"Sometimes it's scary, how accurate you can be," Roxanna told Lena. "Because I tried the forced numbness thing. And it works, for a time. In the same way that sticking your finger in a leaking dam does. It's a temporary solution to a larger problem, like...like...slapping a band-aid on a cut jugular. Sooner or later, it quits working, and it all comes back, only you feel it so much more intensely, because you tried to suppress it for so long. It took me two years of therapy to figure that out. But yes. Be here. Be present. But if you have to, if it's easier, do it in smaller steps."