stupendousstan (stupendousstan) wrote in midway_ic, @ 2011-09-20 21:15:00 |
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Entry tags: | stanley churchill, week 6 |
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Had a really lovely travel day this time around. Ben is a wonderful traveling companion, which doesn't really surprise me given how much I've enjoyed having him as a roomie. He is so warm and sensitive and has a wonderful sense of humor. We talked almost the whole way and never once did I feel like I had to grope for words or feel like the silences were awkward. Just sitting and being quiet with him is comfortable.
I still...have a nearly overwhelming desire to grab him and kiss him. So far I've obviously managed to keep from doing so however, I worry it might only be a matter of time. I'm curious about his arms, but it's obviously a very sensitive subject for him. So I haven't asked.
Today, he's knitting. Actually, he's often knitting, but right now I can look over and see him knitting. There's something about watching him knit, that is so relaxing. I keep thinking I might ask him to teach me. Right now he's working in lovely forest green The blanket is going to be massive and contain every color known to man, but it sort of suits him. I love the way he sometimes smiles at the yarn as if he's remembering something,actually I just love it when he smiles. It lights up his entire face. I really need to stop watching him out of the corner of my eye all the time, but it's hard not to.
Audrey stopped by to thank me for the flowers and we talked for a while. She's...as captivating as Ben. Beautiful and bubbly and warm. I could listen to both of them talk forever.
I'm a horrible, horrible man. I want them both. And they both deserve so much more than that.