WHO: Evie & Greed WHEN: Immortals & Strippers AU WHERE: Greed's Hotel WHAT: Falling back WARNING: Some sexiness Note: The log reads backwards
She knew his weakness. Maybe for an instant he even felt a pinch of something different from her. He kissed her back. He couldn't say no.
On Tuesday, January 26, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: "Just you." she said in a whisper and kissed him in that way that always sent the fog rolling into his brain. She just wanted him, she didn't understand why it had to be so serious all the time...
On Tue, Jan 26, 2016 at 5:37 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: He was stuck in a hard place and still had such of a typhoon of emotions he didn't know what to do. "What do you want from me?" He asked in a whisper against her lips.
On Tuesday, January 26, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: "If you pushed me, I'd grab you and take you down with me." she sighed and brushed her lips over his as she said, "I want to be so much more than just your friend." she didn't even mean it in a sexy way but to her friendship was limited for what she wanted with him, she didn't view it as a precious commodity like he did.
On Tue, Jan 26, 2016 at 5:15 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "Sometimes I want to throw you off a cliff. And sometimes I want a friend." Was Evie listening? Didn't she realize that to be in love she could be his friend too. "You don't want to be my friend?"
On Tuesday, January 26, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: Evie shook her head, "See that's fine, you're saying it yourself, she was your friend. You liked her as a friend. That's not love. You don't want to kill the people you love." altho according to Zoe, it was different, she was a typhoon of passion and crazy.
On Tue, Jan 26, 2016 at 5:09 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: He repeated what he'd said before, but to her new question. "I don't know. She was my friend and I liked that. I liked someone that talked to me and yet made me so mad I could shove her off a cliff." It was exciting as much as it was crazy.
On Tuesday, January 26, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: Evie thought it over and said, "If you don't know then you don't love her." she said it like it was fact. "She looks like me and while we were broken up you got tangled up in her crazy, that's it." she stroked his cheek and said, "Right...?" she wanted him to agree with her, Zoe was nothing more than his reaction to losing Evie.
On Tue, Jan 26, 2016 at 4:52 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "I don't know. I don't know what I feel. I'm so confused, Evie..." He stressed that because as a Sin he wanted both girls, but as a man, he'd been so head over heels for Evie, and that guy wanted to keep her.
On Tuesday, January 26, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: Evie didn't say anything for a few moments, her breathing was trying to be shallow but she controlled it into steady breaths. She could save this tho if it was just feelings. Zoe was crazy and a mess and couldn't even hold onto her own boyfriend so maybe Greed just felt sorry for her... so she pressed a bit more, "Do you love her like you love me...." because that would be something they might not be able to come back from.
On Tue, Jan 26, 2016 at 4:39 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: He couldn't lie his way out if this. Zoe had been a friend to him when he had no one else, and now that was gone too. His brows creased a little, and he reverted to a little puppy being scolded. "Yes." He did and that was his dilemma. He had feelings for both.
On Tuesday, January 26, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She stared back into his eyes and there was something different there and she knew when things changed so she asked point blank, "Do you have feelings for Zoey?" because her twin was the one that was into this deep crap from the get go, Zoe had no way of controlling her feelings and her crazy, it drove Evie nuts.
On Tue, Jan 26, 2016 at 4:14 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "Well, we did." He kept staring into those brown pools she had for eyes. They were the same, and yet not. Evie was more guarded, and before Zoe it was just as easy to get lost in them.
On Tuesday, January 26, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She nodded, "Yeah you are.... but sometimes it can be a good thing and other times..." she put a hand on his chest and said, "I love all of you. All the messy and broken and shitty parts too. I just didn't think we'd get to the deep stuff so fast... we were in love and having fun and we had a lifetime to learn... and then...." she trailed off. Then things had changed. Then Greed had met Zoe.
On Tue, Jan 26, 2016 at 3:50 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: Greed swallowed that heavy lump. He got somewhere at least. It was the opposite of Zoe. He beat on Zoe and she exploded. Evie he had to be meow delicate with and he wasn't sure himself if he could be that delicate. "I kinda am a baseball bat aren't I?" He knew he was. "I'm not soft or delicate and yet in the last few months I've become this broken piece of shit. I should be furious with myself because I wonder if you even like that side of me." He couldn't stand it.
On Tuesday, January 26, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She said, "Give me time." she was frustrated and looked at him, "He gave me space and time and didn't try to break me open with a baseball bat like I'm a pinata. I don't do the emotion touchy feely crap well and when you come at me like a freight train demanding it... I just... I just shut down even more." it scared her how much he wanted from her and she didn't know if she coudl live up to his expectations and it just shoved her back even more from opening up.
On Tue, Jan 26, 2016 at 3:34 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "I of all people know how good and fucking fantastic sex is. I can't say no to it. Ever." This was a ball constantly circling them and just bouncing from one to the other. "Then what could Digger do that I can't? Because obviously he can hit a button I can't. You're not the wrong package Evie, you just refuse to show me more than a glimpse of what I KNOW is in you. Maybe I just just don't deserve it. Maybe being a fucking psychotic Sin doesn't get more because he's not more than that either." She might be crushed, but the more he knew She was hiding, the more he felt worthless.
On Tuesday, January 26, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She was kinda stunned as he talked about her and she was at a loss for a moment. This was different than when he was calling her a gold digging whore. "I like sex, Greed. I like it a lot. And I'm not ashamed of it. And I love that you seemed to be proud of that about me. I love how unafraid you are of things. I love that I think about you all the time and that when I see you, all I want to do is jump on you. Sex is how.. I talk. It's how I get my emotions out. But I hate that I can say over and over that I love you.... and to you its meaningless words because you don't SEE it in the way you want." and she looked at her lap because that hurt a lot. He was basically denying her feelings because they didn't come in the right box.
On Tue, Jan 26, 2016 at 3:19 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com>wrote: "Then how could you sleep with someone who obviously is horrible at sex. There's more to it and I know that." He bristled a little feeling her words try to hook him and leave him dangling for a concrete brick down below to slam into. "I'm a mess. I'm a fucking mess and you won't even bend a little to show me what's behind this. We can't just pick up where we left off." He took a minute to try and get himself through this tangled mess, and he was failing. "I don't want to just be a pretty boy with a face and I know deep down that's not how you see me." He touched her face softly. "Yes you're sexy and I couldn't wait to get you in bed. I'm a fucking crazy person who nearly took us both to Paris. But, I love your eyes and the way you've always been able to shake me up. I don't want to lose that fire because we can't talk outside of a bedroom. You get excited and are willing to try anything. If I asked you to jump out of an airplane I think you would. I like that spirit. You're vivacious, you have the most gorgeous smile, just sometimes I'd like to lay in bed and just hold you. Sometimes maybe I want you to kiss me and it not just mean sex." He didn't think he was breaking through to her. "I don't really think you're a gold digging, superficial girl, I just---" he shook his head. He just wanted to peel back and see the person she gave Digger so easily. Right here, right now she was still trying to hide it from him and he was sinking.
On Tuesday, January 26, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: Evie just wanted to leave but she had promised herself she was going to try. If they loved each other, and they did, they'd make it through this. "I'll always want you.." she said quietly. "I don't tell you to shut up but because I'm not acting how you want, you think there's something wrong wiht me.. or wrong with you.. but this is who I am. And you said you loved me. So yes, give me a list. Tell me why you love me and want me if I never seem to give you what you want...." then why did he want her? Was she just a sex object to him?
On Tue, Jan 26, 2016 at 2:58 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com>wrote: "Because I want to hear it. I can't read your mind. I want to know there's more to me than a sex object. Even though I know you had to feel pretty low to fuck that asshole." And he was starting to just dissolve. "And I want to hate you for it. I want to hate you for the fact that you got something out of him you won't give me. I want to be able to fight and argue without sex being the only way we get through it." And the more he talked the more agitated he was, the more he kept crying through it. "If I gave you a list would you still want me or just want me to shut up?"
On Tuesday, January 26, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She sighed and gave him another little kiss, "Why do you always to define it? Why can't you accept I love you and I miss you and I want you without a list of reasons? Could YOU give me a list of reasons why you miss me and love me and want me?" she'd do it if he would but she didn't think he could.
On Tue, Jan 26, 2016 at 2:35 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "Is that all you miss from me?" He said after taking that invitation from her mouth. They'd still had sex even after breaking up and it was t the same as it had been. He wanted things from both girls but couldn't have both.
On Tuesday, January 26, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: Evie put her other hand on his cheek, kissing him intensely, her tongue going into his mouth for a passionate kiss. Sexual passion was something she always brought and she had missed him and his insanity.
On Tue, Jan 26, 2016 at 2:22 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: He needed that kiss. He didn't realize how much, but he wanted to be more than this for her. And the harder he kissed her back, the more he felt his eyes betray his exterior emotions. All his emotions were running rampant, confused and bouncing into each other.
On Tuesday, January 26, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She wouldn't have accepted his no if he meant it even but when he admitted he still did, she felt a thrill of happiness and moved even closer, sitting in his lap as she kissed him full on, she'd missed his mouth.
On Tue, Jan 26, 2016 at 2:03 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: He told himself over and over again he didn't. He'd only been obsessed. But even obsession didn't turn itself off so quickly. "No," he said in a pitiful voice, shaking his head in the opposite direction of his words. He exhaled loudly, trying to get a grip on everything that was just oozing out the surface throughout all his cracks. When he felt the first tear fall down his cheek he admitted that he did love her. He was sick with himself.
On Tuesday, January 26, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: Evie put her arm around his neck and pulled him closer to her, her nose nuzzling his, "Do you still love me..?" she asked in a whisper. She couldn't turn her feelings off for Greed despite their problems. She'd never be able to give him what he wanted when he pushed for it and she still hated confrontation while he thrived on it with Zoe.. but none of that was an issue in this moment.
On Tue, Jan 26, 2016 at 1:54 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: He had spiraled down since she had broken up with him. Each little jab just built itself on top of him and by the time Zoe nailed him he just completely shattered. Greed didn't know which girl could give him what he wanted because he didn't think either could want him and that was devastating. He stared off towards the blank tv, running his hands through the fluff of his fowhawk. His throat felt tight, he was going to break in front of her and he had a inkling she wasn't going to try and drag it out of him or treat him more than a sex object.
"I want you too..." And he squeaked feeling his whole body tense. He didn't even think he could say that after she fucked Digger. He thought he'd been important. He thought if one sister didn't want him the other would. Both had just cut him down the middle.
On Tuesday, January 26, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: "You really think it'd be hard for me to have someone in my apartment if that's all I wanted?" she asked. And she had a point, at any given moment she could have a line of guys if she wanted. She moved closer and sat down next to him, "I want you. I still want you..." she said softly.
On Tue, Jan 26, 2016 at 1:13 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "You miss having someone in your apartment." He didn't know what she really did or didn't miss and he didn't either. He'd been so into her, ready to do anything and now he didn't know what to feel. He was so thrown away. For a Sin that was the worst thing he could absolutely feel. She'd opened up to Digger, and he had done the same to Zoe and it cost them each other.
On Tuesday, January 26, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: Evie followed after him and shut the door behind her. She looked around the hotel room, a nice room, a suite since it had more than one room. She thought about asking him how he was but it was obvious he wasn't doing well. She didn't know what else to say so was straightforward and said, "I miss you." it was odd but it was true. Yes, she was sorta seeing Digger but they hadn't really labeled what it was and as much as she liked Digger, she still loved Greed.
On Tue, Jan 26, 2016 at 12:58 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "So I heard." His voice flattened as he unlocked the door. He didn't invite or dismiss her, but left the door wide open. There was so little in his hotel room now, just clothes draped across the couch and bed in the bedroom. He had a little fridge and some closet space but in the time they had broken up all his money had been in selling and bartering for Paris. He felt as if he had nothing to hang onto, and what little he did have he clung to. There were some comic books on the table, a big screen tv and a stack of fancy shoes in the corner. He didn't even know how to talk to her. She'd crushed him already a long time ago that he didn't really understand what she he left to do to him, or him to her. He was very confused in this state and heading into a dark, dark place.
On Tuesday, January 26, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: "He's currently without a car." she said and gave him a look that said she clearly knew who the little arson was. She waited a moment and said, "Are you gonna invite me in...?" really unsure if he would or would just set her on fire too.
On Tue, Jan 26, 2016 at 12:28 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: Greed was pretty crushed. He had lost absolutely everything and was contemplating when he was going to follow Zoe to California. He stopped when he saw Evie there at his door. He fished out his keys from his pocket. "What are you doing here?" His voice was completely shattered like the rest of him. The light in his eyes was gone. "Don't you have someone else to go home to." He'd lit her shit on fire, burned her new beau's car. She should be putting him in jail.
On Tuesday, January 26, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: It'd been a few days since Zoe moved to LA, it was really happening, she'd left on a plane, some boxes were being shipped, others being put in storage. She was starting a new life away from the humiliation and heartbreak of the old one. And when Greed got back to his hotel room after work, he didn't find her, but her twin, the one who had been his fiancee, waiting for him. It was easy enough to bribe a bellboy with her pretty face to let her in the elevator.