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WHO: Jocasta & Oedipus
WHEN: Monday mid-morning
WHERE: Oedipus' shop
WHAT: awkward times in general
WARNINGS: mentions of incest? But that's pretty par for the course.

They'd met only once since the whole horrible truth had come out, a random occurrence in a coffee shop that neither had prolonged. It was too awkward. At least last time she'd been dead and didn't have to face him.

Jocasta had gone back and forth on whether she should visit him. She wasn't good at making decisions, even easy ones, and this one was beyond difficult and complicated. Finally she'd let a coin flip decide it for her, placing it in the hands of the Fates.

Although now that she at the door of his shop she could only think of how cruel the Fates had always been to her before now. Why did she suddenly trust that their judgment was any better than hers? But it was too late now, and Jocasta swallowed and took a deep breath, pushing the door of the shop open and going inside.

Oedipus had fallen back into his usual rituals. He felt great. Fantastic even. He should have known that meant it was time for the world to go upside down again. He'd saved Jocasta from killing herself a second time and that shoved some old school king-like gestures his way. Oddly enough he wasn't scared or wanted to run. Hr was comfortable with himself. It didn't mean scared wasn't running around in his head ever again, it was just an afterthought these days.

Then she walked in.


And all those feelings of love and tragedy welled up. He felt like crying because what were they going to do now? They'd never been in this situation before. At that moment he'd almost have preferred living with the guilt. Fucking gods this was ridiculous. Some people paid good money to watch shit like this. It was great for daytime television.

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[info]theoriginalmilf
2012-04-16 02:43 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
Jocasta stood awkwardly just inside the doorway, squeezing her hands together in front of her. "I didn't know whether I should come," she said, watching him. "But..." she didn't finished the sentence, unsure if there could be any 'but' that could even work here.

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[info]a_freudian_slip
2012-04-16 03:24 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
His skin should have been crawling with a thousand goosebumps, but he caught her eyes and he couldn't rip anymore from her than he had. She'd had a life in this life, but if he admitted that she stay out of it and his own life he'd have to admit she actually made him happy. His heart still thumped like a rabbit tapping the ground with its foot. Disney couldn't have even saved this story and weaved a happy ending.

He stood quietly like this weight had pinned his feet to the floor. "Come on in," his voice squeaked. She looked like she still cried herself to sleep. A lot like when he'd actually been married to her that first year. Before he realized he'd killed his own daddy at the crossroads. He should have realized then that oracles really did know their shit and didn't just float around on drugs.

He offered up a hand so she could cling to something other than the doorknob.

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[info]theoriginalmilf
2012-04-16 04:07 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
Jocasta considered that offered hand for a moment, as though their touching of hands would call down the rage of the furies upon them immediately. But then she moved forward and took it, softly curling her fingers around his.

"I keep wishing this was all different," she said, brow furrowed in sadness.

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[info]a_freudian_slip
2012-04-16 04:33 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
It was a shame her touch brought on such a flame of emotions because they very well couldn't keep it up like this. She northern him for Zeus' sakes. He deserved a spot in the pit of Tartarus for even thinking in not-so proper family thoughts. Where were all the stop signs because this was never going to end nicely.

He dropped her hand, running it behind his neck nervously. His palms were even sweating, damn.

"It's not. It's never going to be." Awkward. He was starting to sound like an adult. "I should have stayed and not been so persistant for answers." It wouldn't have made a difference. Jocasta would have known and he wouldnt have. And had she loved him enough to bare that un secret. Somehow he didn't think so.

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[info]theoriginalmilf
2012-04-18 06:41 pm UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
"I don't think it would have changed anything," Jocasta admitted with a frown of thought. There was silence and it was difficult and so Jocasta said, without preamble, "I flipped a coin." She closed her eyes for a moment and made a face, the words foolish and unhelpful. When she opened them again she swallowed. "I meant... to decide if I should come here. I've never been good at... deciding..." she trailed off and dropped her gaze, feeling pathetic.

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[info]a_freudian_slip
2012-04-18 10:20 pm UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
He'd really been stupid hadn't he? The quest as a hero was inevitable, but his quest was stemmed with tragedy from the get go. It was like playing a round of monopoly and hitting jail without a jail-free card. He was stuck in this hole no matter which way he turned. He wondered if the Fates had always had it out for him or could he have changed anything by actually listening to the oracles.

Jocasta was a compass with no direction when she was on her own. He'd noted that the first night he'd packed it up in Thebes. She needed someone to give her a push, and right now he was all she had. He could feel his brain exploding already, because seriously this wasn't just about getting a boner and porking the hot older woman. He had loved her before all that. Which was why he couldn't help cupping her face and holding her. She was a leaf about to blow away, and he had to put his indifference aside.

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[info]theoriginalmilf
2012-04-19 11:48 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
"What should I do?" Jocasta asked him, closing her eyes at that touch on her cheek. It was familiar and comforting and terribly wrong.

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[info]a_freudian_slip
2012-04-20 12:15 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
"Stop blaming yourself and remember who you are." Maybe he'd taken some cues from Antigone from back in the day. Jocasta was a Queen. She needed to respect herself even if he couldn't think the same of himself. He had never really blamed her. Okay, maybe a little. Or a lot.

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[info]theoriginalmilf
2012-04-22 08:43 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
Jocasta wanted to do what Oedipus told her - it was her role and always had been. Jocasta was the wife and her only role in the tales of them had been one of reaction, never action. Of obedience and silence and tragedy. At least Oedipus had been allowed to be the hero that saved Thebes along with his tragedy.

Jocasta nodded warily. "I'll try," she promised him. "I know that it wasn't our fault, not really. We didn't know. We couldn't know. It was a Gods' game."

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[info]a_freudian_slip
2012-04-23 04:32 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
It was the God's game, because Olympus and all it's glory could play with incest without any punishment, but man was not allowed. It rooted evil and just bad genes. Not only had he cursed himself, but he'd cursed the rest of his family. Poor Antigone, his favorite little girl even had not been spared a happy ending.

"They were bored, I guess." Had his father killed him first, they wouldn't be here now.

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[info]theoriginalmilf
2012-04-26 02:25 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
"I think..." Jocasta began before frowned deeply at the floor between them. She didn't lift her eyes to Oedipus. "I don't want to go away." She looked up carefully. "Maybe I could do everything properly this time. Not that I know better." Maybe she could be a mother like she was supposed to be?

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[info]a_freudian_slip
2012-04-27 03:27 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
For some reason that sent a cold shudder through his system. It made his stomach hit the floor. Outside of his Freudian tirades, had he ever really thought of Jocasta as a mother? All jokes aside, maybe that was what made him panic so bad. Not that he'd slept with her, but that making her his 'mother' meant losing her as a lover.

Well that was just fucked up.

"You think?" he almost looked a little scared there. He couldn't even manage anything else out of his mouth, the concept just felt so abnormal. What she was asking.

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[info]theoriginalmilf
2012-04-28 04:49 pm UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
"Perhaps?" She, too, sounded not so sure about this whole thing. (But then, Jocasta was never sure of anything.) "I think, maybe? Maybe it's why we've come into each other's lives again?" Jocasta bit her lip gently. "Maybe it's not supposed to be a curse, but a blessing? To correct the mistakes?"

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[info]a_freudian_slip
2012-04-29 02:38 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
He'd had a father before and a mother that he'd believed his true parents. They were good, they were pretty much dirt poor, but they were his parents. Then fate had to go and muck things up.

He needed to sit down a minute. The world was spinning a bit.

Oedipus flopped down in a nearby chair feeling his heart pound out of his chest. "I think I'm having a heart attack," he said softly, clutching his hand to his chest. It felt so twisted. "Can it really be corrected?" Oh for the love of Zeus he hoped so.