[Shaking his head too, for a moment not moving before he's slowly pulling Shiro more fully into his arms, holding him with both arms around him completely, forehead on his shoulder. I'm so sorry is clear in the gesture despite it all.]
You should've never had to go through any of this. [He can't accept the reassurance when it somehow just hurts in this context, to think that he could have fucked up this miserably, failed him until it led to all this.] Shiro, you--
You didn't deserve any of this. [He's choked up, angry and sad and desperate to hold onto him more than ever all at once.]