[Having him this close is-- a little terrifying. Not because of Keith himself, of course, but more that he can almost feel how close he is, and how at any time before this, he'd have reached for him. That alone's enough to make him feel a little shaken. And maybe a little afraid of himself still, too-- who's to say that it's over or that he isn't about to do something worse, now that this has happened?]
Different?
[He can't really put into words how he's feeling, and he hasn't gotten a look at himself to see other such changes. He just feels fatigued, and lost. It's hard to think straight when he's sure he's ruined everything as it is.]
... Maybe I am. I don't-- really know what I am. [Who he is.]