Perhaps you ought to stop fighting everyone and see what happens?
How can you lose faith in how the words feel if you let yourself fall into them? You make everything sound much harder than it is, Jennifer, especially when you know as many poems as you do.
I don't think you know this sea. It's much bigger than I am and it's much stronger and it's quite beautiful when it's good to me but it will drown me if I it isn't biddable at all. And I'm no heroine, not even a bit of a one: I'm the one writing the heroes remember? And I haven't written one.