WHO: Zoe & Greed WHEN: October 28 [Backdated] WHERE: Zoe's and Greed's apartment WHAT: Fantasies WARNING: Snogs Note: The log reads backwards
"I'm working on one!" He yelled back at her pulling on his tank and finding something with chocolate to smother his face in. He needed to eat and get Sin fat in one way or another. That was his gluttonous side coming out to say 'hey, time to fill up!' After he had the living room littered with food he stayed up for the whole day playing video games because that was what the slothy side of him wanted to do. The greedy side couldn't put the controller down, and the envious side was just drowning in his own mopey depression because he didn't get what he wanted. The two of them had a long way to go.
On Sat, Sep 6, 2014 at 10:14 PM, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: "No! You are putting the blame on me again and I'm not going to let you. No, I don't want to feel anything anymore but I do. But I am not willing to step on another landmine and be blown to smitherens. You basically don't have a solution. Because there isn't one." and she walked past him to get out of the room, she couldn't breathe anymore and just wanted to drown in the tub.
On Sat, Sep 6, 2014 at 7:10 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "I admitted that you want me to fail. You want me to be a disappointment so you don't have to feel anything anymore." They were both misunderstanding, both angry, frustrated and sexually dissatisfied. There was a lot going on between them that they just couldn't cover in an entire night and day without wearing each other out.
On Sat, Sep 6, 2014 at 9:44 PM, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She stood up, "What I know is that you can't be without sex, you just admitted it. And you and I can't have sex. So you tell me what the solution is. Tell me right now what the solution is." she wanted to know, if he had a charm,a spell, a magic cure. Because as much as she was missing his point, he was missing hers. She wanted to be with him.
On Sat, Sep 6, 2014 at 6:42 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "No. You're just putting a wall up that I can't climb, and you know it." He stood up then, letting her slide down off his lap. He'd had enough of her circus right now. The net was up so no matter how many times he kept falling, he'd bounce back, but right now he was just a little stunned. Maybe it was just the aftermath and he was slowly just peeling away.
On Sat, Sep 6, 2014 at 9:36 PM, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She shook her head, "I'm not throwing it in your face.. I'm just trying to show you the truth. And I think I made my point fairly well." and she hated it. "You will always need sex. At some point. And I can't give it to you. No matter how much I want to. There is no solution." she cupped his cheek and then kissed his forehead tenderly as he had done before to her and then moved to stand up, "Just because I don't get to go to Fiji, it doesn't make it any less beautiful or make me want to go any less." the idea of being with him was a dream, one she desperately wanted and loved the idea of. But in reality, it just wasn't possible.
On Sat, Sep 6, 2014 at 6:27 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: He looked at her with a defeated face. She asked him that question because she knew it was one he couldn't promise. That was the whole point. What better way to put a block between them than to put an obstacle in front of him she knew he could never cross. "Why would you do that? Why would you throw something like that in my face knowing it's an answer I can't give you?" He was more than angry now, he was just plain hurt. He could actually feel his rib cage crumbling around him and stabbing his body walls in all directions. She'd done that on purpose.
On Sat, Sep 6, 2014 at 9:21 PM, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She got jostled as he whined and shook his legs since she was still in his lap. She ugh'd and stamped her own feet and said, "You are not a sex fiend but you NEED it and you don't get it with me and it creates problems." she looked him right in the eye and said, "I will be with you right now if you can promise me one thing. You will never have sex again. You promise me that and I will fall back in your arms and we'll reset to how things were six months ago." she knew he couldn't do it. She knew it and yet still part of her wanted him to promise it even tho if he did, it would be a lie.
On Sat, Sep 6, 2014 at 6:14 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: He couldn't blame her for actually thinking the worst, he'd brought down the thunder so hard she was afraid she was going to be electrocuted again. He just looked off into space. She wouldn't want to look at him anyway because all she could see was pain and he hated it. He knew he'd ruined the ride by taking apart all the pieces and not knowing how to put it back together again without missing nuts and bolts. "I want you!" He bounced his legs up and down in a mini tantrum and a heavy sigh. "But you refuse to see it anymore. I'm just the guy that could be out fucking anything that moves, right? And I go out and fuck everything that moves because I'm nothing but a sex fiend," he was rethreading her words so that she could hear back just how shallow she made him, "so sex fiends don't need anything but a high before they run off to the next fix." She was a fix he wasn't getting rid of. "Interesting isn't it that I'm right here instead of off getting my fix."
On Sat, Sep 6, 2014 at 8:57 PM, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: He wasn't disgusting, he was delicious and he knew it. "I don't know, why bother?" she threw up her hands. She wriggled in his lap so she could turn and look at him, "What do you want me to do, Greed? You want me to pretend that we can have heaven? Tell me what you want." she bit out the words one at a time because she didn't know what he wanted from her anymore.
On Sat, Sep 6, 2014 at 5:53 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "I know because I'm just such a disgusting being. Why bother anymore if it keeps you from feeling a damn thing. I could paint you fucking heaven and you'd still paint it black." She was doing this on purpose this time, this fight, he knew it and he wasn't sure if he should let her win it or not because he was just going in circles.
On Sat, Sep 6, 2014 at 8:48 PM, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: "You always do things since. You fuck up and then you do something where you make me feel like yeah it might be different this time and then you stab me in the heart again. And I'm tired of bleeding." she wasn't tense in his arms any more, she was kinda limp, exhausted from fighting him. "No, I don't want to face the face we were close for even a second. Know why?" her voice was even getting quiet, "Because when I'm close with you it's the greatest feeling in the world and when I feel it, my first thought is 'I wonder when I'll stop being enough' and it kills me every time because I know you can't argue against it." he couldn't say she was enough, there were times when she wasn't. It was the times when he left her.
On Sat, Sep 6, 2014 at 5:41 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "I'm so glad you have it SO figured out." He was mad now but it had nothing to do with the lack of sex (or maybe a tiny bit). What annoyed him more than anything was when she pushed him away as if she was trying to make a good reason and had no leg to stand on. This had nothing to do with the past but she was stringing it together quite masterfully. "Because I've done shit since to prove you otherwise. Let's keep pouring on everything you want to make this about just because you don't want to face the fact we were close for even a second. Why not just make this a smear campaign for how fucked up Greed is and how fucked you are for touching him." He didn't want to be touched right now, she'd made that clear and it was seeping into his system. The mirror she painted was ugly and black.
On Sat, Sep 6, 2014 at 8:32 PM, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: "Because I know! Because it always happens." tears were still coming and it wasn't entirely his fault, she was desperate to try to wreck whatever intimacy they'd gotten back. She was trying to destroy it because she didn't want to feel for him. "Before we didn't get to have sex and you felt I OWED it to you and were mad when I couldn't or wouldn't give it. Then you said it was different. But when you didn't get sex, you got so mean, you were cruel to me! You made out with that girl in front of me. Then you said it was different. But then you were unhappy and you LEFT me and fucked other girls! It will always be something because to quote YOU, you need sex like you need air. And you keep forgetting I can't give that to you!"
On Sat, Sep 6, 2014 at 5:25 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: There was still a part of her that wasn't willing to believe him. She still had that burn inside that said he was going to destroy whatever happiness they would or could have. Maybe he always would, but each time he burned a bridge he built one even stronger. He wasn't going to stop crossing over just because she the dam open. "You're doing that shit where you put me in a box again and think you know exactly what I want and am going to do." Why couldn't she let go the same way she let go just a few minutes ago? Physically he'd let some of that tension go, emotionally she was still stiff. All he could do was try to roll out those kinks and knots.
On Sat, Sep 6, 2014 at 8:14 PM, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: "Yes, I feel shitty about it! I feel shitty because you showed me such a beautiful fantasy and we can't have it. We don't get Ava's and a house in the country and treehouses and weddings or a gold motorcycle. We don't get any of that. And we don't even get to be together cause you'll either get sick or you'll get bored or MEAN or frustrated and it all comes back down to this." and she struggled again as more tears came.
On Sat, Sep 6, 2014 at 3:34 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: She was hitting him with accusations and he didn't like it. "Excuse me?" He looked mad, brows thick over his eyes. "Fuck you for making me a dick with legs. You just twisted everything I said because you feel shitty that I got a heat wave hangover."
On Sep 6, 2014 6:07 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She turned more, her eyes still wet and she stared at him in disbelief, "That's all it was to you, sex." she didn't wait for him to try to deny it as she bulldozed ahead, "It's the problem, Greed. You don't get it. You almost collapsed again. And even if you didn't, we still can't have sex. And I don't care what you say right now because NOTHING, no amount of being creative will make up for it."
On Sat, Sep 6, 2014 at 11:12 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "What do you mean?" He wasn't quite clear on what she was asking. What did she think it meant? He was bringing up the positive reasons ans she was shrinking from him again.
On Sep 6, 2014 11:30 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She hadn't been, had she? She didn't look at it that way but the bigger problem was still in her mind. Great it was sexy but, those eyes of hers seemed kinda hurt as she asked quietly, "Was that all it was?" part of the reason it was like that was she put her heart as well as her hormones in it. And it felt like he missed it.
On Sat, Sep 6, 2014 at 7:04 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "That was you not overthinking or analyzing the limitations. Wasn't it nice? To not be so focused in your head that you just let your body take over? You weren't thinking about everything else or anyone else. You weren't self aware and second guessing yourself. It was quite sexy..." She'd given into her own greedy desires for him abs it created a beautiful moment. "It's nothing to feel guilty over." Didn't she get that it only fueled him? She was giving into greed and giving him more Greed her own adorable way.
On Sep 6, 2014 9:58 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: It was like she was strapped in and seatbelted to his lap. He didn't get it. And he didn't get it because she wasn't saying it. But she stiffened a little at his choice of words, peeking at him over her shoulder, "What was that?" she asked him, she wanted to know what that meant to him cause he was saying it as if maybe it didn't have any more meaning than just sexual 'enjoy it for what it was'.To her, it was much much more than that and if it hadn't been for him....
On Sat, Sep 6, 2014 at 5:06 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "Not until you talk about this..." She got him to gush on his hyped up super fantasy about her and Chance (errr him). He was going to get her to spill on all the workings of what had just happened between them. It was nothing for her to be upset or ashamed of. His arms were wrapped around her waist, gluing her to his lap. "Time for you to spill the beans. For a few moments you weren't so in your head that you couldn't enjoy that for what it was. It's just a shame it didn't get any further than that." In Vermont at least he'd managed to get her revved, but not like this. She had been so charged of sexual energy it made him giddy.
On Sat, Sep 6, 2014 at 1:17 AM, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She went absolutely still when he made the point that she was basically grinding on him. She turned her nose to her shoulder and said in a pitiful small voice, "Please let me go..." she didn't want to be here with him anymore.
On Fri, Sep 5, 2014 at 10:15 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "If you don't stop moving you're going to really need to worry about the blood flow to my brain." All her rocking and shuffling in his lap was going to be really bad for business. He had a feeling if he'd actually made her hit that sweet spot she wouldn't be such a handful right now.
On Sep 6, 2014 12:56 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: "Stop thinking so much?" she was raising her voice again and struggled some more, looking at him over her shoulder with her hair sticking to her tear stained cheek, "You could have had another heart attack, Greed, you could have died again! This isn't some joke! This isn't something to not think about!" but that wasnt the only problem, there was an entire army of problems chasing after her now.
On Fri, Sep 5, 2014 at 9:53 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "Stop," he rested his chin on her shoulder talking in her ear with sweet whispers. "Stop thinking so much." That was her problem. He took in little breaths and released them slowly, coaching her to do the same. They'd reversed roles in this whole panic attack business. It was his turn to return the favor.
On Sep 6, 2014 12:22 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She lost it and threw her hands up, "Are you CRAZY? A PROCESS?" she choked on her tears that she couldn't hold back anymore because this beautiful gorgeous fantasy had shattered to pieces all around her. She struggled as hard as she could against him, trying to get up as she kept blubbering, "This is not a process! It's a fatality!" technically it was a near fatality but it was just a very rude reminder of why she couldn't be with him.
On Fri, Sep 5, 2014 at 9:19 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: He tried to calm her in soft shushing sounds. "So? It's a process. I dont care. It was worth seeing you let go for once. That's not a bad thing." He wasn't letting her up. "For once you weren't in your head, you were just in the moment." That was what giving in to greed meant. Letting all rationality go and feeling your way through it.
On Sep 6, 2014 12:14 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She oof!'ed as he forced her into his lap and held on. She took a couple of deep breaths, "I'm sorry.." she closed her eyes and put a hand to her forehead, trying to keep it together, "I didn't.. I forgot, I didn't mean to make you sick."
On Fri, Sep 5, 2014 at 9:12 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: So this had flipped a 180 in just a few minutes. His skin still felt raw, but he wasn't going to let her disappear and hide. He was stronger than her. He wrapped his arms around her abs made her sit. "Talk. None of this hide and seek bullshit."
On Sep 5, 2014 11:38 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She put her hands behind her, shoving at his shoulders and chest to keep from being dragged into his lap, she was not sitting in his lap! "I'm feeling.. let me go.." she wiggled her hips trying to get out of his grasp.
On Fri, Sep 5, 2014 at 8:33 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: He grabbed onto her before she waddled out of his reach. "Are you feeling guilty because you enjoyed it?" No one should ever feel guilty about that. It was a great moment. She hadn't played sex police, he wanted her to still enjoy that.
On Sep 5, 2014 11:26 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: Zoe reacted like she was the one burned by his touch. She flinched away and scrambled to the other side of the bed, "You... you need.. water." and she let her feet drop on the floor and stood up, a little shaky, but not wanting to be near him.
On Fri, Sep 5, 2014 at 8:25 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com>wrote: Painful skin be damned Greed scooted over to her before she flipped out even more. Somehow their roles had reversed. He put a hand on her cheek hoping she'd focus on his pretty blue eyes and not the fact that he'd been shocked by an electric jolt.
On Sep 5, 2014 11:01 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She gaped at him, that was not what she was expecting him to say, "You... are.. Are you CRAZY!?" she yelled at him. "You got sick, you could've.. could've.." she was going to give herself a panic attack just thinking about the last time he'd literally dropped because of her kisses.
On Fri, Sep 5, 2014 at 7:58 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: Looking a little more like himself (though still in the don't touch me yet phase) he flashed her those pearly whites. "Zoe, come on, that was hot." He was applauding her for actually just letting go. She had not been so inside her head that it prevented her from enjoying anything. She could sometimes be so stiff in these situations, this was by far one of those worth it moments. "You wanted me something bad..." yes he was gloating.
On Fri, Sep 5, 2014 at 10:31 PM, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com>wrote: She was not amused or laughing and she thought he'd lost his mind when she saw the grin, "Are you okay...?" did he finally crack? She looked like she was about to shatter into a million pieces herself.
On Fri, Sep 5, 2014 at 7:23 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: It was a combination of her and the usual limitations that had him in this state. He only provoked the situation. He didn't want her to blame herself for it, and once he started to come out of his haze he actually looked like he was about to laugh, he had a goofy, silly grin on his face. It was his pleased grin. Searing flesh falling off bone was worth getting her to let go.
On Fri, Sep 5, 2014 at 10:17 PM, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: "I...." she didn't know what to say, she didn't think he was listening. So she just sat there and then tried with, "Can I get you something?" normally she'd help him to the bathroom or he'd try to dry heave or she'd help him with a cold shower but he just looked... like he didn't want to be touched. But it could be she was projecting on him.
On Fri, Sep 5, 2014 at 7:15 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: Each movement she made on the bed jostled him. He rolled his shoulders as that familiar ache seared his skin. Now he was the one who might be in need of a massage when he didn't think his skin would melt off like liquid fire.
On Fri, Sep 5, 2014 at 10:12 PM, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She was so stunned and so horrified by what she did, what was wrong with her? Normally, she was so careful.. when he sat back, she opened her mouth and closed it again, scooting out and away from him, pulling her PJ's back in place as she was squished in the corner of the bed watching him with her eyes full and her mind dumping so much blame on herself.
On Fri, Sep 5, 2014 at 7:09 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: He had a moment where he just detached from the rest of himself, his insides were tossed around a million times against the walls of his body. He looked dazed, those blue eyes glazed over as he sat upright and tried to not feel like the blanket on the bed alone made his skin hurt.
On Fri, Sep 5, 2014 at 10:02 PM, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: How quickly it all went from amazing to horrifying.. she felt the cold splash of reality when he yanked away from her and for a split second she didn't understand and then she did. He was getting sick. She felt a strong wave of nausea and guilt as she scrambled to try and sit up.
On Fri, Sep 5, 2014 at 6:52 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: Getting her to let go like this was always a challenge. Finally getting to see it in action was an amazing turn on. Usually it was him that couldn't stop, that had no sense of boundaries. Today it was all on her and it was kind of exciting. He matched her tongue just as quickly as she put it in his mouth and that was a quick indicator that he wasn't going to last like that. He'd played this card as long as he could, but he'd gotten her so into the moment that she was the one to break it.
On Fri, Sep 5, 2014 at 9:46 PM, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She was definitely going up that hill on the roller coaster ride, getting ready for the amazing part of the ride and she wasn't thinking of boundaries or limitations or his floozies or his sister or the fact they weren't together or her body or anything. And maybe that was why she did what she did next... she used her tongue to slide along the edge of his lips and make an entrance so her bubblegum tongue could make itself at home in his mouth for a deep deep kiss that she just wanted with him. So she did it. And she wasn't thinking at all.
On Fri, Sep 5, 2014 at 6:40 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: Chance hadn't known how to use any part of him to make her melt. Greed knew just what worked for her, though it helped right now that she was so wanton. He bit down on his bottom lip, watching her with a kind of pride when she could hardly hang onto a breath. But when she said his name, his real one he purred against her lips. She was starting to glow.
On Fri, Sep 5, 2014 at 9:33 PM, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She squirmed under his touch, taking in big gulps of air when he wasn't kissing her, her mouth open, her bottom lip trembling as he worked a magic she hadn't felt in awhile. Yeah she'd had sex with Chance but the guy didn't know what he was doing, especially not down there. She felt like she was gonna explode, just all these little pleasure sensations were taking over and she whined out his name against his mouth, his Sin name.
On Fri, Sep 5, 2014 at 6:22 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: In Vermont his focus had been on her and he hadn't burned up at all. He wondered if he could do the same now because he had a feeling she wasn't going to stop him if he tried. He kissed her sensually using his tongue everywhere but in her mouth, the only thing going in anywhere were his fingers, but that was going to be a process in which he hoped she didn't panic and push him away because damn....
Just damn...
She'd never wanted him this bad before.
On Fri, Sep 5, 2014 at 9:14 PM, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She gripped him when his mouth came back to hers and it was like they hadn't kissed in ten years instead of ten seconds. Her hips bucked against his hand in surprise and she let out a moan right into his mouth.
On Fri, Sep 5, 2014 at 6:10 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: It wasn't clear right now who was in control at this moment, they were both all over the place in that sexy, needy, horny way. He met her mouth again even if it might be a raging ball of fire that would burn him up from the inside out. His hands now had no boundaries and touched places that should have been off limits because damn it, he wasn't going to waste this moment.
On Fri, Sep 5, 2014 at 8:59 PM, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She loosened her legs and it was only to shove his boxers down, which was pointless but not in Zoe's mind, not right now. The fact they couldn't have sex didn't seem to be a memory she retained at the moment and she just wanted him, as much as was possible.
On Fri, Sep 5, 2014 at 5:55 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: This was the most intense he'd gotten her to be in quite a while, if ever. He was starting to think that he'd lit a match inside her and now they were just a tangle of limbs and hands. She practically had him naked and that was perfectly okay with him. Her lips and tongue on his neck, wet and teasing him. She seared his skin with that mouth. He shivered, his back arched at her very blatant grab. Good God that girl was driving his insides insane. It was a minefield. She was so geared and ready to go it was a shame to put all that sexual tension to waste. He kissed her collarbone, pulling at the dip of her cami in between his teeth. His hands were still close to inappropriate places.
On Fri, Sep 5, 2014 at 8:43 PM, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: The more he grabbed and touched, the more she squirmed until one foot was practically IN his boxers and pressing against his butt, it didn't stay there long cause her hand moved down to his ass and squeezed it pretty hard since it was something she loved to do. Her lips went on his neck, kissing and sucking behind his ear and then biting his frog.
On Fri, Sep 5, 2014 at 5:27 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: He could feel her toes curl up under the waistband, her feet sliding down his butt. This was only prolonging the inevitable, but good god he was thirsty for it. They had gotten heated before, pretty hot, but not where she just let him roam like this and she enticed him for more. It was like she was completely drunk off him and didn't care anymore. He could feel that desire seep straight through his skin, radiating off of her in waves. The more she squirmed his hands were practically all down into those loose flannel pants of hers, grabbing and rubbing her skin in really close quarters.
On Fri, Sep 5, 2014 at 8:15 PM, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She made a small strangled noise as he bit harder and then soothed it over with his tongue which made her skin quiver under his mouth. Her feet were playing with the waistband of his boxers, pushing them down a little so there was more skin to touch. She'd desired him since he got back but not like this, she hadn't wanted him like this in months. Which wasn't true, she had.. she just resisted till now.
On Fri, Sep 5, 2014 at 4:57 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: There was so little clothing and what was between them was thin enough that every little movement she made rubbed up against him was some insane torture on his sexually charged body. He grunted against her skin, taking another love bite into her shoulder, his tongue quick to follow because he bit a little harder than intended. He was a little feverish in the normal sense, but he wasn't sure how long exactly he'd be able to keep this up or what she wanted. It was kind of exciting at the moment to try and figure it out because she hadn't been this into him in a long time.
On Fri, Sep 5, 2014 at 7:51 PM, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She sucked in a sharp breath when he bit her shoulder and she squirmed her crotch into his when his hands touched her bare bottom. It was unexpected and a thrill. She really did think maybe she was in his fantasy still because he hadn't caught fire by now.. so hell, why not keep dreaming.
On Fri, Sep 5, 2014 at 4:40 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: His heart was beating so fast already it was going to explode. He took a few seconds to not just plunge his tongue down her mouth. He moved to her neck, biting softly on her shoulder as his hands grabbed her butt again this time under her her flannel bottoms. He found if he focused somewhere else instead of where his tongue and other parts couldn't be that he could hold out a little longer. She didn't believe him before when he was trying to build an immunity of some sort to this situation, but maybe now she would.
On Fri, Sep 5, 2014 at 7:21 PM, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She made a noise when he squeezed her butt and her fingers curled against his back, her nails grazing along the skin. Her tongue skimmed his top lip, wanting to go in his mouth but she didn't. As far gone as she was, her body remembered there was a line.
On Fri, Sep 5, 2014 at 4:01 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: This was genocide to his internal organs, but he fed off her need like a vampire. He sucked up every drop, lusting for the next one more than the last. His fingers dug into her legs, dragging down until they reached her round tush where he squeezed and pressed her tighter against him.
On Sep 5, 2014 6:42 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: It was that sweet mix of rough and gentle of desire and love. Her hands loved roaming all over his muscular back and she squeezed him between her legs when his lips found hers again. She wasn't thninking at all, just going on pure emotion, wanting him, needing him.
On Fri, Sep 5, 2014 at 3:38 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: His head was spinning in a million directions not really sure what he'd done so right that had turned her on. This wasn't like at the office, this wasn't completely primal. He moved out of the tank, letting her peel it off like a banana, smooth and with as little interruption as possible before he suction cupped his lips back to hers.
On Sep 5, 2014 6:17 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: That was how it should be in their home, him being as loud as he wanted. No Virtue there to judge or complain. Cause it was their home, their way. Her hands moved down and tugged his tank up from the bottom to take it off him, she just wanted to feel him and the kiss would only break for a second.
On Fri, Sep 5, 2014 at 3:10 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: She kept dragging all kinds of pleased sounds out of him. He'd been aching for that kind if attention for so long he almost didn't know how to contain his delight. It just felt so good.
On Sep 5, 2014 5:26 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: They had been apart for so long and only got to get out their sexual feelings in small bursts since he got back, it was difficult to remember to slow it down. It was just too much... too much... everything pent up inside. They were like a shaken up soda bottle and they needed to explode but that cap just wouldn't give. She liked hearing him make noises, it'd been awhile since that. She kissed him as hungrily as he was her, biting his fat bottom lip to hear him again while her legs went completely around his waist.
On Fri, Sep 5, 2014 at 2:19 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: He didnt hold back that sound of enjoyment in the base of his throat as her fingers curled against his scalp. He was a wolf devouring his prey. It was sexual, it was lust. There was an emotional need as great as that physical need to be as close to her as he could possibly get.
On Sep 5, 2014 4:39 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: Her hands both rubbed along the back of his scalp where the hair was buzzed in his new style and she practically fused her mouth to his, not wanting to breathe, wanting him to be her air again. Her feet slid up along the mattress and her knees bent to craddle him inbetween her legs.
On Fri, Sep 5, 2014 at 1:35 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: His hands were quick to grab her waist and glue her to his hips. He fell onto her in that favorite missionary position, trying his damndest to keep his stomach from emerging out of his throat.
On Sep 5, 2014 4:12 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: Her free hand moved and her arm went around his neck as she kissed him. He always got her going when he talked about them and emotion and how he felt and now their future they couldn't have. It was a turn on. But more than that, it was sharing a vision with her of a life he'd thought about, a life she wanted so badly. But only with him.
On Fri, Sep 5, 2014 at 1:06 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: He held back the instant pang he felt in his stomach, kissing her back just as hard, this time needy. There was a lot going on in that kiss. There was a lot that had been opened up between them.
On Sep 5, 2014 3:42 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: Her eyes were shining maybe kinda misty with tears but really happy. She didn't reply with words, she leaned up the tiny gap there was between them and kissed him, that kind of mind melting amazing kiss that only she could give because she was so full of emotion right now and the amount of love she had for him was not held back at all.
On Fri, Sep 5, 2014 at 12:38 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: He nuzzled her nose, his lips just a breath away. "Yeah, in Fiji." They'd spend the night in each other's arms under a blanket of stars.
On Sep 5, 2014 3:21 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: Her foot rubbed against his and she wasn't sure what she was doing but he was so close. She smiled and asked in a whisper, "In Fiji...?" she always used to say she'd run away there, but the idea of running away together was so much nicer.
On Fri, Sep 5, 2014 at 12:18 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "Yeah, right under a fucking waterfall." He could be a ditz at times but he didn't forget the important things. He starred at her lips, ready to just grab them, but he didn't know what she wanted him to do.
On Sep 5, 2014 3:05 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She gave him a big smile, "That wouldn't be a slip, you'd have it written down.." she knew her man. She rolled her eyes still amused, "Wow how generous of you." when he said he'd let her fuck him in the sand. She slid their joint hands down past her waist so he'd have to bend down closer to her, till his nose would be almost touching hers, "We'd honeymoon by the beach then...?" she always used to say she wanted to see Fiji and he always did say one of his fantasies was to have her under a waterfall.
On Fri, Sep 5, 2014 at 12:00 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "Yes!!!!" He said with a lopsided grin and dimples. His eyes creased into little half moons. "Though I might slip and say something about boobs and sex..." It wouldn't be Greed if he didn't throw some sexual advance in his own wedding vows. It wouldn't be a stiff wedding, it would be something he'd want. "And I'd even let you fuck me on the beach..." as much as he hated the sand.
On Sep 5, 2014 2:52 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She played with his hand idly as she watched his face as he talked, "A night wedding..." she said with a smile, she'd never thought of that but it was very them. Under stars and lights and lanterns, things they loved. She was so moved when he said there'd be a million people there. Since if they ever did have a wedding, no one would really come. They wouldn't be able to announce it to the world but in the fantasy they could. She lowered her lashes at the mention of her grandfather but didn't dwell on it, she knew he wouldn't ever come. But in the fantasy, she'd invite him. She chuckled at the gold motorcycle part and threaded her fingers with his, holding onto it to pull herself closer into him even tho they were pretty snuggled up as it was. She still gazed at him, very happy in this dream he was building around them, "Would you write your own vows..?"
On Fri, Sep 5, 2014 at 11:44 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: He snorted a laugh, looking off into open space as if he were watching it unfold before his eyes. "Lots of lanterns and hanging lights. Samson in a bowtie carrying the rings. And there's everyone from work and a million people you don't know. Even your grandfather. And I'd totally fuck up the vows and say something I shouldn't. You'd laugh with pink cheeks and flowers in your hair...and we'd ride off on a giant gold motorcycle..." it was the lamest thing but to Greed it had been important.
On Sep 5, 2014 1:37 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: That smile on her face wasn't going away and it was bright and happy. She grinned, "Every morning? I'd be so fat... tho I guess all the sex will keep me fit." her hand moved to the one that was playing with her cami, her fingers twining with his without realizing it, "You didn't tell me what our wedding was like...."
On Fri, Sep 5, 2014 at 10:30 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "Yes. When the Ava's and Samson's are asleep we'd sneak out to the tree house and have sex until morning, with a skylight so you can see the big dipper. Oh! And then we'd get up to waffles and cake. Every morning!" He hadn't even noticed that he'd slipped into saying "we" instead of her and Chance.
On Sep 5, 2014 1:07 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She smiled big and then laughed as he got all excited and was building an amusement park in their imaginary backyard that had kids and dogs and a family. None of it was possible so why not have everything? She was surprised but so moved he thought about these things, that he wanted them, and yes he slept with other girls, but this, he only ever thought about having it with her. "And what about us? Will we get any time together among our millions Samson's and our two Ava's?" what else did he see for them she wondered.
On Fri, Sep 5, 2014 at 9:57 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "The weekends would be running around the yard in super hero capes, a million Samson's chasing the Ava's. And the yard would be huge. Jungle gyms, a fucking water park and a slide that shoots off into the lake. Oh! And a tree house!" He kept going, he'd mapped out a big deal in there down to all the details that were important to him, realism went out the window. The fantasy was so much better.
On Sep 5, 2014 12:30 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: The more he talked, the more a smile grew on her lips. There were things there that she'd never have even thought of but she could picture it as he painted it. She was pretty sure he'd be playing in that toy castle with their daughters. No sons. They knew themselves well enough to know since this was make believe they better at least pretend about somewhat realistic things and Greed didn't like to share testostorone. It was beyond touching to hear how he included a rooftop and a lake in the scenario, things she liked. "Tell me more.." she practically begged in a whisper. It was such a beautiful fantasy, she didn't blame him for doing something so psychotic to try to glimpse it.
On Fri, Sep 5, 2014 at 9:25 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: He shrugged focusing on the circles he drew on her shirt. "Thought it would play out like a romcom. The slightly shy, inexperienced me would have a lightbulb go off in his head and be able to tell you he hearts you the right way without throwing up. You'd spend nights out on the top of a roof in the country looking up at the stars eating egg rolls and making out. There'd be this lake big enough for you to swim in, but shallow enough that he would be able to wade through without drowning. You'd have a room for all the Ava's with a toy castle they could play hide and seek in, and a wall to fingerpaint on." The more Greed described the more he was describing what he would have wanted as the zombie self had no interest in any of those things.
On Sep 5, 2014 12:04 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She gave him a soft look, "Yeah... but that's a movie that you would have had to watch for... years." since marriage and houses and kids took time. But since people normally watched movies with something in mind, she prodded gently, "So... it didn't work out.." a true testament of how she didn't want a part of him but all of him, "Can you tell me what you were imagining in your head? Gimme details." and she shifted to get more comfortable as she looked up at him, realllllly curious to know what this big kid had dreamed up in his head that he wanted to play out about their life they couldn't have. But it was important to her because this showed that it wasn't because he didn't want it.
On Fri, Sep 5, 2014 at 8:57 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com>wrote: He looked a little disappointed. Christmas wouldn't have been enough time? He poked at the hem of her cami, swirling the fabric around and twisting it in circles. "I dunno. It was still a part of me, like watching a movie or something..."
On Sep 5, 2014 11:47 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: He was so psychotic and sweet. Because while a normal person would have freaked out, what Zoe heard was he wanted a life with her. "Okay.. you know that would take time, right? This all woudn't have happened before Christmas." she gave him a dubious look, "You really would have been okay watching me with another you? Marrying him? Makin Ava's with him?"
On Fri, Sep 5, 2014 at 8:06 AM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "I dunno, the house, the white picket fence with an Ava or two popped out..." was he going to be uncle Greed or something? Hed never considered where all that could go and how even watching "himself" have the human life might feed his jealousy.
On Sep 5, 2014 10:23 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: It was so typical of Greed to not think of the future, without Zoe there to weigh in on his plans, he always went running full speed ahead and tripped over his own feet. Zoe at least always tried to make sure his shoelaces were tied. "Then what had you considered? What were you seeing in your heaad that you wanted us to play out?" she wasn't upset, it WAS twisted, but she was more curious than anything else.
On Fri, Sep 5, 2014 at 7:20 AM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: His face cringed a little. He hadn't thought of it like that. "I...uh...hadn't really considered that..." Delivering babies...ew.
On Sep 5, 2014 10:12 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She blinked, "So like what.... like if he'd ended up loving me. You were gonna push for... marriage? And be the wedding planner? Our real estate agent when we'd get a house? My midwife when we have kids?" she wanted to know if he understood how crazy it sounded.
On Fri, Sep 5, 2014 at 6:23 AM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "As far as it could." It wasn't the same as being involved himself, but it was fun to watch and see....only his human zombie self failed on so many levels.
On Sep 5, 2014 12:49 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She just stared at him, her mouth hanging open, "Greed...." she said slowly, "Exactly how far were you hoping this would go?" she was blown away by how crazy he was. She didn't know why she still got surprised.
On Thu, Sep 4, 2014 at 9:47 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "No you were more like the Tereasa, Barbie's tan skinned friend and a Ken doll with blonde hair...or something." He was just playing out his own movie she was a part of. It was like being the ultimate voyer, he could move things in the direction he wanted. He wasn't expecting the movie to do its own thing.
On Sep 5, 2014 12:22 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She made a face, "What are you talking about? You had no plan on how to take care of your sex needs, you were just so obssessed with what.... treating us like barbie dolls?" her mouth dropped open, "Wait.. is that what you were doing? Trying to make your dolls play house so you could see what it would be like cause he had your face?" it was so twisted, he would be the only person to come up with it.
On Thu, Sep 4, 2014 at 9:15 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "I don't know. It was like getting to play puppeteer and seeing what a normal life with you could be." He couldn't physically do it no matter what he was unless he plopped right into the middle of a deadzone forever, and that was kind of not an option. He was also kind of disgusted at being a pure human forever until he shriveled up like an old man on a cold day, but that too was where his curiosity started to poke around in his head. He hadn't thought everything out, he was just watching it play in front of him like a movie. He was a much better actor than he was a director, that much was true.
On Thu, Sep 4, 2014 at 11:49 PM, Lucky L.<neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: Zoe's cheeks slowly turned pink as she watched him talk about making love with her, she was truly touched by his words. But it circled back to what she was trying to understand, "Then... what was your plan? To force Chance to love me and have sex with me and you were going to, what? Never have sex again?" since he said he didn't get that with anyone else but her and he hadn't slept with anyone even while he was playing agressive cupid.
On Thu, Sep 4, 2014 at 8:46 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "Sex with you is like...it's heavy it's emotional. It's tears, it's gentle or it's rough. It's getting to kiss you for hours on end and loving every minute of it. It's getting into and I don't..." He waved his hand in the air as if trying to figure out how to say it, "I don't get that with anyone else." that included Lust.
On Thu, Sep 4, 2014 at 11:39 PM, Lucky L.<neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: "Oh." she seemed almost disappointed. That didn't sound so bad, perfect sex. A little frown creased her brow and she wiggled her nose to get him to stop poking it. She supposed sex with anyone would get old after awhile and they both knew Zoe didn't orgasm every time even if Greed did, their sex wasn't particularly exciting... even tho she always had loved it.
On Thu, Sep 4, 2014 at 8:37 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: He poked it again this time letting his finger sink into that little button and watching it bounce back. "There was nothing new about it. Lust has the perfect orgasm every time whether I have one or not. Everything is fixed on the same rotating wheel. It's just sex. It wasn't exciting, it was more like making a statement that she owned me." Greed could own things, but he wasn't a Sin to be owned anymore. He wasn't a puppet on a string.
On Thu, Sep 4, 2014 at 11:21 PM, Lucky L.<neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She felt more exposed even tho he was still squished into her and she wrinkled her nose when he poked it, "Like what...?" him not saying it made her want to know more. Altho she idly wondered if he did this with his sister or the other girls.. squished them and poke their noses.
On Thu, Sep 4, 2014 at 8:18 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com>wrote: Greed rolled onto his side where he put his chin in hand and elbow to the mattress so he could look at her. He was still squished into her like a fat cat hogging all the space, but he could look at her pretty little profile and the way her nose turned up into the air with a little bubble at the end. He poked it with his finger. "It was just missing something."
On Thu, Sep 4, 2014 at 10:39 PM, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She rubbed her lips, and wondered if she'd regret asking but she'd been fighting with this woman indirectly forever over this man, "Weird how...?"
On Thu, Sep 4, 2014 at 7:37 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "It was just sex. I was just her toy. It was weird." He shrugged it off, but it was a beautiful step forward to him being an entity separate from Lust. It was kind of freeing.
On Sep 4, 2014 10:34 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She was stunned and opened her mouth and closed it again, thinking. "Your... she.." she took a deep breath and looked at the wall, not knowing how to say it and just trying again, the words tumbling out, "You didn't want to.. with her.. anymore...?" she wasn't just asking about at the time, she meant now and the foreseeable future.
On Thu, Sep 4, 2014 at 7:30 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "I was with Lust and a handful of other girls before. But after Lust nothing did it for me. The whole time I worked to push him on you I didn't fuck anyone..." And if they were counting time, he hadn't since.
On Sep 4, 2014 10:25 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She turned her head on the pillow so she was finally looking at him, she was confused. "You... I thought you said you were with other girls... with..." her lashes lowered, "...her..." not saying Lust's name. Hadn't he wanted to be free?
On Thu, Sep 4, 2014 at 7:23 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "I wasn't playing with other girls when I groomed him for you." He'd been so focused on seeing them unfold that other girls didn't even occur to him. They didn't even turn his head.
If sex with Lust hadn't been satisfying, then what would a red head on stilts do for him they hadn't already?
She hit him again, "Why would you WANT someone else to love me?" it was such an absurd idea. She wanted him, not his body. "Did you work so hard to force him to like me because you didn't want someone else with me? So that way part of you had me but you were still free to play with other girls?" it sounded despicable.
On Thu, Sep 4, 2014 at 4:00 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: It sounded so dirty. Even if it had been his body it was like hearing she slept with someone else. He was surprised his zombie self was nothing like him. Just a host body with nothing at all inside. "I told him how to get you and he used it on someone else. I though I could make my zombie self love you too..." but he had realized it was the Sin all along that had her. The Sin that loved her...
On Sep 4, 2014 6:27 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She hit him with a balled up fist on his back, "How is having a guy who doesn't love me normal? Do you know I had to practically force him to kiss me? The first time we tried to have sex, he got too excited and couldn't finish. And every time after that it felt like... like he was practicing and when he felt confident enough, he dumped me like the test dummy I was and went off to do his own thing." it had been humiliating and painful. "You wanted that for me?" it was sick and cruel.
On Thu, Sep 4, 2014 at 3:17 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "You wouldn't even look at me in that face. I didn't want you with anyone else that wasn't a part of me. He was the only ticket to giving you something normal. I thought if I told him what to do it would work." That had been him trying to get her back. At first glance it seemed almost selfless but the root of it was saturated in selfishness.
On Sep 4, 2014 4:23 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She was like a beat up little kid hanging on to him and taking comfort in him squishing her as she listened. She sniffled again and said, "He wasn't a normal you, he wasn't anything like you." she took a deep breath and asked in the same hushed voice the million dollar question that had bugged her, "If you missed me... why didn't you... why didn't you try to get me back?"
On Thu, Sep 4, 2014 at 12:54 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "That's a stupid question..." She should know better, but he could sense from the hiccuped sobs she didn't believe he had. "I did. Of course I did. My best friend, my girlfriend was gone because I played a dumb move. I missed you when I had no one to cuddle. I missed you when no one wanted to listen to my rants on zombies. I missed you when I knew Chance was the closest thing to a normal me you were ever gonna have." He'd missed her when he'd fucked other girls. He missed being liked for more than his outer appearance. He missed having someone to talk to that wasn't himself.
On Sep 4, 2014 3:15 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She was crying now and hiccuped a little as it eventually tapered off into sniffles, she was totally awake now, just very sad. It had been so hard for her without him and she just wanted to know, "Did you miss me at all....?" she asked in a whisper about the time after he left her. She knew he'd be honest and maybe that's what scared her, that he'd say no.
On Thu, Sep 4, 2014 at 11:27 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: He didn't get heavy and heated, eventually he just let her hold him, his kisses dwindled down to soft caresses on her neck. He'd beaten up his girl so much, he'd learned that he needed to be as gentle mentally and emotionally as physically at the right times.
On Sep 4, 2014 12:37 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She still wouldn't open her eyes but she started to respond to his kiss in a needy way of her own, the way she used to. She was still scared and she fet like she was going to lose him so her eyes stayed closed.
On Thu, Sep 4, 2014 at 8:31 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: Her hands felt good on his skin but this wasn't a get hit and horny kiss. It was a reminder for her that he was here and there were a lot of things he'd been learning to do differently in order to keep her.
On Sep 4, 2014 10:37 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: That bite brought her out of her sleep and his kiss made her stomach sommersault. Her hand traveled under his tanktop up along his back but when he asked her to open her eyes, she shook her head. She was too scared of what she'd find or what she wouldn't.
On Thu, Sep 4, 2014 at 7:32 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: He bit her lower lip softly, caressing it with another kiss. Was she going to wake up or just think she was dreaming. "I'm real. Right now. Open your eyes Zoe."
On Sep 4, 2014 10:15 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She made a small surprised sound when she felt his lips. At this point she didn't know if they were real or imagined, but slowly her hands touched his waist and then her arms went around him.
On Thu, Sep 4, 2014 at 4:39 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: He did take her face to kiss. This was an emergency. He needed her to feel he was right there. No ghost, no imagination. Just his lips and the flutter of his rapid heart against her chest.the kiss was nit gross or horny. It was needy but in a gentle way she often missed from him.
On Sep 4, 2014 1:34 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She snuggled into him and said in a small voice, "That you needed me like I needed you.... so we'd make it." because before there was no other choice, they needed each other so they would make it. But now, she didn't believe it anymore. There was nothing he could say that would convince her otherwise, everything he said just sounded like a line, like an excuse, even he didn't feel real. He felt like he was there till he gave up. Because she wouldn't have ever believed that Greed could 'give up' or walk away but she saw it with her own eyes and now....
On Wed, Sep 3, 2014 at 10:30 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "Made you believe what?" Was his curious answer. She was being so dramatic for early in the morning. His arms cuddled around her, encasing her like a sleeping bag.
On Sep 4, 2014 1:19 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: To Zoe, it was almost like she was talking with a dream version of Greed. She'd had thousands of conversations with him, but he'd never kissed her this sweetly or lovingly in them. "Because you lied..." she whined. "You made me.. believe.." she whimpered out and trailed off, turning her head away, one tear falling over the bridge of her nose.
On Wed, Sep 3, 2014 at 10:12 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "Why doesn't it count?" He stroked her cheek, kissing in between her brows, her eyelids and then her cheeks. If she cried he'd catch her tears with gentle kisses until she opened her eyes to see he was still there.
On Sep 4, 2014 1:07 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She shook her head, her eyes staying mostly closed, looking like she might cry, "No, you're not...." she said quietly. "It doesn't count...." her fingers slid down his neck and then dropped off and hit the bed, "You'll just disappear again..." and the words were filled with pain, as if you could hear her heart ache.
On Wed, Sep 3, 2014 at 10:02 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: She sounded so sad even with him there. She kept reaching out, thinking he'd slip away, but he was flesh and blood. He was not a figment of her imagination. "But I am here..." he traced the bridge of her nose, kissing the button tip with a nuzzle against his.
On Sep 3, 2014 10:59 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: When she was half asleep, she tended to talk looser than booze even could get her. She basically would tell him almost anything and not remember half of it. She nodded while she took in a deep breath, the pads of her fingers pausing along his jawline, "Sometimes I wouldn't get out of bed just so you'd still be there.." she had been so so depressed these past few months, he had witnessed the state she was in when he came back but she'd been like that for awhille, slowly slipping and then crashing all at once.
On Wed, Sep 3, 2014 at 7:54 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "Yeah?" She was still groggy, so innocent. He liked seeing her so happy and glowey. He was real this time, just hovering over her lips. God those soft, perky lips.
On Sep 3, 2014 10:39 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She had closed her eyes again and let out an oof! when he landed on her. Her eyes opened just a little again and she looked right at him. Before he could say anything or move, she ran the tips of her fingers down his scruffy cheek as if to see he was real even tho he'd dropped right down on her. Her eyes were still only half open and she said softly before she could think of the words she was saying, "I used to imagine this every morning when I wasn't quite awake.. just like now." but he'd never be real, he'd never be with her.
On Wed, Sep 3, 2014 at 7:31 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: He put the palm of his hand softly onto her now covered stomach. "I'm getting up..." but her bed was little and hard to maneuver, so wiggling up out of bed with her limbs still tangled made him lose his balance. He tried not to land on her but inevitably she became a great body pillow.
On Sep 3, 2014 10:16 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: The flutter of fabric against her skin and his gaze which she felt the heat from made her eyes open just so a sliver of brown could be seen, "What're you doin...." her sleep slurred voice asked but she didn't move to stop him.
On Wed, Sep 3, 2014 at 7:12 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: His hand clenched and then released, wiggling his fingers. The smallest of movements gave him the glimpse of more boobage. He curled a finger under the edge of her cami peering under it for a second. He debated on pulling it up more, but that adorable cute smile on her face made him pause. Damn her cute little cheeks with that cute little bob and that fucking cute little nose. He slowly slid the cami back down.
On Sep 3, 2014 9:05 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: Her breathing was even, her chest and stomach moving slowly up and down as she stayed in her restful sleep. At one time she'd have been topless sleeping with him but that seemed so long ago now.
On Wed, Sep 3, 2014 at 6:02 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: Greed rubbed his eyes vigorously. He had drowned in such a deep sleep he looked like he'd been punched in the face. When he glanced over his shoulder he caught that shine of skin.
Oh fuck....
He leaned back in his elbow, cheek in hand. He was contemplating so hard whether he got a peek or a touch, but either one was going to put him in the same position of compromising his promise. So, he just stared.
On Sep 3, 2014 8:50 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She loved being in his arms, she felt safe and happy and like the last few months didn't happen. She was dead asleep even when morning came, the night before had been so emotionally exhausting and his massage kinda relaxed her into a coma. Eventually he'd have to get up and when he sat up, she wriggled around and end up on her back, still asleep with an arm thrown above her head... and her cami had ridden all the way up to the point you could see the bottoms of her naked boobs peeking out along with her flat honeyed stomach which also had freckles on it.