[ filter: lena ]
I value life greatly. There are things I have gone through and seen that make me care for it more than anything else. Mine, especially, but you know that. But life has to have an end and sometimes it's not the one we planned. Without an end, life is meaningless.
That patient's best gift to you was her confidence. You didn't let her down as I presume you took her and treated her to the best of your ability. But her time was up. There was nothing more to be done and she's gone. She's gone not because of you but because that's how it was to be for her.
I have never known you to be a bad doctor, Lena. If anyone else places such importance on life, it's you. Don't you dare waste what that woman gave you in the end. So stop drinking, stop kicking your damn self. It's pointless and you're dwelling on all the wrong things.