Zoe (history_repeats) wrote in nevermore_logs, @ 2014-05-25 11:43:00 |
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Entry tags: | greed, lust, zoe hansen |
WHO: Greed & Zoe w/Lust
WHEN: Saturday
WHERE: Greed's apartment
WHAT: Fallout
WARNING: Fighting
Zoe was still curled against Greed like a pig in a blanket in the morning. He managed to drag her to the sofa while he hit through half a season of the Walking Dead before he got sleepy. These was going to be a lot of screaming, tears and headaches when she finally came to. That's why he snuck off to the kitchen. He'd start with tea and then go from there.
His phone, still on the kitchen counter buzzed, vibrating against the marble surface until he picked it up.
Three downloaded to his phone was a picture message from Lust sunbathing on a boat. Theseus' boat.
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The picture didn't say 'wish you were here' like normal people would write, it said You wish you were here. Because who wouldn't want to be with Lust? And she looked dangerously gorgeous, while Greed's girlfriend was a mess on the sofa and groaned as she came to with a hand to her head. She was not used to drinking and she felt like cement blocks had fallen on her head. She wasn't awake fully.. and she prayed sleep or death would just knock her out again.
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Greed threw his phone back on the counter near cracking the screen. He'd ignite that message, but Lust kept sending him pictures which just made him more angry. Not the attitude that he needed to have when his groggy, half-deaf girlfriend walked into the room.
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Lust even at her worst always looked flawless, one photo showed off a see through coverup and her perfect ass. Which was decidely a 180 compared to what was zombie walking into his kitchen. Zoe collapsed into a chair and put her head on the table, her hair a mess around her. She groaned again, "Advil... or a gun..."
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Greed grimaced a little as his zombie girlfriend groaned. Was that even English? He sat the cup down in front of her when his phone went off again. "Fuck her and fuck him!" He yelled at it as if that was going to stop the messages from coming or help Zoe's hangover.
Theseus was sitting on the side of his boat, only seen in the far distance of Lust's last picture to which Greed finally replied. "Going for the grandpa's again? A little old for you isn't he?"
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Zoe winced because... loud. What was going on with him? Her head felt like a marching band was parading through it so she took the tea he set for her with a thank you and rooted in his drawers for advil. She'd get to the bottom of the mystery when she was more alive. In the meantime Lust replied with another picture, a close up kissy face one that said Age doesn't matter when he's hungry.. and there was nothing a Sin liked better, not even sex, than someone who fully submerged themselves in the Sin of their choice.
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Did your Saints run dry to go after leftovers? Greed knew she rarely went back for seconds unless she found him interesting. The fact that she found Theseus interesting just poked him in a tender spot. He hated it. The more he shuffled around the kitchen to distract himself he kept eyeing the phone with disdain. All Zoe would hear through the tunnel in her head was Greed growling and griping under his breath.
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Zoe found the bottle of advil and took a few with her tea, she didn't know what had Greed in such a tizzy but she'd get to it in just a minute. Lust's response came I got bored with Saints. I don't know how Wrath stays entertained. This leftover rat was practically calling to me, his desire for freedom (how cute) was so strong I practically came as he fed from me. Can't resist it when they desire something that much. she knew Greed knew the feeling, it was like being worshipped.
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Don't think he'll last long with you smothering him. He didn't want her to feel like she had him bothered even if she knew she did. He knew that feeling of fully injecting one with their Sin. It was orgasmic. It felt good. Not like he'd been holding back but for a moment he was completely envious. At the same time he wanted to kill that bastard for being involved with Lust again. Greed was a hypocrite. He'd done the same to Zoe many times leaving her for Lust, but it wasn't okay for Theseus to do the same.
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Oh darling, hard to smother when he can't get enough. How long has it been since you've had a fix? tho she knew full well that Greed had been devoting most of his time to his little mortal piglet which left very little time for targets, even the ones begging for it. Zoe sipped her tea and just watched Greed who didn't even seem to realize she was still there, a sickening feeling looping knots in her stomach that had nothing to do with the alcohol.
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Greed was hooked onto the phone now. His fingers slid across the screen ferociously with a grunt. I always get my fix. Just don't be surprised if your new squeeze doesn't satisfy. When he was done he held up the phone to his mouth saying "Fuck you," loudly even if Lust couldn't hear. He slammed the phone again getting agitated with it. He was hungry and he was too annoyed to locate something edible.
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Zoe moved forward, putting down the tea and touching Greed's arm. She didn't ask but it was written on her face, she was worried about him. His phone buzzed again with a text message but she put her hand on his, she wanted him to talk to her, not look at his phone.
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"I'm gonna throw this fucking phone out the window." He clenched it in his fist when he went for it again. The more he responded the more Lust would get out of it. He was letting it get under his skin, part off that anger directed towards Theseus for leaving Zoe stranded.
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"Maybe that's a good idea." she covered his hand and the phone with both of her hands and looked in his angry blue eyes, "Talk to me.."
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"I hope they both drown in that boat." His words came out stiff, his nostrils flared and steam all but creeping out his ears. Greed was channeling a lot of negative energy thst could end dangerously.
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Zoe was feeling a wave of nausea with Greed and his evil energy. She took one hand and touched his cheek to bring him down to her mouth, to give him a kiss good morning, a kiss of love, a kiss to remind him she was there with him that lasted long enough to hopefully make him not think about killing for even a moment.
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He closed his eyes to that kiss, letting it envelope him. It didn't completely knock off his anger but it hushed it for a minute.
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She was also kinda out of it still so the kiss did its job, it diffused his tension for a hot minute. The phone in his hands buzzed again with another message but Zoe ignored it and kept it covered as she looked in his eyes, "What's going on?" she asked softly.
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"Lust is with Theseus. That's why he didn't show up and thats why she keeps messaging me. She's rubbing it in my face." It also would be a sore spot for Zoe, but that was inevitable.
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She just stared at him, she didn't even blink. She vaguely remembered him saying something like that the other night but she didn't want to believe it. But she didn't look hurt or cross.. she looked.. relieved. "That's.. so that's good right? It means she made him leave." as much as she hated Lust, the thought of her grandfather abandoning her hurt more so she went with the lesser of two evils. In her mind right now he didn't go with Lust, Lust forced Theseus to go.
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"It means he made a choice with her there. He could have walked away." But if it had been Greed in the same position he would have countered that Lust was hard to say no to, even for him. It was a double standard. It was hypocritical.
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She shook her head, "No, no. She made him go. She was.. I don't know why. But she made him. She probably wanted sex and... and.." she didn't know how to justify it, she was grasping at straws to make sense of why her grandfather would go with a woman he knew Zoe disliked so much. He had to have been kidnapped by Lust.
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It wasn't okay that Greed could get away with it but not letting Theseus have the same leeway. Zoe should catch him on his double standard but she may have been too busy focusing on her grandfather's supposed kidnapping. Greed had used the same excuse before. "Why are you giving him the slip? He went willingly."
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She frowned and looked annoyed, "How do you know that? How do you know he went willingly and she didn't just kidnap him for some reason?" but in the back of her mind she remembered Greed using that excuse. "Why can't you just let me believe that she made him leave!?" the last part of it was with a raised voice she hadn't intended.
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"Oh so this is my fault now?" That's what it sounded like when her voice pitched a little higher. "I don't want you to believe she forced him because he still had a choice and he fucking chose her." It pissed him off.
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She didn't want to hear it and she didn't want to fight with him but she couldn't have both. She put her hands to her temples and bowed her head, "Why..." she asked quietly. She looked at him for an answer. Greed had started to choose Zoe lately but for a long time he chose Lust. Zoe wasn't as gorgeous or as sexy but she had a lot of love, something Lust wasn't capable of. "First I wasn't enough for you and now him?"
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"Lust isn't just about sex. It's any desire. Anything you want that's unfulfilled. She is the desire. What's the one thing you think he wants? To get the fuck away." As long as she was with him Theseus would be long gone. Until reality hit and he started to come out of that Sin hangover. Lust had her claws in, not giving him an inch to move as long as he had the desire.
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If Greed had slapped her across the face, she couldn't have looked more stunned and hurt as she took a step back. Her big brown eyes instantly filled with tears, "That's really cruel.." was all she said in a whisper. It was cruel of him to say it, even if it was true. It was cruel of Theseus to act like he cared when Lust showed that he just wanted to get away from Zoe.
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"You want me to lie to you? I'm not fucking nice or did you conveniently forget or think I'd spare your feelings." This was why he wasn't any good with them. He was angry, she was angry and instead they were directing it on each other.
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She shoved at his chest angrily and stormed off past him, not wanting to be near him right now. With Greed, she couldn't give him sex all the time, so she could sort of understand (in the beginning) about Lust. And with her grandfather.. if it wasn't about sex, then that just made it worse. Because it wasn't about what Zoe could give him, he wanted to leave. It's what he wanted.
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"This isn't a Disney movie." Their families were a curse in this relationship. Theseus was a failure, Lust was a thorn, and the universe itself seemed to throw as many punches as it could without ever giving them a safety net.
Greed gave her a few seconds and only a few seconds. He stormed after her because she was doing the same thing as Theseus. "So this is my fault?"
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No, it wasn't a disney movie, Greed was definetely not a prince charming. When he came barreling after her, she felt herself get prickly, "No. It's not your fault but I don't really wanna see you right now." because he was going to make her deal with it and she didn't want to. She didn't look at him as she ran a hand through her hair and went to his closet so she could grab some clothes.
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"I don't really care if you don't want to see me." He wasn't going to let that be an excuse. "I'm not just going to leave my own apartment." He slammed the door behind him to make that a point. "It might not be my fault, but you're blaming me right now and it's not fair." It didn't matter that underneath it all he was doing exactly the same.
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"Who's asking you to leave? I'm leaving." she messed up her entire drawer in his closet while rooting for clothes and grabbed a casual dress to put on and went towards the bathroom to change, "Fair? I didn't even know you new that word." so she was bitter and angry and hurt. But it was about more than just Theseus, she just wasn't saying it.
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"Hey, hey! Put that back!" He scolded her with his finger wagging in the air. He grabbed the stuff she had rooted out and stuffed it back in the drawer. Even before she could reach the bathroom he'd grabbed her dress in a little tug-of-war.
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She said a line she'd said before, and most often when they fought, "Are you crazy!?" she didn't let the dress go and dug her heels in the carpet as she pulled on her end, "Let go!" god, he was such a bratty kid.
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"I am not letting go! Not until you stop this bullshit of leaving. Who said you could leave? I certainly didn't!" He tugged a little harder almost ripping the fabric in two.
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"I said I could leave! I don't wanna stay!" at his harder tug, the dress went flying out of her hands and she stumbled, falling on her butt.
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Greed tossed the dress into the drawer and shut the drawer. There that was settled. Meanwhile the zombie girlfriend was just a slump on the floor. "Come on, I'll fill up the tub." Warm water would make her feel a little better. A good soak would ease some tensions.
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"No. Don't touch me." she said before he could even think of trying to help her up, "I am not staying after that display this morning and I know it's not over." this was much more than about Theseus, this was her being angry and hurt with Greed. He seemed calmer now but she knew it was because she was acting crazier than he was.
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"Oh this is about me now? I'm the bad guy because Theseus went running like a little bitch?" He was being incredibly one-sided and she hadn't called him out yet on how hypocritical it was. Right now all he could think about was getting her bratty ass up and into the bath. He grabbed her arm with a hard tug.
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She kicked her legs when he tugged on her arm and tried to stay on the ground, "No, you're the asshole because you're jealous!" and he had no idea how much that hurt.
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"Oh so I'm not allowed to be jealous? She's my sister!" He couldn't not not he, it was inevitable given who and what they were. No matter how many times he could fuck Zoe, be with Zoe, he would be jealous over his sister finding someone to toy with, having someone give into her.
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She looked hurt again, she couldn't help it. "How would you feel if I was jealous over a girl Derek was with?" she tried to move away from him if he'd let her, "Be jealous. Just don't make me watch it." she had enough pain to deal with already.
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"You wouldn't get jealous over him, so thats just a stupid example." He gripped her wrist for another tug, dragging her ass across the floor to the bathroom. "I didn't make you watch anything, you asked!"
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"Wouldn't I?" she twisted her wrist to try to get it free and kicked her legs some more. "When he was with that bimbo from your office, what if I got mad? What if I was mad that he was with her? What would you do then? 'Fuck Derek and fuck that girl'. How would you feel knowing that I wanted him?" and now she tried to kick at him.
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"You wouldn't so stop saying that!" It was putting all kinds of false ideas in his head and he didn't need that right now. He made another hard pull, this time on her leg when she whipped it out at him to drag her towards the bathroom. If she didn't stop he was going to swing her across his shoulder and dump her in. "You don't want him!" They'd been over this, she was just breaking down everything she'd built making him feel secure.
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He had her trapped but she still struggled, "NO I DON'T!" she shouted at him because she couldn't even pretend and it was driving her nuts. She finally went still and gave him a broken look, "But you want her. And my grandfather wants her. And I cannot handle that right now. I want someone to want just me and that is not you right now." yes, he was with her but it made her skin crawl to think his mind wasn't fully with her.
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"Well EXCUSE ME for thinking!" Where was his invisibility cloak that he could just throw over his head? Apparently they didnt make those anymore. He fumed, walking a circle. "I'm not even thinking sex, I'm thinking how amazing it would feel right now to have someone give into me." Yes, his mind was elsewhere, it was on himself. The Sin needed that connection, that sometimes Zoe alone could not curb. It was the fact that Lust was rubbing it in his face and his Sin wanted that delicious taste of overcoming someone with nothing but himself.
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She looked at him from the place on the floor he left her, "What are you talking about?" wasn't it almost always about sex with him?
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He threw his hands in the air worth a growl. Of course he was jealous Lust was with another man, but for MONTHS now he had been segregating himself from her. "Zoe do you realize that taste off someone giving in to me," as in Greed itself, "is even more orgasmic than sex itself? She's flaunting the fact that his lust for freedom trumps anything. So, giving in to the sin, it's a feeling I crave just as much as anything else."
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"No, I did not realize that, you don't really talk about Sin stuff with me much anymore." she got up off the ground and she could understand that and said, "You make it sound so rare..." she was under the impression people gave in to Sin all the time, couldn't he just make them give in? And then it clicked in her head what he'd said before... it was a choice.
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"To give in completely? Yes it is." It wasnt as easy as a cop in a speed trap. Every one had Sin, but people held back even when they wanted to give in to temptation. To give in to one of them entirely, fully was intense. Zoe forgot she wasn't influenced by him at all, and sometimes he just needed a hit like a drug addict.
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She was barely listening, she stood still and had a strange look on her face as she looked at him, "You said it was a choice. That's why he's gone with her. He gave in completely but it's because he wanted to. So that means all those times you had gone to her, it was a choice. No matter how much you said you had to and all that other bullshit...." her face clouded over and she shook her head, "Which means next time you go to her, it will be a choice. Perfect. As if this day could not get shittier..." she was so outta here.
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She choked him there with that slap of words. "This was supposed to be about him not me!" He fumbled a little in his response because she's just gut punched him. He want expecting it, even if it was his own words.
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She had been planning on leaving but now she felt like he wanted a fight and she had so much hurt and anger building, she was ready to give him one. "Yeah? Well now it's about you." she put her hands on her hips, "Even if we leave the past in the past, leave the fact you lied to my face and made a choice to be with her instead of me because you wanted to and not because you had to, that still leaves the future. And you never want to talk about it. Ever." she was realizing that now, "I'm not infected with Envy, his residue isn't effecting you, so let's talk about it. What happens next time." she said the words evenly and looked at him for the answer. He'd been good about staying away from Lust but he'd said himself, he was bound to go back to her at some point and now he'd blown the whole thing wide open and basically told her if he did, it would be a choice.
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Greed flared her up and down when she barked at him. "So now I'm getting shit on for the past? Not where I am now?" Oh hell, yes he wanted a fight. It might be good to clear his system. "You are always going to hate me for her even when your family is involved. Why don't you just condemn me from here on out because I'm never going to make you happy where Lust is concerned and I can't change that. You're always going to feel shit on if I so much as say her name so why even talk about it?" He was angry. Angry that he was getting thrown a giant curve ball for something he was growing away from. "You won't even accept that I'm stretching outside of my boundaries. It's been like this for centuries..." It wasn't just something he could get Wyeth the snap of her fingers. He was growing into his own man.
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She couldn't believe they were fighting but that was what his sister did, she was a poison and he could never see that. "Forget the past! I'm not going to lie and say it doesn't hurt because it does but I'm talking about our future. You told me that you would go back to her at some point. Do you know what that's like to live with? Not knowing WHEN it might happen? I am so happy that you're stretching your boundaries but I don't know what might make you go to her. Fine, it's been this way for centuries but now you have a choice." and it would destroy her if he chose Lust.
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"It's what I AM, Zoe. You can't change me...." he could grow, but the root was solid. He hated feeling like suddenly he could be contained in a box. "What am I supposed to tell you? Why can't you be content with the fact I'm trying to be on my own. I haven't seen Lust in months, but crucify me because goddamned I was jealous."
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"You are a Sin, you are a man, you have a CHOICE to be with her and I want you to REMEMBER that next time you wind up in her bed. I don't want you to bullshit me or whine or cry about how you were forced or had to." she felt the anger ebbing a bit and looked at him defeated because wanting him to be someone else was something she didn't want, "I don't want to change you.. I just.. I want you. All of you. And I'm not allowed to have you. And you of all people should know how crazy that can make a person...." she pressed a hand to her brow and let out a breath. She was happy he was trying to be on his own but the fact he was pretty sure he'd stray was like a looming axe over her head.
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"Then maybe it's time you cut out what you don't want!" The Sin was being persecuted for being a Sin, something he thought she understood, but he felt she was pushing away that part of him. "Obviously the Sin is the bullshitting boyfriend to get rid of." he hissed.
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He was driving her crazy and she threw up her hands, wishing she could get in his head and explain it to him, "The Sin is YOU, you are him, I see one person and you know that. You can't just blame shit on your sin when it suits you, you--" she stopped talking. She was so mad she was phrasing things as 'you can't', something she tried so hard to not do around him. She held it together though she felt a burn in her throat, they were heading into such a dangerous territory and she didn't know how to turn the car around.
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"We might be one but if you had the choice you'd choose me without, because I don't think you like the Sin very much. That's fine hate me, but remember where you're anger should be. Theseus gets cut slack and I get grilled for being Greed. Get yourself a human boy if that's what you want." He was rattled, a hole punched in the bottom of their boat, and it was sinking fast.
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She made a wtf face, "What?" this nonsense again? "Theseus doesn't get any slack." she was no longer calling him her grandfather, he didn't deserve the title, "But he's not here right now and he won't ever be here again but you're doing a damn good job of taking my anger from him." She stormed over to him and shoved at his chest, "That's a horrible thing to say." her voice wavered. Because to her it felt like Greed was trying to get rid of her, make her breakup with him.
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"It's true." It was as if the both of them were trying to push the other away. This train was blowing full speed, but the were at opposite ends of the track. "You want the idea of me." But the truth of it was he was too much for her. Right now they both needed space, he could recognize that.
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She gave him a mixed look of hurt and disgust at his words and she looked like she was going to punch him but instead said quietly, "Right now Chance... I don't want any of you." and she spotted her jeans in the corner and went and pulled them on. She tucked the big shirt into the waistband while she walked towards the living room where her bag was.
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"It's Greed." Right then and there she should have recognized who she was talking to. Lust had poked a million holes into his system, so all the ugly was oozing out.
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She turned and looked at him stunned. She could only blink for a moment and then tried to strengthen her resolve, "Well Greed, when you decide to be my boyfriend again, give me a call." she slipped her feet into her shoes and bag in hand went to the door. She needed space from him, especially when he was like this. They both had their lives turned upside down and instead of supporting each other, they were trying to break each other.