"It's more like what not who. I just feel like I've been on everyone else's string but my own." It was uncomfortable. He took another swift of his water to control his head, staying silent another minute. He then turned to face her. "Thank you." He switched on that charming smile again. "Sure you don't want to give it another go?" He wouldn't have ever made her happy.
"How do I say I'm sorry I'm a selfish git that ruined your life? She won't believe me." It might take away some of the burden if he did though.