Jayden Alexander Delacroix (likeafirestar) wrote in nevermore_logs, @ 2014-09-15 12:44:00 |
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WHO: Jayden Delacroix
WHAT: Just giving him more issues
WHEN: Sunday evening
WHERE: Home
WARNINGS: Eating disorder trigger warning. Like seriously.
Nicholas had called Jayden for dinner, but the boy hadn't yet left his room. Over the past few weeks, Jayden had noticed his face filling out. He was gaining weight and he even had to go shopping for new clothes because he had already put on so much he needed to go up a size or two.
He should have been thrilled, considering he was underweight and had been most of his life. Instead, he was frustrated and uncomfortable. He pulled his shirt up in front of the mirror and despite the fact that his stomach was flat, it was no longer concave and that made him feel huge and disgusting. He was trying to date a ballet dancer for crying out loud. He could risk gaining so much weight.
Instead of going down to eat, Jayden claimed he didn't feel well, and he crawled into his bed to curl up. He was going to have to be careful from now on if he didn't want to end up being gigantic and gross. Then no one would want him and he'd end up alone like he had been his entire life so far. He didn't want that. Oh god, he was terrified of it.
Somewhere deep down, he knew that maybe he wasn't being very smart and gaining weight, at least at this point, was healthy. Instead of listening, Jayden ignored the logical voice in his head and the pangs in his stomach and he tried to sleep.