Zoe (history_repeats) wrote in nevermore_logs, @ 2015-06-17 10:41:00 |
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Entry tags: | greed, zoe hansen |
WHO: Zoe & Greed
WHEN: May 25 [Backdated]
WHERE: Zoe and Greed's apartment
WHAT: Zoe tells all the secrets, even the ones that aren't hers
WARNING: None
Note: The log reads backwards
She felt like she melted into a puddle on the bed with that kiss. Hot and sweet and everything that had been missing. She wanted to take off his tank (they were safe as long as they kept on undies) but she didn't, this was his time, his re-exploration of Zoeland and she wanted him to do as he wished and go at his pace to rediscover.
On Thu, May 28, 2015 at 8:11 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
He made a tiny noise of contentment. He was entranced by those eyes, her face. Something he hadn't paid much attention to for weeks. He'd just gone from horny bastard to stuck on her face. So, when he kissed her, it was with fire on his lips.
On May 28, 2015 12:57 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She never liked the veil, she never cared for the expensive clothes, shiny car, fancy haircut, none of it had ever attracted her when he first tried to impress her... but his honesty, his realness, his dorky humor, oh she couldn't resist. She closed her eyes briefly when she felt his hand in her hair, she was perfectly content to stay like this forever.
On Wed, May 27, 2015 at 9:54 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
He didn't even blink he looked so hard. The difference in looking into Zoe's eyes was the fact that he didnt put a veil over what she saw. The reflection was an honest one. He combed her hair with his hand, still not saying anything, just soaking up the moment.
On May 28, 2015 12:36 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She was almost entirely naked except for undies and just laying there with him staring at her like a crazed serial killer. And she loved it. He hadn't stopped to look at her in so long, those incredibly intense creepy stares where you might wonder if he was contemplating murdering you but Zoe knew he was just... an intense guy. This was how he did things and she loved him. She didn't say anything or do anything, letting him feel the moment, see if it felt familiar to him. She just looked up at him, not scared at all.
On Wed, May 27, 2015 at 9:32 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
He looked a little crazy hust spending the next few moments staring at her. He hadnt done that for some time, and if she didn't know him she'd find it a bit creepy, but he was coming back to her in small steps. Getting a handle on things.
On May 28, 2015 12:18 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She kept expecting him to suddenly run off, remembering how mad he was about Digger and Sloth. But she was pretty sure his brain had short circuited with the overload of everything. She was so happy he didn't leave, she wanted him right here with her. She bit her bottom lip when he touched, feeling very very vulnerable in the moment, actually feeling him looking at her, actually seeing her.
On Wed, May 27, 2015 at 9:13 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
He peeled up her shirt, snuggling into his favorite spot. He slid his finger down her bottom lip, looking into those seal eyes. He'd missed those eyes. Maybe this would bite them both in the ass later, but his energy was bundled somewhere else. Bundled on his throne.
On May 27, 2015 11:48 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
It felt really strange and really heavenly when he paid attention to small things like he used to. There was a time when he'd explore her even when she slept, wanting to see every freckle and line and scar on her. Her other leg moved so he was more between her legs because she knew that was his favorite place.
On Wed, May 27, 2015 at 8:38 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
He was needy but he wasn't moving so fast that he overheated this before it really started. So, he paid attention to the small things he'd let pass. The freckles on her collarbone, her button nose, tickling her earlobes, and all the skin hidden under her knit shirt.
On May 27, 2015 11:04 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She was surprised by how turned on he was all of a sudden and with every bite he gave her, her nails dug into his back for a moment while one leg bent at the knee. Such a shame they weren't in Madison.. he hadn't been like this with her in awhile.
On Wed, May 27, 2015 at 7:58 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
He raked his fingers up and down her legs, continuing his little love bites and getting a chance to feel her close. They'd had Madison, they'd had sex, but they had this mental block between Greed's craziness and her secrets.
She took in a soft quick breath when she felt his lips on her neck, which had her shivering already. Her hands went under his tank and roamed along his back. She wanted to enjoy this for as long as she could because she knew there would be a price to pay later.
On Wed, May 27, 2015 at 7:32 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
Neither of them had laughed like that. There was more for Greed to process, but this was better than him blowing up New York with his anger. He had a better way to channel his frustration which was currently sucking a d kissing on her neck.
On May 27, 2015 10:21 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She wrinkled her nose and then she squealed with laughter and wide eyes when he rolled them over so she was pinned under him. She hadn't laughed like that in awhile... then again, he hadn't done anything like this in a while either.
On Wed, May 27, 2015 at 7:18 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
He wiggled until she was closer to his mouth. "I'm gonna eat you up..." he bit the tip of her nose, rolling them over, growling and making chomping noises.
On May 27, 2015 9:59 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She gave a short surprised laugh and grinned at him as he pulled her up, "Oh yeah? What're you gonna do about it?"
On Wed, May 27, 2015 at 6:57 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Nooooooo." He shook his head. "But now I'm horny as hell and its your fault." He giggled like a little kid, pulling her up by one of her arms.
On May 27, 2015 8:01 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She raised a brow and tilted her head on her arms, "Still think Digger and I are the same?" she asked now that she'd made her point. He'd been ignoring sex for video games for awhile now!
On Wed, May 27, 2015 at 4:58 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
She was making him think of things that were impossible, and it may have been the first time in a while he was observant to her. He noticed the dancing freckles over the bridge of her nose. He'd missed those freckles and now she made him want to lick them. "Sex, always sex."
On May 27, 2015 7:50 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She gave him a look, "It's a metaphor. Next time you want to put me and Digger as the same, just remember. You love playing video games, you love having sex. But when given the choice, most of the time which do you love more?"
On Wed, May 27, 2015 at 4:49 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Shit, sex is way better than video games." He licked his lips with a hazy grin. Now he was thinking about all the things they couldn't do right now.
On May 27, 2015 7:46 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She nodded, "Yeah, that's a good way of looking at. Humans are video games but different conosoles do different games and different things." she widened her eyes at him for a moment, "If you want to be REALLY accurate tho.. it's like Digger is video games... and I'm sex. Two things you really enjoy doing but are VERY different."
On Wed, May 27, 2015 at 4:42 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Its like having one joystick for the xbox, but a controller for the playstation?" It was an idiotic analogy but one he understood. It meant things were clicking in his brain.
On May 27, 2015 7:23 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She nodded, resting her head on her arms that were on his chest, "Right. And things he does that you can't. Just like Digger provides you with some male bro time and you can go to strip clubs and get high and slaughter each other in video games. And I CAN do those things but you'd have way more fun with Digger. Just like watching a romcom and snuggling or talking about things that are deep and personal are things you do with me. And you can have those talks with Digger but I think they mean more with me. I hope." she wanted him to see how wrong he'd been in thinking that having two humans was like having two sticks.
On Wed, May 27, 2015 at 4:19 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"I hope not. There's things I do he can't." There were equally things Greed couldn't satisfy that Theseus could, so she was expertly explaining it.
On May 27, 2015 6:15 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She nodded, "Yeah... like, you care about us but it's in different ways. It has to be different because a best friend is different than a girlfriend, and I mean more than sex. You can't dump us in the same box." she scooted a tiny bit closer to him so she could rest her arms on his chest, just to be closer to his level, "How would you feel if I said you and my dad are the same to me?"
On Wed, May 27, 2015 at 2:51 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
He was starting to see the differences. There were things he did with her that he wouldn't with Digger. More than that she knew things no one else did. Not that he had to keep it a secret, but not everyone would believe him. "One of you has to be above the other." And she was his throne.
On May 27, 2015 1:57 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She cupped his face and then slid her hands down to rest on his chest while keeping his hands on hers. "I am. Because you keep thinking Digger and I are the same and we're not. You're seeing us as the same, as two places to sit. But you're Greed, you want the throne, not the toilet. Digger and I can't both be toilet and throne. When one of us is the throne, the other one becomes the toilet. You need both... they both have uses. But look at them, you sit on both, but they aren't the same, are they?" she reiterated that cause he needed to understand that having humans did not mean they were the same. His relationships with each of them was vastly different and it had nothing to do with sex.
On Wed, May 27, 2015 at 10:53 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"You're not the toilet!" His face scrunched like she had it all wrong. But, he saw where he'd fucked up. This wasn't her fault. He'd completely axed this into a million pieces.
On May 27, 2015 1:33 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She smiled a little because she knew it was a ridiculous comparison but it seemed to make it's point. "In a way yes.... and guess whose been the toilet for awhile now..." she gave him a soft sad look because Digger had been Greed's shiny that he wanted to polish and chase after.
On Wed, May 27, 2015 at 10:29 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com>wrote:
His lip twitched at the comparison. "So one of you is a throne and the other a toilet?" He knew which one was the throne then.
On May 27, 2015 12:20 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She frowned, "Well no...." she tried to explain it in a way he could understand it and said, "It's like... a royal throne and a toilet are both things you sit on but that doesn't make them the same, does it?"
On Wed, May 27, 2015 at 9:11 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com>wrote:
"You are aren't you?" He couldn't look at things like she could, more than one thing at a time. Greed could only focus on one at a time as long as his attention held. He was a child, and sometimes she forgot about that. He had grown tremendously, he'd jumped a million hoops but at the heart of it he was still a little kid sometimes and that was what he'd told her was a struggle for him without direction. Greed was coming up with his own direction and he didn't exactly go about it the most logical way sometimes.
On Wed, May 27, 2015 at 11:53 AM, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com>wrote:
She did give him the kiss but it was brief, "That's up to you.. but Greed... you.. you keep acting like Digger and I are the same box..." and that was starting to worry her.
On Wed, May 27, 2015 at 8:44 AM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
He lifted his head up for a kiss, but he ended up with a wet nose instead. There was a lot Greed was learning at having two people in his life that needed his attention. It was a chore when he was weening himself off of Lust. This was a lot like this except he didn't sleep with Digger. But in Greed's childlike brain it was hard to figure where to shoot first. "I don't know what to do first...I got you, I got Digger and I don't know..."
On Wed, May 27, 2015 at 11:36 AM, Lucky L.<neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
It was at least a decision he was making on his own without forcing her to make it for him. Their relationship might be taking two steps back but Greed was taking a step forward. She ran her thumbs gently over his cheeks and didn't look at him, just nodded. The lights from above catching their reflection on her wet lashes.
On Wed, May 27, 2015 at 7:55 AM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Even though that means taking two steps back." She had to know this was serious."And I don't want to. I have to." If he was going to have a solid grip on his things then he was going to have to take a step back and look at everything surrounding them. He also has to get Digger back from Sloth. Now. He also had to keep Zoe safe, and living with her? That was just going to make her a target. "We still have Madison." He moved her hands so that she had his face to hold.
On Wed, May 27, 2015 at 9:58 AM, Lucky L.<neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She could feel his heart racing so she knew he wasn't taking this lightly but... "Even though?" she asked softly, just wanting to bury herself into him. But this was for the best.. right now, he was focused more on Digger than her, and the two weren't equal, if anything, Zoe should hold a higher place of importance but Greed didn't realize that having 'two humans' did not mean that the relationshps with them were the same.
On Wed, May 27, 2015 at 12:22 AM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Maybe missing you more is what I need. Even though..." He'd give anything to keep her in his pocket and Digger in the other. He pulled on her hands until he had her flush to his chest. He was worried now. He wanted her to hear it in his heartbeat.
On May 27, 2015 12:34 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
"I know.." her fingers were tangled with his and she spoke really softly but it didn't really hurt less just because it was true. Tears coated her lashes and she was trying really hard not to cry, she still didn't look at him, just offered a smile that died before it really appeared, "I'll just miss you..." it wasn't like they wouldn't see each other a lot still.. but it wouldn't be the same. But maybe that was the point.
On Tue, May 26, 2015 at 9:24 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"I can't lose everything again Zoe. I'll go mental." He squeezed her hands gingerly. It wasn't what she wanted to hear, but he knew its what they needed if he was going to be ahead of the game. "I can't get sloppy." Or he'd have his world ripped apart.
On May 26, 2015 11:51 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She looked at him with watery eyes as he said it and even though she knew it was true, it still felt like a hot needle through her heart. She gripped his hands for a moment and looked down, turning her lips in and pressing them tight as she closed her eyes and just quickly nodded, trying not to cry all over again.
On Tue, May 26, 2015 at 8:48 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Maybe we should go back to sleepovers and visits. I'm not...I'm not in the right headspace. And if this keeps up I'm going to lose both of you..." and Greed couldn't think that he'd be out both his humans. His Zoe and his Digger.
On May 26, 2015 11:41 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She couldn't stand it any more and reached over to grab his hands and untangle them from his hair, if he wanted to squeeze something, he could mangle her hands. But then he spoke, "Maybe...?" she asked, urging him to finish his thought.
On Tue, May 26, 2015 at 8:40 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
He kept repeating what was wrong with him, but it was obvious he still wasn't himself. He was off his mark and so far off he was going to lose his closest things. "Maybe..." maybe things needed to be what they were before. They'd held off a long time living together but it was becoming too comfortable.
On May 26, 2015 11:31 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She couldn't believe he was taking the blame for this. She moved closer to him, wanting to, but hesitant to touch him, "Greed..." she said softly. But all she could do was shake her head. She couldn't argue with him because he hadn't been observant. There was a time he'd notice things like new earrings and now.. he didn't even care what she wore. It was the same with her emotions and thoughts. There was a time he wanted her to tell him everything, even things she hadn't thought of before and now...
On Tue, May 26, 2015 at 8:29 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"It is my fault." He moved his hands and clenched his fists. "I'm losing it..." he just stared up at the lights covering her ceiling. "I haven't been observant at all or I'd have noticed what was going on..." he was a wreck. He was gutted like a fish and left to flop around until he couldn't move anymore.
On May 26, 2015 11:11 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She wanted to just curl up in his arms but she stayed put, sitting away from him. She looked at him in total surprise, those were words she did not expect to hear, "What? No, Greed, this.. I mean you didn't do any of this." unless he meant it was his fault for not keeping Digger chained in their basement.
On Tue, May 26, 2015 at 8:09 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
Greed flopped on the bed, his hands gripping his hair. "Fuck." He tugged that blonde puff in fistfulls. "This is my fault."
On May 26, 2015 11:01 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She wiped her tears with the back of her hand and moved off his lap and onto the bed, "Nothing... I should have told you earlier." she didn't see it as his fault even if the irony was that had he been paying attention to her like he used to, been obsessed with her instead of Digger like he used to be, he'd have known everything a lot sooner.
On Tue, May 26, 2015 at 7:58 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
He missed this by a mile. He'd been so focused on Digger that the whole thing slipped right past him. Normally he was in tune to Zoe to know with just a look that she was hiding something.
This was bad in so many more ways than he thought. His brows knitted tightly, shaking his head. "What's wrong with me?" He hadn't been paying attention to her at all. Now he potentially could lose everything again.
On May 26, 2015 10:37 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
At his question, Zoe's face crumpled and fresh tears came as she looked down at the bed, "Digger told me that day on the boat... and I tried to talk him out of it and he wouldn't listen and I told him that I was really bad at keeping things from you and he told me he wanted to tell you himself and then you showed up that night.." she had to pause to take in some air, "And we were having so many problems.. and then you were just obsessed with Digger and I was so upset that you couldn't even tell that I knew.. and.. I don't know.." that was neither here nor there and then she answered his question finally, "I wanted to tell you.. but I think..." those hot tears spilled down her cheeks as her nose and throat burned, "I think.. I was waiting for you to make me tell you." but he never paid enough attention to her to even notice.
On Tue, May 26, 2015 at 7:29 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Envy can't know. Sloth can't have Digger. He's mine. And if it came down to it, Sloth will choose Envy over Digger. Its not love, its a fuck." Not that Greed knew the inner workings of Sloth's head, he only knew his own and the selfishness of his family. His face softened a little. "Why didn't you tell me?" How had he not even sensed she was hiding from him too? More than that she'd broken her own vow of honesty. He wasn't sure how to feel about that.
On May 26, 2015 9:59 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
"I didn't.." she felt even worse now because if something happened to Digger and she could have prevented it.. she shifted a little but stayed in Greed's lap, "I don't know if he'll listen to you without you telling him who you guys really are. Maybe.. maybe no one else has to know and if they kept it a secret this long maybe Envy won't find out." she was grasping at straws.
On Tue, May 26, 2015 at 6:56 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Misery breeds misery. Envy is going to a shit to get rid of....shit if he finds out...Zoe this is bad..." He was angry but now a whole new shitty situation had presented itself. "He can't be with Sloth. I've got to stop this shit now." He was pissed now he didnt know sooner.
Zoe made a face, "Oh gross.. did I know that and block it out? I.. I didn't think of that." Envy was a creepy powerful Sin from what little she'd had to do with him, "And if he's.. Envy.. Im guessing he'd be jealous..." she made another winced face. More than anything else, Zoe was not worried for Digger's life.
On Tue, May 26, 2015 at 5:16 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
He hadn't processed more than that, just that every time he had his hands on something, someone else was trying to swipe it from him. "She's also fucking Envy. Tell me where this could lead. She could take any mortal she wants, but she wants whats mine?" No, Greed wasn't going to let go that easy. Digger was nothing more than a toaster that he was battling out a bid for right now.
On May 26, 2015 7:56 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
"Greed.... no I don't think it's like that. I think she might actually like him and he really wants a girlfriend but I don't even know if that's going on. But I'm sure she didn't do it to fuck with you." she put her hands on his chest, hoping he might calm a bit.
On Tue, May 26, 2015 at 4:47 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
Greed released a deep breath, not quite sure how this was going to end. "She's doing this to spite me. It's something of Greed's. Let's fuck with Greed's shit for the hell of it." He clenched his jaw, quiet again for what would feel like an eturnity. "She's stealing from me. Right under my nose. She's stealing from ME." His voice could have cut ice.
On May 26, 2015 7:42 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She turned inward mentally, he looked... scary. "He's.. he doesn't know how to tell you. He said she followed him home one day and he thought she liked him. He was lonely and I don't know her reasons and he feels bad about it but he said he couldn't stop seeing her and I know what that's like. I wanted to tell you, I really did.." she said lamely, actually scared.
On Tue, May 26, 2015 at 4:39 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"That's why he's avoiding me. To fuck my sister...." he didn't even make it a question, he flinched trying to graple who he was more angry at, and he hadnt found the right target. He'd thought Sloth had more decency then to put any kind of hold that Greed had claimed. He wanted to maim something and his eyes were dark.
On May 26, 2015 7:03 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She didn't say anything just nodded and stared at him to see if his head was going to explode tho she had a feeling he was trying to decide who to kill first, Digger, Sloth, or her.
On Tue, May 26, 2015 at 4:00 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
Greed processed that for a moment and he sat in silence, not sure he heard it correctly. He liked Sloth, he liked Digger but now Sloth was encroaching on his property. That was a no-no. After a long period of silence, his face not moving a muscle, he spoke. "Is she fucking him?"
On May 26, 2015 6:50 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Zoe felt like a little kid in big trouble as she made a winced face but stayed in his lap, not as effective as being a rock to keep him in place as he was on her but she was hoping. And then she blurted it out, "Sloth."
On Tue, May 26, 2015 at 3:46 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
Greeds brows instantly creased in disappointment. "Which one is it?" And he felt his blood boil already. This was what happened when he let his siblings in on HIS things. He wasn't sure what he was more mad at, but he was mad.
On May 26, 2015 6:38 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She took a deep breath and looked at Greed, "I know... more than just he's seeing a girl... I know which girl." she shifted in his lap to look at him more fully, "And you're gonna hate me that I kept it from you and you're gonna hate him for doing it and I wanted to tell you, Greed... more than that I kinda wish I didn't know because then I wouldn't have had a stupid secret from you. But I know.. what it's like to want to be with a Sin and how hard that can be... and I felt bad for him and I kept telling him to tell you..." she was still trying to get out of saying it because there was no turning back once the words came out, she'd basically told him everything except which one.
On Tue, May 26, 2015 at 3:30 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
She was going so fast he was trying to get through it all. But it was starting to burry in his head like a slug. It was just leaving residue all over his good judgement. "What's he not telling me?" He sounded afraid to know the answer, because NOW Zoe was involved and he wasn't ready for that.
On May 26, 2015 6:14 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She gulped and said in a small voice, "No...." she took a deep breath and said, "It's about Digger." she sniffled because part of her hurt was over how callous Digger had been towards her and Greed when he was the one in the wrong, "I told you that he's seeing someone.. but..." she shook her head, "He told me not to tell you and I feel bad cause I hate keeping secrets and I'm always telling you if our relationship is going to work we have to be honest and here I am fucking it up and we aren't even on solid ground and he doesn't even care, he was saying I was being overdramatic like our relationship doesn't even matter." and more tears came, she wasn't making entire sense but she had to get that out.
On Tue, May 26, 2015 at 3:04 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Thats it? Thats what all this is over?" Somehow he smelled a rat, she hadn't dropped the bomb yet...there was more. He felt it.
On May 26, 2015 5:36 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Zoe kept talking, "I know you love your job now way more even than the old one but I know how you can get and I just... we just got back together and I didn't want anything to risk... us." and that just reminded her of her fight with Digger, it wasn't her secret to tell but she hated this.
On Tue, May 26, 2015 at 2:33 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
Greed's eyes flashed with tinge of jealousy. He'd moved on from that job, was in something even better now, but it didn't mean he wasnt butthurt over it. It stung a littke, but not nearly as bad as he thought it would. The part that was the saving grace was that he had a job far surpassing the one he'd had at that company. Something hed built off himself out of hard work. Something he didn't steal from someone else, and there was pride in that.
On May 26, 2015 5:29 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She broke when he held her close and pulled her into his lap, she curled in to him and said in a rush of words, "The first one is about my job.. I didn't mention it and you've been so distracted I don't think you noticed and I was thinking maybe it might be better just to not mention it since you didn't notice but I'm paranoid that it'll come up down the road and I don't want that to be a problem between us because we have so many of them already. That building I work in..? You've been there before. You used to work there. The company my dad works for is the company Poseidon bought out to fire you.... I work in the mailroom but my dad... he has your old office."
On Tue, May 26, 2015 at 2:24 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com>wrote:
He hugged her close, pulling her into his lap. Was she trembling too? "What secrets are you keeping from me?" He seemed wounded, his voice slightly distrusting of what he was about to hear. What did she know? He'd been so focused on Digger, he'd missed something big and that was bad. His muscles tensed slightly.
On May 26, 2015 5:20 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Her eyes were huge and wet when he faced her but they closed when he kissed her. It was so sweet and loving, she just started crying again and put her arms around his neck, scared he'd pull away, "I am really bad at lying and secrets, Greed... especially with you. And the fact that I've managed to do it this long I think is only because we're still finding our way back to each other." normally he was pretty ontop of it but because she'd been around and he'd lost some interest, he wasn't aware of every little detail anymore, he hadn't wanted to be.
On Tue, May 26, 2015 at 2:16 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
He grew more confused as she continued on. She looked terrified. He faced her, giving her one of those melty, sweet kisses. Maybe it would help her vomit out whatever the hell she seemed afraid to tell him. It did have his heart pitter pattering at an alarming rate. What was she going to say?
On May 26, 2015 5:13 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
His tone wasn't helping and she felt wretched, "Promise me you won't hate me.." she said in a small voice knowing it was ridiculous to ask but Greed was so volatile with his emotions... when he loved, it was with everything.. but when he hated.. it was just as hard.
On Tue, May 26, 2015 at 2:11 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Then what the hell is the problem." He didnt know what had her so twisted inside that he didn't cause. "If its not my fault then whats going on?"
On May 26, 2015 5:04 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
"What!?" she exclaimed and gave him such a look, "Why would you think that??" it was such a random thing to say, "You've dropped me off and picked me up at an actual office building." and she was wondering if he recognized the building or not...
On Tue, May 26, 2015 at 2:01 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Why?" His voice was slow and cautious. He wasn't sure what can of worms he was about to open up, but he was prepared. He shuffled his position on the bed trying to get ready. "Is this about your job? You're not a stripper are you?"
On May 26, 2015 4:53 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She gave him a look because it was his own weird way of trying to help and it just made her cry more, "Cause you're gonna hate me and I can't handle that..." she said amid her tears, unable to look at him.
On Tue, May 26, 2015 at 1:48 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Then why do you look like I just murdered your father. I'll admit I've thought it quite a few times since he popped back up...but..." and she was still a water fountain of tears.
On May 26, 2015 4:34 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
He was so adorable, assuming it was his fault and she shook her head as he sat down on the bed with her. "No, no... you didn't do anything." she had no idea what to do. It wasn't her secret to tell but she felt like she and Greed were gonna damage their relationship if she kept things from him and it was killing her.
On Tue, May 26, 2015 at 1:29 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
What had just happened? "What the fuck Zoe?" She looked ready to crumble into a million pieces. "I swear I haven't done anything...."because she only looked like this when it was his fault right? He slid onto the bed with her, no really sure what just happened.
On May 26, 2015 4:24 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She looked at him and turned her lips in. She couldn't say nothing anymore, she felt like crap. She didn't answer him tho, just rubbing her lips as fresh tears fell and she ran a hand through her hair, pausing to grip her head like she had a migraine. Which she did.
On Tue, May 26, 2015 at 1:21 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
After a few tags thrown around between him and Zoe, Greed had had enough if this yo-yo. He called for her again but she didn't answer, so he tracked her down in her room. He stood in the door looking at her like she'd gone mental. "What's going on?" Something was, something big and he didn't like all the secrecy.
On May 26, 2015 4:18 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Zoe had been trying to keep Greed out of the room by talking to him through the journal. Mainly because she was crying after fighting with Digger. She had put a lot on the line to keep this a secret for him because.. she knew what it was like to want to be with a Sin and part of her hoped that maybe Digger would end up loving Sloth and she somehow could love him back? Maybe? But he was acting like this was no big deal for her and being such a jerk about it. She was trying to be good at her job, reconnect with her father, keep a secret from her boyfriend whom she just got back and one of her only friends in the world was being a giant prick. So she didn't even hear Greed when he called her name.
On Tue, May 26, 2015 at 1:13 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
It SHOULD have been enough to console Greed but it wasn't. He wasn't buying that this was just a passing phase. "He's hiding shit from me." He grumbled but by then Zoe had left her warm spot into the other room. "Zoe?"
On May 26, 2015 2:29 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Zoe sat up and looked at the screen. Oh she was going to kill Digger. She looked back at Greed and said, "He doesn't hate you. He's just... busy with his new girlfriend. And he's being a prick. And it doesn't sound like an actual party... just him pissing in his BBQ." she put her hands on Greed's cheeks and gave him several kisses on the lips, "This is not you, this is Digger's shit he's working through, okay?" and she was gonna go give him a piece of her mind.
On Tue, May 26, 2015 at 11:26 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Digger! That's whats the matter. I called him when we were in Madison and he didn't answer me. Now he's posting about his stupid Memorial Day party. What he thinks its okay not to invite me?" He was getting so angry so fast. He didn't understand what he'd done. "Does he hate me now? Like Josie did? Am I just fucking losing my mind or what?"
On May 26, 2015 2:04 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Zoe woke up with all of Greed's movements and cursing. "Greed..." she said with a yawn and couldn't even sit up, she just turned her head in his lap to look up at him, "What's the matter?"
On Tue, May 26, 2015 at 10:58 AM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
Greed surfed around for more stuff, but his ADD brain was curious...and when he'd tried calling Digger earlier for the weekend that went straight to voicemail. So to.see the tubby bastard posting about his "Memorial Day party" just threw Greed in a tailspin. He started cursing loudly, fingers pounding the keys so hard it was a wonder he sent a coherent message at all.
On May 26, 2015 1:46 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Zoe was exhausted, not only was she not used to working, she was also feeling the weight of keeping things from her significant other and she wasn't good at it. Right now tho, it felt good to just be with him and their dog in thier apartment. Her head on his chest started to slide down down down slowly until it was in his lap and her eyes were closed. She'd open them if he wanted her to look, which she would, because she knew it was important to him. But in the meantime...
On Tue, May 26, 2015 at 10:42 AM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
They were both able to breathe a little calmer with her back at work. He could miss her more with the fact that she wasn't sitting around waiting for him. He now had a reason to need her when before he was too used to her being there. There was no mystery in it.
Greed could spend hours internet shopping, looking on Pinterest for ideas. Greed was both his best and worst designer. He couldn't make up his mind between lamps let alone the little touches. Right now he was looking at tea sets.
On May 26, 2015 12:47 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Weeks passed and they worked on their relationship but the biggest change that happened wasn't something they did, it was that Zoe finally got a job. Theseus had some pull but nothing like getting her a desk, it was a low paying hard job in the mailroom but Zoe took it. She left in the morning, sometimes before Greed to catch the bus to work, once inawhile he could drop her off like he used to do when she did retail. And a couple of times a week he could pick her up too which was nice. She gave him her entire first paycheck (which wasn't even close to his paycheck) but she wanted to give it to him as backrent, and starting June she was going to be covering her half again and it felt like she could breathe more now. Right now she'd managed to change into a nightie and was sitting on the sofa with Greed while he showed her on the laptop what he was going to buy with the money. She was snuggled into him not really out of romance but cause she was dead tired, her eyes half open as she nodded along and used him as a pillow as she saw the stuff on the screen he pointed out.