"Nope." she replies quietly, never looking at Lydia as she moves down the buffet to grab a side salad from the line. She's not even sure she can eat it at this point, she feels so sick about what she's doing...
There has to be a better way. If it exists, though, she doesn't know it yet.
And for the first time, she wants to grab someone, someone that knew her before, and shake them until they tell her everything.