He managed a small smile for them. "I'm worried, and scared," he admitted quietly. "I've mostly managed to keep a lid on it, but it's still there, humming under the surface. I just can't wrap my head around the fact that he's...he's not going to be around to watch my hypothetical kids grow up. That a big chunk of my life isn't going to have him in it. Which is almost unfathomable to me, because he's been there for me every day for almost 19 years. Me and Dad against the world."
He rested his head on the back of the chair. Now that he was sitting down, he noticed he had a pounding headache. "If you have any Tylenol or Advil, I could really use some, please," he added.