She gave him a tired look, "I'm not gonna kill myself... I just..." she shook her head, "I don't know how long we have, I just know that it probably won't be long enough for me." she leaned forward, the front of her head on his chest as she looked at the ground, "At the finish line, you'll get Lust, Poseidon will have the locket, and I won't even be second anymore. I'll have nothing and be alone." and maybe he'd get it now. It wasn't that she valued the locket more than him, it was she was scared that if he left her or when he left her, she would have lost both things that meant everything to her. She was always going to lose him at some point but she had been planning on wearing the locket till she died. But she wouldn't have him till she died. __________________________ He wanted to beat his head across the pavement. "You are letting him get in your head." She had a point but she talking crazy. In one more second he was certain she would shatter into a million pieces like she had in Lithuania. This time he could handle it and not feel himself break down in the process. "You're not my second." _________________________ She shook her head, keeping it on his chest, "No, I'm not. He's just making things clearer, things we already knew." she felt like she was fighting a losing battle, "I'm not your first either." she didn't want him to insult her by saying otherwise because she knew she wasn't and if she ever had any chance of being this poseidon mess he was in because of her had blown her chances. _______________________ He leaned down so that his nose pressed into her head. "You are a first for me." And he meant that she had devirginized him in a lot of ways. That made her special, and she was questioning what he had learned, what she had learned. Whether she was inwardly breaking or outwardly he cloaked her with his arms after untying hers. She was going to be hugged until she stopped this nonsense. ________________________ "Yay." she said dully. She knew the difference between being A first and HIS first. Though she did think it was nice that he had been around for centuries and still got experience things he hadn't before with her. She buried her face in his chest, her arms resting there as well as he held her. She was getting closer to him even as she said, "I rather you break up with me now than grow to hate me.." she wasn't ready to let the locket go and if he couldn't deal with that, he was going to turn against her. She knew she'd have to let it go, just like she'd have to let him go one day. But with him, she had years to prepare, the locket was so sudden.. she just needed a little time. And he was not known for his patience. _________________________ "I don't hate you--despite what my rank in the hell clan." She was his prize, there was admiration for her and her abilities despite being a human girl. "Are you that ready to just drop me because of Poseidon or because of your insecurities?" __________________________ She shook her head staying as close to him as possible, "You will." she thought about it and sighed, "Both? And I'm not ready to drop you but I can't watch you go through this because of me. And I'm not ready to let go yet. And it's shitty of me and I don't expect you to understand it but I can't change it.. Poseidon is such a horrible man.. the thought of him having it.." he had taught her to stick to her guns and she was doing that now. She wanted him and the locket and she wouldn't get both. She was choosing him in the long run but it was hard for her to let go. _______________________ "Poseidon hit a personal note when he first went after you. I'd like to just string up by his fish dick and let him suffocate on his own blood." Greed was violent when he'd been threatened. As angry as he was she didnt have the right to tell him to walk away because some cowardly Greek fish had her by the legs pulling and twisting. "He doesn't have you in shackles." She still had a fighting chance until he hit again, then, Greed wasn't sure what else he would take. Eventually Poseidon would hit below the belt.