Well, I guess that doesn't hurt. I'm only sayin, he's not who he was when you went under. He's not looking for you to be the same, either.
I know your dynamic might not have been the same as ours was. But during the war, I did some pretty fucked up things for him. To protect him, or keep his hands clean. It was part of the reason I started blaming myself for what happened to me. Maybe they couldn't have made me this thing if I hadn't always been --- if this hadn't always been in me. If I wasn't always a killer.
Eventually I had to reckon that you can't hate yourself because you've always been like this, and also think you've changed so much that he's not going to recognize you. You've gotta pick.