Temperance (middle_path) wrote in nevermore_logs, @ 2013-12-06 22:04:00 |
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Current music: | "By The Grace of God" by Katy Perry |
WHO: Jonah and Zoe
WHEN: [Backdated] November 22nd
WHERE: Zoe/Jonah's apartment
WHAT: Things have blown up in Jonah's face
WARNING: Sad pity party for the Tokyo Tower of a Virtue
Note: OMG I'm finally done with hoarde of email logs...
Jonah gave Zoe her space. He still asked how she was for the duration of her stay with her grandfather. He wasn't at all sure what was going to happen when she returned, he expected she would ask him to leave, and he would comply if it made more comfortable, but he would plead his case first. He deserved that. It was just a matter of playing the waiting game until she came home.
It was later in the evening and he was in the kitchen baking a fresh batch of chocolate scones and pot of tea. He needed to keep himself busy so he didn't worry too much. By the amount of scones he'd already made it wasn't working.
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Zoe let Jonah she'd be home that day after work. She couldn't hide out in her grandfather's hotel room forever. She wore her brown slacks with a peachy striped top that showed off a little bit of skin on her shoulders but was long sleeved otherwise. She let herself into the apartment and took her shoes off and set down her bag. She could hear Jonah in the kitchen but she didn't know quite what to say to him still.
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Jonah wasn't a good actor. He didn't like pretending that things were okay when they weren't, but he still greeted her with a smile and an upbeat voice. "Zoe, I have some chocolate scones and some hot tea?" He walked from the kitchen, sliding the towel off his shoulder to wipe his hands of flour. He hoped it eased her into this but he knew he needed to just get the white elephant out of the way.
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She looked at him and she was a shitty actor too, how hurt and betrayed and angry she felt was apparent on her face, "Are they poisoned?" she asked dryly while taking off her jacket.
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He grabbed a cup of tea and handed it to her, trying to break the ice. "They are far from poisoned." He couldn't be witty, he just wanted her to understand. "Have a seat. I'll bring one over. " Then he'd figure out how to tackle this big open door.
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She stared at the cup for a few moments before taking it though she didn't drink from it. She set it on the table in front of the sofa as she had a seat in the same spot when he'd come to the apartment for the first time. "How do I know it's not poisoned? You say it's not poisoned but you're a liar so I guess I wouldn't know unless I drank it and croaked." she was being a little childish but her mind was blown how everyone around her had been lying.
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Jonah sat the plate of pastry down on the table in front of her, keeping himself calm or it would disrupt the situation even more. "Zoe, in all fairness I did not know right away that Greed was your boyfriend. I did want to be your friend to give you someone to lean on because I can't imagine how difficult it must be to be with someone so draining." It was heavy for an immortal, a girl like her couldn't handle it. He wanted to be some sort of force field around her that kept her from being trampled.
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She put her feet up on the couch, knees to her chest like a shield, "Fair? You just said that you wanted to be my friend to give me someone to lean on because it's difficult being with someone so draining and two seconds before that you said you didn't know he was my boyfriend. Which is bullshit, Jonah. I remember the first day I met you was at the grocery store and Chance was going nuts cause he could feel you and couldn't find you. If he could sense you, then you could sense him and you saw me with him at the checkout."
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"The first moment I saw you, no I didn't know. It wasn't until I saw him from a distance." Jonah had thought she was sweet even before he knew she was Greed's girl. Then the push to be a friend to her became even more of an ambition. "I couldn't tell you because I knew Greed wouldn't let me near you otherwise."
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She looked like a stubborn angry chipmunk with her cheeks puffed up a little, "He doesn't control me." she said the words firmly. "I still saw your brother even though Chance didn't like it. My best friend was a male who lived with me and I didn't suddenly kick him out because Chance didn't like it."
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She had a point, he could recognize it. She deserves more from him and he knew that now. "I'm sorry," he immediately apologized. "I shouldn't have thought so low of you. That was my own feelings clouding my judgement." He should have been honest from the start. "Would you have even talked to me had you known who I was? I wonder if you have a bad impression of us?" Via one of the big bad Sins.
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"I would have been wary of you, for sure. I don't have a bad impression of you lot but you guys do tend to get self righteous and oh yeah, kinda look upon my relationship as an abomination and like I'm some medieval damsel that needs to be rescued. So there is that." she had a look that dared him to contradict her, "Or are you really going to tell me that you think differently especially after all those questions you asked me about us?" she had thought he was being a good friend. He was just pumping her for information about her relationship so he knew how to judge her and try to 'rescue' her.
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"I won't deny I wasn't worried. I was afraid Greed was using influence on you. Is that a crime?" Sin's eventually destroyed people on purpose or not. "I can't help but feel compelled to help." That was his nature as much as it was Greed's to take. "I only wanted to maybe temper his hold if he indeed had one on you." Only the more he found out the more he liked her, and he couldn't hide from himself the desire to be close to her, but not in a perverse sense. It wasn't twisted, it was just honest.
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"It's not a crime but it is none of your business." god, why didn't virtues get that? "That's great, next time you feel compelled to help, butt out instead because that person is probably better off without you steering them where you think they should go. And you didn't just try to befriend me, you moved in with me to try to break us up? How MENTAL are you?"
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Jonah put out his hands, flattening into the air. "No Zoe, I never moved in to break you up or drive a wedge between you. I wanted to be a friend in your life, that is the truth of it. It was never my intention to referee your life with him." He would not be the cop to write tickets, but he would protect her.
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"Really? So all your questions about him and me were what? So you'd have a better idea of what gift to get us for our next anniversary?" she didn't buy what he was selling. Some of it was believable but he was acting like he didn't have a problem with her and Greed and she knew he did.
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"I wanted to protect you." His voice was stern. "You're a good person, I like you. I don't agree with your relationship but I wanted to understand, and be there for the fall." He'd expected Greed to fail.
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She was unbelievably hurt since Jonah was like the rest of them, he didn't think Greed and her could make it. True, they had a bomb go off in their relationship but they were taking it slow, trying to figure it out. But it was just cruel hearing what Jonah was saying, "Protect me from what...?" she asked softly, "From people who abuse my trust? From people who lie to me? From people who aren't who they say they are?" he was no better than Greed.
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Jonah couldn't understand what she wanted more. To be with Greed or to not. Even if she wouldn't say it, she was still defending him. "Protect you from----Zoe in the last few weeks I've seen you break down into a range of emotions that any normal person would collapse from. I'm just afraid you'll waste away if it keeps up. I don't understand what you have with Greed and I'm sorry that I don't. Explain it to me, because I'm confused as to where you stand with him now. Last you said it was over. Now---" now he'd witnessed them in a passionate wrestling match with the thin walls and the loud vocals.
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"I might waste away and if I do, what business is it of yours? I don't know where he stands with me right now and even if I did, why would I tell you? You lied to me and you broke my trust. So tell me how that makes you any better than him?" he really couldn't see it. He was just like Patience who thought that because they were Virtues, it made them automatically the good guys.
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"I should have told you, I know, but I was waiting for the right time. I was not trying to sabotage your trust." What she had with Greed would kill her, and he couldn't have that. His feelings were trumping his usual thoughts. He couldn't separate them when he saw her upset.
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"When you lie to someone, you automatically sabotage their trust. You used me to get information on him. You pretended to be my friend just so you could get in close and nudge me away from him. Worse, you didn't trust me enough to handle knowing the truth about who you really are. You just assumed and made the decision for me. You wanna know something? Chance never did that. He never had to tell me who he really was but he did. He told me himself and let me react to it instead of being outed by a third party." Patience had thought that Zoe didn't know that Greed was a Sin and that's why she was with him. But Zoe valued honesty in a person and before now, Greed was brutally honest.
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Jonah would defend himself there. "I never pretended to be your friend. Never." Jonah was not that cunning. His only motive was to help her, it may have been a bit self-righteous, but he wanted to be someone important to her. "I should have told you, I know that. I was wrong to assume anything." Jonah would humble himself in his wrong-doings, something Greed had a problem admitting.
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"When you lie to someone, that's not being their friend. I trusted you." she was so hurt by that, her trust was getting kicked at by everyone, "I trusted you to listen. I trusted you to be my friend. But you judged me about spending the weekend with Chance and instead of being a friend and supporting me, you just try to make me feel horrible about wanting to give him another chance. BUT here you are, you lied and abused my trust, do you think you deserve another chance when you are so quick to judge him for the exact same things?" it was something Greed had told her before, why did her grandfather get another chance and he didn't. Why really should she give any of them another chance when they all fucked up and just said no me, I'm special, give me another chance but no one else.
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"I care about you and I'm sure that clouded my usual neutral stance in how I deal with the Sins. I'm sorry." He had no one to blame here but himself. He'd known from the beginning that he had made a mistake in not telling her right away, it felt like a betrayal, but the longer he let it sit for the right opportunity, the Sin had taken it.
Jonah stood then straightening his shirt. "I'll move out in a few days." It was taking the low road out, but he wouldn't jeopardize her feelings by making this even more uncomfortable. He'd thought he'd done the right thing, he would stand by that, but in the end he would bow out if it helped her realize he was being honest and knew his wrongdoings.
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She noticed that he neatly side stepped being compared to Greed and her face twisted, "It's the holiday season and I work retail. When am I going to have time to find a new roommate? I'm going to lose my grandmother's apartment if you move out right now. Otherwise don't you think the first thing I would have done was kick your sorry butt out?"
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He couldn't win with this girl. Every thing he tried just came back with a wall of brick in his face. "Zoe, what do you want me to do? I messed up." He couldn't say he thought he was falling for her, that would just make this even worse. So, that he would keep to himself even if it backfired later. If she couldn't see it, he wasn't going to shove it in her face. "I'm trying to do the right thing by not making you uncomfortable." He approached this in the best way he knew how.
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"I want you to stop being a two faced hypocrite. You never answered my question. You want me to forgive you for doing the same things Chance did. You're a Virtue, he's a Sin. And you both did the same things. What do you make of that?" she wasn't letting this go. Jonah's brother could tell him that Zoe was very adamant that Virtues not think they were right just because they were on the 'good' side and she would push to prove it.
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"I don't know what to make of that..." He honestly didn't know how he was going to come out of this unscathed. Nothing he said, one way or the other was taken bitterly. He'd done what he thought was right and now he was being compared to Greed, almost as if they both were on a fine line from the other because both sides thought what they did was the right way. Greed was one of the lesser evils of the Sins, but he was still one of them and capable of doing damage. Jonah threw up his hands in surrender. "I guess we both walk a fine line."
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"It means you're both human as well as Virtue and Sin. Humans mess up. But you don't think it's hypocritical of you to judge him for lying and abusing my trust when you did the same thing?" her tone was softer now, not as harsh, not as accusing. She just wanted him to see that it wasn't just a fine line they walked. They were two sides of the same coin that was humanity.
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She presented that in a way he should have, but was too blinded to. It was a wake up call. "It was." He was a little choked up, but he cleared his throat and headed back to the kitchen. "I'll clean up the kitchen."
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She frowned and got up to follow him, touching his sleeve, "Jonah..." she made sure he stopped running away first, "He's not all bad... and you're not all good. Is it that horrible to be kinda human?"
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Jonah had started putting dishes in the sink, pausing at her interjection. For a minute he thought his words were stuck. He didn't care about her any less. "No it isn't." He thought himself one of the most compassionate outside of Kindness, even from Maddy.
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"Do you think I should give you another chance at my trust and friendship?" she asked as she leaned against the kitchen counter.
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"I think that's your choice no matter what I would like. I want you to be comfortable." That's all that mattered to him. Not trying to persuade her. He had messed up trying to play cop to her and Greed. He wouldn't win her over like that.
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She gave a heavy sigh, "Answer the question, Jonah..." she gave him a dull look. Virtues and their riddles
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"I would like a new chance if you were willing to give one." He turned on the water, starting to rinse and wash the dishes he'd put in the sink.
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"So you think despite lying and abusing my trust, I should give you another chance." she tilted her head and then side eyed him, "But you don't think I should give Chance another... chance." she wrinkled her nose since it was two chance's in that sentence, "...even though he did the same thing you did..?" was the irony lost on him?
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He stopped the washing, hugs hands covered in suds before he started scrubbing again. "I think we're even." He lowered his eyes to his hands which were already starting to wrinkle in the water.
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She wasn't letting it go, "So you think it's fair if I give him another chance if I give you another one?" she said 'fair', that was his word. She hated this Sin/Virtue thing. These were boys to her. They could have their war games but not with her on the battlefield. She was going to make things equal if they both wanted to be in her life.
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She had him there, locked into admitting that if he deserved a chance so did the Sin. He shook off the wet plates, drying them with the towel. "I suppose that is what it means." He didn't have to like it, but he would make a compromise with her if it meant he got to stay.
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"Good. Because he'll be coming over now and then while you live here and you two can just... I don't know, stay out of each other's face." she yoinked one of the scones off the counter, a small sign of peace, and bit into it as she left the kitchen.