Many things flitted through Iestyn's head. Why me? and what did I ever do to deserve this? being the main ones. But there was no real answer. It was purely a twist of fate.
"I will never ask for her," was what he managed to get out, surprising even himself with the strength by which he managed to say it. If that was the one thing he had to cling to, he would live in the knowledge that Addy wouldn't join him in this hell by his own choice.