Re: Tergiversate
He hadn't argued with 'we failed'. That was both refreshing and disheartening to Zap. But there were other good things to hear...
She was wanted, still. That was nice. Not that she'd questioned it after his behavior the day before... "I don't want to let you down; I don't want to be this failure. I feel like we've nailed every other aspect of this except what's between you and me." She frowned but soon revived her features. "Both ways?" Hm. "Isn't that what we've been doing?" Married but she had an affair on the side.
"It did carry us. But I hired a pissed-off wizard and things went downhill from there." Her face had remained still through her joke, because it wasn't completely a joke, and she looked back from the floor to Thor's face. "I'm still hurt, after yesterday. I just want you to know I have other feelings, but it's really hard to express them right now..." About Thor - her admiration and fondness for him. The queen just didn't have it in her. "Don't apologize anymore." They'd had enough of that.
"I had thoughts last night of living on Midgard... an apartment... doing my work," she sighed, "living as peacefully as I could with two boys and Nate..." Another damned sigh. "But that isn't what I want - I know it can't happen and this place is where I'm supposed to be. I just don't know... in what capacity."