His silence was like a knife that gutted her. It was true. They didn't have forever. They had maybe ten years. If that. She pressed her lips together to try to not cry more but it wasn't working. When he reached for her, she shoved at his chest and tried to stand up, "The small wins used to give me so much hope for us.. but you don't care. Cause it's small and not exactly what you wanted so it doesn't count. And you don't get it. You pretended to at the house when we had a small win but I guess that was to just get me to shut up." _________________________________________________
"If you remember I was pissed at myself then too! Fuck me for having to get used to small wins! I'm still working on it." He paused thinking in that insane head of his. "I told you if I died things would be different. You have more Sin to deal with this time. There's more Greed than Chance. I'm learning. It just might take me a little longer this time. But I never did any fucking thing just to make you shut up." _________________________________________________
"Yeah, you were pissed back then and forgot me. And you were pissed right now and still forgot me. What did you learn?" the answer to her was nothing. "There is no Greed and Chance, there is just YOU. And you are not listening and you aren't learning. We talked about you making me come to you and you're doing it less but you're still doing it even with the title back. I don't think you want to learn. You just want me, but you don't know why. You want the title cause it's possessive. What you don't want is a relationship." _________________________________________________ They could talk in circles all they wanted, they were never going to get past this one basic thing, "I'm never going to stop being Greed no matter how many times we revisit this. I didn't learn last time because I still want the things I can't have. I'm never going to stop wanting more no matter where we are in this relationship." he couldn't just push pause. It didn't work like that. They were going to have to get through this together, as a team, as a couple, and he was at least learning that this time. _________________________________________________ She still didn't go near him, hugged her knees to her, "Great, you keep being Greed and not learn and I'll keep having my heart crushed because it's who I fell in love with." she sounded defeated cause to her he was saying he wasn't going to learn and he wasn't going to change and he wasn't going to learn and he didn't care that he hurt her. _________________________________________________ Greed didn't want to be just like his siblings, he thought at one time because he was so fascinated with the humanity and what they could do and have that he would one day be more than a salivating idiot. Wrong. He got to experience the same things and still was a salivating idiot. "I'm just a bad guy...." and he would always be that no matter what because that's how it was scribbled into his DNA. "I don't want to always hurt you. I like making you shine...." he liked that more than seeing tears and her fears raise to the surface. _________________________________________________ Tears coated her lashes and she kept her gaze to the ground, holding herself tightly as she said in a small voice, "When you remember me..." it had scared her so badly and hurt her more than he could imagine. Normally he made her feel cherished and loved and in that moment, she felt so worthless.