Dick + Wals
You have every right to be angry about being shot and having that time stolen from you. It's not fair that that happened and it's natural to grieve for the time lost.
Unfortunately, we can't change what happened. But, as a wise man in blue told me, put the hours in and build a new life that makes you happy as the one you lost. Or something close to that.
I think what I am trying to say is that we can't give you those two years back, but we can make up for it by making the next two years - and beyond that - better together.