thought long and hard, but it's probably nearing allowing colette to move on from the death of her husband. she's afraid to, she almost wants to exile herself and doesn't want to because so much of the reaper lifestyle is what she loves. she feels like she's disrespecting him, but yet -- it falls on her like she doesn't even quite figure out she likes this guy until BAM IT HITS.
this line is vague for the fact that it'd be super slow burn with her.