Lydia Martin is done with the supernatural. (fieldsmedal) wrote in motelca,
Regardless of having her arms around herself, it still feels like a punch in the stomach. Because as soon as he tells her what he meant, it clicks instantly.
Lydia pales as she quickly makes sense of it. None of it was sounding like Allison until now. Not talking to her out of nowhere like that, refusing to explain what was going on, telling her to ask Stiles. But of course it was Allison's plan all along. To get her and Stiles to talk again. Because she undoubtedly heard from Scott all about everything that happened back home, that has been happening now. And Allison has never been one to avoid conflict. So she faked one to make them face their conflicts. To make them face each other
And it worked. Of course it worked.
Except. Lydia is far from ready to face this. To face him. She's not ready now and she doesn't feel like she'll ever be again. And now that the shield she had to hide behind was removed so suddenly, now that she doesn't need to protect her best friend anymore, she feels weak and exposed and unprepared to be there.
Because if it hadn't been for Allison, she wouldn't have opened the door at all.
"There's nothing to fix." She can barely get the words out this time, her jaw isn't tight anymore. The anger that was holding her together is quickly dissipating and she knows she can't hold on much longer. She just needs him to go away.