"I'm trying. I'm usually good at that sorta thing. It's super hard right now, though." She said, sniffling once again. She knew that Laura was right - if they pulled through this, John and Emma both would likely forgive her. But, honestly? The last thing she deserved right now was forgiveness. She'd rather they hate her forever and be alive than die and know that they'd have forgiven her.
Sighing, she turned to Laura. "Can I like, be alone with them? I'm not going anywhere, and when you want me to leave, I will. I just kinda feel like being here for awhile." This would likely be the only time in her life that she'd want complete quiet. She really, really, hoped so.