"I know," he'd put that part together too. "It's a lot to take." And he knows she had more than he did, in terms of how much harder, and differently, she felt it.
"He said...he thought it would fix what he screwed up. And...he wanted us to hate him, because...then, it wouldn't hurt when we lost him." He scoffs and shakes his head, tears sting his eyes as he continues, "He said...he- he left because he didn't want us to be forced to look at the person responsible for-- for her death." He can't even say her name, not associated with that, not when he has her again. Knows how easily he could lose her again.