong.. but maybe.. an alternative to burning.. is she can owe you really really big or something..." that might be better than violence.
On Sun, May 31, 2015 at 10:27 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
He was having a serious conversation. This time he wasn't just trying to get something from her. He was confused and he needed to get all of this out. He hadn't cracked a smile since they started on this topic, because it was a big one. He had no idea she was having such a strong reaction. "Sloth is gonna burn..." he wasn't Envy, but he could hold a grudge.
On Jun 1, 2015 1:18 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Zoe hadn't juggled this kind of Greed in a long time.. where kisses and touches were just... natural, and not meant to lead to sex, they were just part of his normal communication so she was trying to tell her brain not to go there. Her hands slipped down his neck and around it, "He should have... he shouldn't have done it at all but then he should have told you since he did..." his lips were on hers and she was struggling so hard to focus, "Sloth should... also... not.. have.." but there was a big ball of warmth in her stomach that was just knotting tighter and tighter.
On Sun, May 31, 2015 at 10:13 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
She would see mirrored back in those baby blues just how much it tugged on what was left of his compassion. Sin or not when he was attached, his hold was so much stronger. To have it severed in any way, jerked a knot in that human side and the Sin wanted to erode those feelings. "He should have told me..." he whispered, leaning in for another satisfying kiss. "I still want him. Sloth also has to pay. She can't have my toys."
On Jun 1, 2015 1:07 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
"I know it's hard to believe but I think he is upset about keeping this from you.. he cares about you a lot even tho he did this." she moved her hands to his face to gently move it so she could look in his eyes and not be distracted by his lashes cause they were gorgeous, "He needs to know its not okay to hurt you." because that's where a good deal of Greed's anger resided she was guessing. He trusted this mortal who betrayed him in a big way.
On Sun, May 31, 2015 at 10:00 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Doesn't matter. He needs to hurt." He kept his eyes lowered so she had the view of those big, fat lashes as they caressed his cheekbone. "He needs to know its not okay to cross me."
On Jun 1, 2015 12:51 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She was having such a hard time thinking, he hadn't acted like this with her since before he died.. she locked her ankles around him, against his butt as she basked in his attention. "I think he'd apologize before you even tied him up..." she kinda hated they were here and not in madison, she wanted to maul him right now he was turning her on in the worst way and she had the feeling he wasn't even trying.
On Sun, May 31, 2015 at 9:47 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Oh yeah?" He looked down, wiggling himself betwen her legs. "What do I do instead." He pecked her lips for a drive by kiss. "I might still tie him up to his office chair until he apologizes." Or Greed just punished him.
On Jun 1, 2015 12:27 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
He might be saying he wanted to choke Digger but his movements were anything but violent. Her eyes went wide as he set her on it again and her lips parted in surprise. His words were so not sexy but his actions were causing a thrill to go up her spine. "Okay... no killing... that's doable." her hands wandered along his upper shoulders along his back as he nuzzled her, lashes kinda lowering, "We just.. keep you focused on other things.. that don't involve.. choking.. or him.. or killing.." he hadn't done stuff like this in a looooong time and she felt like she'd melt into a puddle.
On Sun, May 31, 2015 at 9:23 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Right now I want to choke him." He backed her towards the countertop again, lifting her up, so she was on his level. He put his hands on either side of her on the marble tabletop, his nose nuzzled against hers. "If I choke him I might kill him and I don't really want to do that."
On Jun 1, 2015 12:05 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She ran her fingers up and down the back of his neck, "Whatever you want. But my suggestion is to continue to take some time to process it. Maybe focus on packing right now and then when you feel ready, when YOU do, not him, you can talk to him about it. And if you want me there for it, I'll be there, and if you want to do it on your own, that is totally your choice too." she wanted him to feel in control after having everything pulled out from under him.
On Sun, May 31, 2015 at 9:02 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"So what do I do about the asshole?" Meaning Digger. Greed was in the mood to punish someone. His rage was still going to come out in bad ways if he didn't keep himself from destroying everything. Zoe was his saving grace right now, but it didn't mean he wouldn't change course when he saw Digger next.
On May 31, 2015 11:41 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
"I am on your side." she said and she meant it, nuzzling his nose with hers, "Always." she looked in his eyes and said, "You're my family and I'm yours, right?" isn't that what he'd said before? They'd both just forgotten it along the way..
On Sun, May 31, 2015 at 3:07 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"I need someone on my side Zoe. If I can't have my family, I need my own." That was her and Digger, but more importantly her. If he had nothing else he had his golden egg. She was everything as long as he kept her safe.
On Sun, May 31, 2015 at 2:59 PM, Lucky L.<neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She didn't argue, just rubbed her lips together and nodded while staying close to him. She knew this was for the best, she did.. but it also hurt, it hurt to have a reminder that she couldn't have a normal life with him. That kids and marriage was of course not in the cards but they couldn't even pretend.
On Sun, May 31, 2015 at 11:53 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Sounds like it. Sounds like you're trying to convince me to hate you. Poseidon was an entirely different thing. This involves my family." So the blame was predominately on Sloth. Regardless, this was a big to do, he wasn't totally disregarding it. It had sunk in, but what was to follow was going to be the difficult part. "I'm not leaving this apartment to spite you. I'm doing this because if I don't I won't pick up on the important things until it's too late." Digger wasn't completely out of danger yet either. Neither of them were. It was going to be a matter of keeping him out of the other Sins hands, the dangerous ones.
On Sun, May 31, 2015 at 2:18 PM, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She didn't answer right away and then squeaked out, "No....?" but with a question mark because she wasn't sure if that's what she was doing and if she was, she didn't mean to. She raised just her eyes to his, big wet and looking like bambi after someone shot his mom, "But when Poseidon fired you, you handled it in the moment but then after you processed it you... and what if.. with this.." she didn't want him to decide that he DID hate her once he'd had time to really think about it.
On Sun, May 31, 2015 at 11:11 AM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
She always tried to break into his head as he was always two steps ahead. It was tough for her to keep up with him. He was still running ahead of her but not in the way she was telling herself. "What are you making your own ending now?" She was the one this time writing her own story without him.
On Sun, May 31, 2015 at 2:05 PM, Lucky L.<neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Tears coated her lashes at his sweet words and gesture, she kept her lashes lowered and said, "Well I do. And you might decide you do later and you'd have every right." she sniffled, "I just.." she took a breath before she continued, "I just kept hoping you'd notice because I wanted us back.. but that doesn't make keeping it from you okay." and she was scared that maybe he was moving out because he wanted to try to break free from her.
On Sun, May 31, 2015 at 10:55 AM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
Greed had been so focused on himself as well to even pick up the signs and this was why they were in headed in this split of sorts. It was the only way the Sin wasn't going to get stuck in a box to feel his own freedom and still hang onto the things that mattered. Greed's head rested against her forehead. "I don't hate you..." because she looked like he was ready to pitch his own lance right into her back.
On Sun, May 31, 2015 at 12:33 PM, Lucky L.<neverluckymore@gmail.com>wrote:
Her face crumpled and she looked down at the ground like she might burst into tears, "I know, I'm sorry.. I didn't think it'd go on this long. When Digger told me, we weren't even speaking and I figured you'd know right away and when you didn't, I kept making excuses and waiting and hoping and then before I knew it, a month had gone by." she was blubbering but she was also admitting she did something that he did all the time, she had been selfish.
On Sun, May 31, 2015 at 8:38 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"I didn't think you'd do this to me." He wasn't making her suffer (maybe he was) in knowing just how far of a stick she and the rest of them had impaled him on. He wasn't detaching himself from her so he knew he didn't want to watch that walk out of his life again. He just knew he hurt and he didn't know what to do to fix it right now.
On Sat, May 30, 2015 at 9:25 PM, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She still held on for a little longer when he let her go, kissing his cheek before loosening her hold but still keeping her arms around his neck as she looked at him, she looked like she'd been the one to get stabbed, so very broken up about it. But it was because she hurt him and she hated it. She didn't know how to make it better and knew there was nothing really to it but time.
On Sat, May 30, 2015 at 5:29 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
It seemed like forever before he gave her room to breathe, probably leaving some bruises that would last for days. There was a lot for him to take in, but he was understanding that even he couldn't make her perfect. She messed up and neither of them saw that coming. Digger failed him too, and his family. Despite it Greed wanted to keep his little Greed army.
On May 30, 2015 5:12 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
He could bruise her and crack her ribs right now if he wanted and she wouldn't complain as long as he kept holding her. She held just as tight to him and only lifted her head to press a kiss to his frog on his ear.
On Sat, May 30, 2015 at 2:07 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
He shouldn't want to hold on, she'd stung him pretty hard. Greed was no different than a child told not to touch a burning flame. He was going to touch it, and he'd continue to touch it even if it set him on fire. She was his fire and she had drenched him in lighter fluid. He squeezed her even tighter, crushing her into him as if he were a cocoon. He didn't want anymore apologies, he just didn't want to lose everything he had even if he wasn't sure how to really feel. Pain was hard and he was still sticking himself with the needles.
On Sat, May 30, 2015 at 5:01 PM, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Tears pricked her eyes at his words, she felt so horrible.. but then he was hugging her so tight. She was surprised but she put her arms around his neck, squeezing tightly, holding onto him like she had no plans on letting go and she really didn't. She repeated how sorry she was and she meant it, burying her face in the crook of his neck, hating that she was the cause of his pain and had knowingly done it.
On Sat, May 30, 2015 at 1:56 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
Greed had lied to her too. It felt really disturbing when it was done to him by something he cherished so tightly. It was worse than a knife in the back, "I feel like I've been impaled." He was still trying to pull himself back up and it was a lot harder than he thought. He stared at her hands that had fallen from his chest, now just kind of listlessly hanging at her sides. He didn't know what was worse, but to see her let go troubled him even more. He pulled her close to him, suffocating her with his arms around her.
On Sat, May 30, 2015 at 3:01 PM, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She'd been waiting for this since she told him and he'd been trying so hard to deny it, but she knew he was hurt. "I know.. and nothing I say will change that.." she said softly. "But I am so so sorry.. because you are the most important person in the world to me and I can't speak for your sister or Digger but I know I feel terrible." she put her hands on his cheeks again, "And as much as it sucks, it's okay to feel that hurt because we did a shitty thing. And it's okay to hate me a little right now too." her eyes got glassy because she really didn't like lying to him, she dropped her hands not knowing if he wanted her to touch him right now, "But hopefully not too much.. and not for a long time..."
On Sat, May 30, 2015 at 11:55 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Yeah and Envy finds out his ass will stage a massacre. With Sloth and Digger just to make a statement." Greed really got ruffled when it came to Envy. There was a history there that neither of them had really confronted. A lot like his history with Lust. The choices Greed made had put bad blood between them. Not that the Sins could be the All-American family. They were ruthless. He took a deep breath and let it out. "You all lied to me." And there it was. There was the pain finally coming to the surface.
On Sat, May 30, 2015 at 2:17 PM, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
"Maybe you're doing it right now, you're taking time. Remember she's been with Envy, going after something you don't want to share is probably in her nature right now. Otherwise it's SLOTH. You've told me about her before, she'll want but she's too lazy to go after it. So maybe.. I don't know. Just there are a lot of factors at play here. Right now we focus on YOU. This is a big deal and you keep talking about how mad you are but I think..." she rubbed his chest and gave him a soft look, "I think you're really really hurt above all else." it wasn't just his sister that took his stuff, his best friend betrayed him, his girlfriend kept it a secret, and Greed realized how much he'd damaged his own relationship.
On Sat, May 30, 2015 at 11:13 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"So what do I do? I wanna rip her head off...." he was defensive, predatory, and a tad vicious. What was one's didn't make it the other's. "She should know I don't like to share." Zoe may have taught him a few tricks, how to let in some give and take, but that did not apply to the things that were claimed by him.
On Sat, May 30, 2015 at 1:32 PM, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
"I know.. but she hasn't so far and maybe it's cause she likes him, maybe it's because you're yanking on his other half but Digger isn't taffy, with two of you pulling on him, he's gonna break and neither of you will get him. So yes, he did something wrong, he slept with your sister and then he kept up with her and he didn't tell you about it... BUT.. as someone who knows how powerful the lure of a sin is.. I'm not surprised that he gave in to Sloth. He held out from Lust which is a miracle but we never warned him about Sloth... tho I don't think either of us ever saw this coming..." they hadn't warned Digger cause it was.. Sloth. She was obsessed with Envy, they didn't think she'd latch onto a human, particularly her big brother's.
On Sat, May 30, 2015 at 10:28 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"He can't be her guy. She'll suck him dry so fast." There was only one reason she hadn't and that was because Greed had some pull on him. He'd influenced Digger, he had his own claws in that Sloth couldn't completely penetrate. But that kind of power on a human, from two dueling Sins could have longer lasting effects.
On Sat, May 30, 2015 at 1:17 PM, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
"Okay, I know it feels like that.. that she's doing this because she's trying to destroy you.. but despite the seven of you being wildly different, you all have one common trait," which she was surprised was not a sin in itself, "You're all... selfish. I think by spending so much time with Envy, she probably became somewhat envious of what you had.. but she didn't go after Digger to hurt YOU. I think she went after him because she wanted him too. Digger is a sweet guy, he's a little pudgy, he loves to eat, and smoke weed and play video games and LAZE around, he's Sloth's ideal guy actually.." she lifted her hands and gently put them back on his chest.
On Sat, May 30, 2015 at 10:13 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
Greed's pout started to drop when she threw that out. He had been jealous of his sister and was like 'Ok! I can do this too.' If any of them deserved everything it was Greed wasn't it? He supposed that was why he had everything to lose because he hoarded so much. "Why Sloth. It's because she's fucking Envy. She wants to destroy me too!" Between Lust, Envy and probably even Pride, Greed had so many of them that were not rolling on his side. He finally had his own family, his own hoard, his own "army" and they were trying to tear it apart.
On Sat, May 30, 2015 at 12:55 PM, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She stroked his cheeks and then put her hands on his chest, "I've never had siblings.. well I mean apparently I have lots of them, but I never grew up with them. But from what I've seen of you and your family, you guys are really close. And when one of you has something that makes them happy, the rest of you seem to think that if you had the same thing.. maybe they'd get a piece of that happy too. You didn't want me to be your girlfriend until you found out Wrath had a boyfriend." she reminded him of that.
On Sat, May 30, 2015 at 9:50 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
His face had contorted to a more serious one. His entire body was radiating from the deception. It hurt. Hurt like a knife in his back, but someone still had a hold of his spine and was trying to rip it from him. He was still a mix of emotions. He was trying to console himself with that blank face on the outside, but Zoe had her way of wiggling in. "Why does my family want everything I own?"
On Sat, May 30, 2015 at 12:26 PM, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Zoe could feel his body stiff up like he was turning into Colossus from the x-men. She let go of him to take the picture, turn it around so you couldnt see it and stick it back on the fridge. She stood in front of Greed and put her hands on his face so he'd look at her, "Talk to me..." he hadn't really told her how he felt on the subject. He'd been processing on his own and maybe he needed a hand.
On Sat, May 30, 2015 at 9:24 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"No." That was Greed's stiff reply. He felt he'd calmed down but now seeing the picture he was right back to wanting to rip someone's head off. That was HIS friend, his human, even if it was a human toilet. It was his and Sloth had stepped over the line. Greed wanted to maim.
On May 30, 2015 9:59 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Zoe hopped off the counter as soon as she saw that look on his face and walked over. When she saw Digger's picture with them, she put an arm around Greed's waist and asked with concern, "Did you talk to him?"
On Sat, May 30, 2015 at 6:52 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"All of it" He grinned looking around the kitchen and his eyes stopping on their little wall of pictures plastered to the fridge. He walked over towards it. There were so many! He wanted them all. There was even a picture with them with Digger on that first trip to Madison.
And then Greed's smile dropped.
On Sat, May 30, 2015 at 2:03 AM, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She let out a sound of surprise as he suddenly grabbed her, she wrapped her legs around his middle and her arms around his neck, her nose nuzzling his ear. Her plump butt hit the counter with an oof! and she undid her legs, swinging her feet back and forth, "You want to pack some kitchen supplies?" she asked, her nose practically touching his.
On Fri, May 29, 2015 at 10:59 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
He loved when she did that. Ghosting her lips against his skin. It lit a fire inside. Without a word he hoisted her up so she had no choice but to wrap her legs around his waist. Once she had, he charged towards the kitchen where he sat her on the countertop.
On May 30, 2015 1:23 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
"You do whatever it is you want to do.." and she kissed the bit of exposed chest of his from where his tight henley was open, very strategically so. Her lips skirting up and placing one more little kiss on the base of his throat.
On Fri, May 29, 2015 at 10:20 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"So that means I should let you drop, or keep you glued to me?" He snorted a laugh, being the little dirty kid that he was when he first met her. They had things to work out, they had more to discuss but right now, Greed didn't want to think about the things that were trying to destroy him. He might be moving out, but there was a serenity around them right now and he was going to gobble it up.
On Fri, May 29, 2015 at 11:18 PM, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She started laughing, she couldn't help it, it was ridiculous and cute and just... she wasn't used to it anymore. She grinned up at him, staring at his fat bottom lip and wanting to bite it.. but she didn't. She'd get him horny so fast he'd go up in a blaze of glory, "If you dropped your arms right now, I think I'd drop to the floor..." her knees were literally jello and it was cause he was hitting her in one of her weak spots, one of the things that first made her fall for him, his playful nature.
On Fri, May 29, 2015 at 8:14 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Mmmm...its usually the good ones that have the most to let loose." He wiggled his hips, rubbing his lower body against hers seductively.
On May 29, 2015 10:51 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She bit her bottom lip and rested her chin on his chest, "I am a good girl I'll have you know..." her cheeks looked like two red apples when he was done talking and she said, "My cheeks don't turn red..." even tho they were right now and she kinda knew it. And she did want him. But he hadn't teased her in awhile, it was something she wanted to enjoy.
On Fri, May 29, 2015 at 7:48 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"You just now figured that out?" He raised his brows. "I think you're more than you think you are. I know you get hot and bothered just thinking about me. When those cheeks turn red, every part of you wants me." He could feel her knees weaken, her skin tingle for more.
On May 29, 2015 8:33 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She grinned with really hot cheeks, putting her arms around his waist and pressing her boobs into his shirt, "You're kinda pervy, you know that?" but she really wouldn't have him any other way.
On Fri, May 29, 2015 at 5:11 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Thats not the button I was talking about." He gave her a devilish grin, pulling her as close to him as she could get without stripping her completely down.
On May 29, 2015 1:55 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She turned instantly red and had a big smile on her face, trying not to laugh, she looked down, covering her face with one hand as she said, "I.. I meant.." and she gestured wildly at the button he was still fingering.
On Fri, May 29, 2015 at 10:50 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Depends on which button..." He growled, biting the air. There was still enough they could do to satisfy him. At least for now. It kept him from being angry.
On May 29, 2015 12:52 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
"You playing with my button is a little break?" that sounded dirtier than she meant, she had been referring to the button the bra of course. Her thumbs rubbing his sides as her hands still rested there.
On Fri, May 29, 2015 at 9:49 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"We're packing..." he could use a distraction. "This'll be a little break..." he grinned wide, still not really processing everything.
On May 29, 2015 12:18 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She smiled, "It's a memory of a good time... even if you don't remember.." she bowed her head to the side to look up at him since he was focused on the button and he could see her eyes instead, "We'll make a new memory with it if you want.." since he'd realized now how much he'd been missing out on.
On Fri, May 29, 2015 at 9:12 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com>wrote:
He rubbed the button between his fingers. "Sorry about the chocolate sauce...." It has ruined it hadn't he?
On May 29, 2015 11:51 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She kept her hands on him, enjoying the feel of him as she looked at him. Glad he was saying the words so she didn't have to. "I'd been hoping you would.." she'd been disappointed when he hadn't seemed to care, "I figured you thought it was too plain or something." like she was.
On Fri, May 29, 2015 at 8:16 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com>wrote:
"I must be out of it. Or up my ass....for waaaay too long. Because....this is totally something I like."he unhooked his finger, dragging the backs of his fingers up her neck and then back down.
On May 29, 2015 11:11 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She stumbled forward and put her hands on his waist as he still toyed with the bra, "You tell me..." she said softly.
On Fri, May 29, 2015 at 8:06 AM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
He tugged her closer. "Why's it look so new?" He was starting to realize he'd really been in his own ass for more too long. Missing out on things like this?
On May 29, 2015 11:04 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
The look on her face clearly said she was not playing with, "It was this one.. it has the sauce on it from when you undid it.. I bought it over a month ago," she repeated, "I've worn it around you before., a few times.."
On Fri, May 29, 2015 at 7:56 AM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
He hooked his finger where the button clasped the two sides together. "No. That was this one?" How'd he miss that? She was playing games with him....wasn't she?
On May 29, 2015 10:27 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She pointed at the button on the cute bra and next to it was a tiny little chocolate sauce stain, "That's from the sauce on your hand when you undid the button.." and she looked at him with raised brows to see if he remembered now. He could remember the chocolate sauce and how amazing it was but he had no recollection of the bra he was now drooling over which he had seen and even taken off her before.
On Fri, May 29, 2015 at 7:17 AM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
She wasn't making sense. He dropped his hand and quizically studied her. "Yes, I do. It was fucking amazing." Where was she going with this?
On May 29, 2015 12:18 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Her mouth dropped open and she stared at him astonished. "Are you--" she was gonna ask if he was calling her a liar but she'd kinda kept something big from him so that wouldn't be wise. She pursed her lips and sighed through her nose, trying to figure out how she could prove it to him.. "Oh!" she got it, "You remember you had chocolate sauce on the sundae at madison two weeks ago?"
On Thu, May 28, 2015 at 9:14 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Mmmmm...no I would remember." But he didn't because he'd spent so much time in his own head. If he didn't have that dopey look on his face, she'd probably think he was joking.
On May 28, 2015 10:16 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She gave him a soft look with a tilt of her head, "Yeah... I did." she bit her bottom lip cause she didn't know if he even realized he was playing with her boob. "You've seen it like four times...." it was sad that he really just noticed.
On Thu, May 28, 2015 at 7:11 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"No you didn't." He snorted, hand still feeling her up. But she sounded so sure. "Did you?"
On May 28, 2015 9:31 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She did a double take and some pink popped into her cheeks when he grabbed her boob, "I got it like a month ago... you've seen it before. I even had it on at Madison." it wasn't anything special, just soft cotton with a button, he'd had sex with her with it, she'd worn it to bed a couple of hot nights.
On Thu, May 28, 2015 at 6:29 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"The bra!" He squished the air again, stepping closer. Now when he reached forward for a grope, there was actual boob in his hand.
On May 28, 2015 9:16 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She made a face, "A cat?" what the hell was he hearing when she was talking. It was amusing tho. She looked down at her chest as he motioned to her boobs. She looked back at him and said, "My boobs? Uhhh when I was 15..."
On Thu, May 28, 2015 at 6:11 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"When did you get a cat?" His brows knitted but his eyes hadn't left her chest. He chewed on his bottom lip. "When did you get that?" He motioned over his man boobs, but she definitely had more to squeeze. He absently made a squishing motion with his hand.
On May 28, 2015 9:04 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
"I said that I was.." she trailed off and narrowed her eyes at him, he wasn't paying attention to her... "I said I beat the game and they crowned me Video Game Champion of New York." she watched him to see if he even heard her. What was he so focused on? She turned her head to look over her shoulder.
On Thu, May 28, 2015 at 6:01 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com>wrote:
"What did you say?" He could hardly hear as all his attention was on the way her caramel skin was trying to shine through the sheer fabric.
On May 28, 2015 8:57 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She draped the cami on a chair and looked at the game and said, "You can if you want. I don't think I've gotten past level five on it... which is pretty big for me." she didn't notice he was staring at her boobs cause she'd worn other provocative things and he'd barely batted an eye in the past month.
On Thu, May 28, 2015 at 5:53 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
Greed was meticulously packing his video games he'd had stashed under the bed. "You think I should keep this one here?" He tapped the case in his hand, catching a glance of skin. The game in hand he'd been using to ease her into the world of gaming.
He was going to say something else, but he was just staring at her boobs.
On May 28, 2015 3:58 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Zoe was thankful that Greed hadn't raged at her but she knew that this was how he did things. When Poseidon had taken his job, he hadn't gotten mad at Zoe at first.. but in the coming weeks his anger spilled out in little ways until it exploded. But he seemed to want to stay in the relationship and work with her and that was a good thing. She was a little worried he would change his mind and decide to be mean but he picked her up from work and now they had pizza and were packing up his room, which was sad. Zoe got a little sauce on her cami and peeled it off, leaving her in shorts and a cute soft bra that she failed to realize was the tiniest bit see through.