"What was that?" He asked in a whisper, but he wasn't referring to the kiss. It was the way she handled it. His body was still in a lull, drugged almost by the effect. This wasn't spinning in circles until he threw up, this was calmness in the middle of a storm. His shirt underneath the vest had starting clinging to his skin from the clammy sweat. He wasn't burning up anymore, though the tips of his ears were still pink.
Zoe was a little surprised.. they'd kissed before. She assumed he meant why she did it. She took her hand back and looked at the bed, "I... don't know." she was unaware that her desire to not get him sick and enjoy the moment for longer than than the measly seconds they normally got actually shook the core foundation of who he was.
------------------ His mind was going to all the places Lust had embedded. He didn't need her there to scream at him, she was already there telling him that Zoe was a ploy by the Virtues. He was contemplating that idea because Zoe had infused him with temperance and patience. As a human they had both virtues and sins. She had no idea what she'd done and be had no idea of how to tell her.
"Are you...did they?" He shook his head because he didn't want to think that way but he felt so dirty. Greed attempted to stand again regardless of the melancholic state. His legs were wobbly, it was almost as if he'd been the one drinking.
------------------ Zoe was clueless as to what he was asking but it was making her feel like she did something wrong. Oh God, she did do something wrong.. what was she thinking? She was going to confuse the hell out of him (not literally, that wasn't possible). All she could manage to say softly was, "I'm sorry..."
They were talking about two different things and it didn't help his suspicions. One end fucking had fun with savoring that moment. He'd never savored anything. The other was conflicted with how that went against what he was.
"You have no idea what you did---" his voice was a little shaky. "I don't---its---its like you made me wait. You tempered my actions." He was hallucinating wasn't he? "The fuck...." She made him slow down.
------------------ Zoe felt like he slapped her across the face, he was acting like she stabbed him. Her face scrunched up as she looked at him shaking her head, trying to understand, "I... what?" all she had wanted was to just... and he was accusing her like she did something horrible to him.
------------------ He didn't know how to savor anything. The same way he'd felt he didn't know how to love because this was all taboo. "I'm a Sin!" He gestured abruptly, as if that was the order of things. Lusts words were haunting him. "A Sin. I don't wait. I don't savor anything." That was the truth of it, it rattled him and not matter how attacked she could feel it was obvious by his body language that he was rattled.
"And yet---I fucking enjoyed that."
------------------ Zoe's eyes widened a bit when he burst out with his proclamation of being a Sin, she physically reeled back a little. She could see he was shook up and her face twisted in disgust when he seemed so surprised that he actually liked her kiss. She stared at him like he was an asshole, "I'm so happy for you." she said in a dull voice. She really just wanted him to leave.
------------------ She took that completely in the worst way. He supposed it was inevitable considering what he was. He was never going to make a golden move without turning it sour.
He grabbed his coat, his entire system out of place---it had all been shifted to one side only to be shoved back in place. But this was cramming a square into a circular hole. It wasn't going to fit even if the corners were sawed off.
Gabe's cds fell out is the coat pocket, scattering to the floor. He was frazzled. She was shutting down and he couldn't respond.