"Is it wrong that I want—" Lyra starts to say, stops, because she knows the answer is yes, then starts again because it's Rosario she's talking too, and if you can't admit wrong feelings to your best friend in the middle of the night/cemetery then what's even the point having a best friend? "I kinda wanna risk it? Like— you know my friend Viv, from trapeze? She's going to Tennessee this week, and I cannot stop thinkin' bout ways I could go with, so I could do that trip back again— I know I can't but... God, as soon as I saw she was going, I wanted it. Lucky for me I got jobs I can't leave, huh? Same feeling right now, I know his name, the redcap guy who was like, lord of the dance down there– his name just came back to me, the other day, outta nowhere. I know it, I could say it, I wanna say it, just to see."
She looks over at Rosario, biting her bottom lip between her teeth like that's a promise that she won't. Her skin has chills again but it's delicious, even though it really, really shouldn't be.