But she didn't. She never told me that she didn't want to come, defeating your point entirely. And I would only have been doing it to find justice for what had been done to her.
It would have been what was best for her. But what part of 'She never said she despised me' was unclear?
If I didn't have the ability that I do, I would still be frightened to leave my home or be more frightened to. If she had run from me in the same way and I had no recourse, perhaps I would have shut myself away again. Suicide, while appealing, would unfortunately not have been an option. I know that I know longer wish to be in this world, or interact with the people in it, and that I am entirely alone. And so nothing touches me, no threats or insinuations. Nothing.