He let a hand stray down her arm, moving his fingers in small circles against her skin. "I didn't want those two worlds to collide. Lust would never let me keep you if she knew I was attached. And if you knew..." Which she had, which was what he'd never wanted. "I held off as long as I could...because I knew you would judge me." That was left for the rest of the world, but not her, not his Zoe.
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Zoe couldn't speak for Lust but she sighed and made Greed look at her, "You really thought that little of me that you thought I'd judge you for sleeping with your sister?" she wrinkled her nose, "I'm sorry, I'm not going to lie, your relationship with her is weird as hell but.. it's your business. It didn't change the guy I liked. What made me see you differently is what you did." and did she need to rehash how he broke her trust? Her heart? How he had made her gone from feeling cherished to cheap with just thirty minutes?
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He threw his hands up on the air. "It's not like mortals take to that. In your realm or whatever its incest. Last time we were kind of the center of scandal." He flopped his head to the side, still eyeing her like she would escape at any moment. "I didn't know what you'd say or do." Greed groaned. "I know. I know. I just never considered Lust in the deal. I wanted both. Urgh." He curled a fist and pounded it against the ratty mattress.
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Zoe frowned, "Did you think I'd tell?" since he was talking about scandal, "Yes, incest is gross and frowned upon but you said yourself she isn't exactly your sister, right? She still sounds more like a girlfriend. I don't know if I'd have understood it right away but you should have given me the chance to try." she put a hand over his fist that hit the mattress, "How come you finally told me?" knowing Greed, he could have kept lying to her for years if he wanted. He didn't have to tell her about Lust ever but he did.
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"No," he made a twisted face. "In the 19th century it was a big deal. I don't give a shit of you say anything now. I've always been in the middle of scandal." That was really not the reason he held back for so long. "Because you let me be honest. I wanted to tell you."
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Zoe looked at him with pleading eyes, "Why didn't you tell me before you asked me to be your girlfriend?" he had hurt her so badly, she looked as if she might cry again any minute just from the memory of the burn. It was good they were talking about it but what he did was something that couldn't be undone with anything but time. But talking was a good way to loosen the knot.
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"Zoe you don't get it. It's not like a girlfriend. Sleeping with her just for fun. She's a mirror. She's practically my right arm." He sat up a little using the wall as leverage. "It's a need. A necessary need to survive. We feed off each other." It was almost like sleeping with yourself but with a battery pack to recharge. It was hard to explain. "I couldn't tell you before, I tried. I didn't want to ruin this. I did anyway."
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"No, I don't get it. Explain it to me." she frowned, "Are you saying you'd die if you didn't sleep with her? You said Gluttony is an excess sin and he doesn't get to sleep with her and he's fine. None of the other Sins sleep with each other, do they?" she wanted to understand but it was difficult, the facts seemed to say one thing but Greed was arguing another. She didn't comment on him ruining things. They were ruined and nothing was going to fix it.
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"Lust is like the ring leader. She and I are most alike. Glutt is the consumption of desire, I feed off desire, and she feeds off my want. She probably could sleep with Glutt, but I wouldn't like it." He wasn't getting far in explaining things. "When I'm without either of them, especially her I fuck up. She's my energy."