[Filter: Lethe]
It was eventually going to catch up with you, pardon for the harshness, but it is true. You're no longer Lethe in her true form. You couldn't run forever, and you shouldn't try to run now. Arthur once- No actions like this ever end well. I don't like cowards either. I'm not saying it was wrong for you to do what you have, but there comes a time where you have to stop and look for something else, few things can have the constancy of the sun.
My job will be to kick your ass and remind you that you can do it. Even if you get mad and try to lock me in a cave. As a friend it is my job to do that.
Jesus fucking Christ, what mess have you gotten into? You weren't comfortable, if you truly were no curiosity would've swayed you to want to know more. Be careful, you ever heard the saying 'ignorance is a bliss'? Yeah, that applies right here. True forgiveness is only obtainable by forgetting, if you remember- if you get those memories back. How will you feel? Wouldn't you fear the guilt of having forgotten them? Wouldn't you feel discomfort at having let go of it? For the record, these are also very human feelings. Uncertainty, fear, want, curiosity.
I could lie, but I don't really understand It's not pathetic, it's fine. You have to ease up a little potato river, being human isn't that easy after all. Small steps, but erasing yourself? Really bad idea. Of course, if that is what you truly want I would never stop you. You'll never be quite human, you can't but you are more human than you realize.
You know fearing attachment is a very common thing, it is a risk, always. At least you admit it, which is more than most people. In no way do I mean this as a bad thing, but you are in a way more human than you realize, and that is okay. All of this? The way you feel? Your thoughts? Everything- it is okay.