She sighed and put her hat back on. "I don't want to come between anything. And I don't want to make it worse for you either. Or become leverage." she sighed, "but I also want something for myself." She shrugged, then sighed. "Right. He can take all my freedoms from me, but not this." She stepped closer and looked up at him. "It's complicated and messy, but it's mine. I can't make you make that choice. Your risk is greater then mine. So it's your choice."