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Tweak says, "toolbelt of love"

[LORD] Tyki Mikk (noahism) wrote in marinanova,
@ 2017-08-06 03:05:00

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charlotte charles, ianto jones, jack harkness, spencer reid, spike, tyki mikk

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[The camera opens up on a dimly lit room, only the sight of a man's hands hovering over the keys of a piano. He cracks his knuckles and then his fingers glide over the keys, starting into and playing out a solid rendition of Für Elise without error. The further into the song the faster his hands move, until the end where he abruptly shuts the lid of the piano closed.

He leans down to look in the lens, offering a wide (and wicked?) grin.] I'm up for taking some requests on what to play next.

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	noahism 2017-08-06 08:45 pm UTC (link)
	[He wants to say 'you lie every time you suggest you can still like me' but it's a dark inner thought, a doubt he holds in because the weakness will boil him from the inside out if he doesn't. The stupid, pathetic mortal inside. He looks around, regarding the place. His skin crawls at the sight of it.] This is fine. Inside is fine. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

pushedback
2017-08-07 01:50 pm UTC (link)

[ She watches him, wondering if he actually thinks it's fine. Probably not and maybe this is her own revenge, to force him to face the place where it happened, to live with it as if it's any normal day because that's what the rest of them had to do. These are the consequences you get and killing him with kindness has so far been a much stronger punishment than anything the Defence Force threw at him. ]

You want some coffee too? Freshly brewed.

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	noahism 2017-08-07 05:29 pm UTC (link)
	Sure. [His voice is a little sour, but he looks at her one last time before moving to sit down. He rubs his fingers against the corners of his eyes, massaging at the bridge of his nose.] Does Belle still haunt this place? Stupid fat cat. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	pushedback 2017-08-08 06:56 am UTC (link)
	[ She pours them both a cup and cuts up two slices of pie - pear and brandy, as promised. For a moment she considered going for the more suggestive cherry pie but there is such a thing as pushing it too far and she's happy that he even agreed to stay here and eat. ] Mmn, I haven't seen her in a while. Maybe Gadget bothered her too much. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	noahism 2017-08-08 05:45 pm UTC (link)
	[He nods, wondering for a moment where she's gone to. Same place as Road, maybe. Looking at the food she serves he's stricken with the most unappetizing twist of his gut at the sight of it, but without a beat picks up a fork.] Do you want to know something? That I don't think anyone else here does know, or realize, and may never? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	pushedback 2017-08-09 02:15 pm UTC (link)
	[ Staying away from cherry was probably a good idea, then. She's glad that he's trying, even if it's just trying to keep up appearances. He could just as well leave and there wouldn't be a thing in the world she could do to stop him. ] What's that? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

noahism
2017-08-09 05:41 pm UTC (link)

I was never without remorse before. [He says this, still not eating but playing his fork through piecrust.

His expression is softer, less guarded.] But now it's all I can feel. Before at least it balanced out - I don't expect you to understand the details, Charlotte. But I was always a man of balance, and now that balance is gone. She knew that.

[He looks up to her.] They should've found a way to kill me, not this.

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pushedback
2017-08-09 09:29 pm UTC (link)

[ She listens quietly, chewing her bottom lip as she thinks about what he's saying. He's right, she doesn't understand the details but maybe she gets the gist of it at least. Her response is careful, measured, as if she hasn't fully worked things out but wants to say something nonetheless. ]

I think that... that people are so scared of dying that they want to avoid putting someone else through it, even if the alternative is worse. Dying is nothing - look at me, I'm not even thirty yet and I've already died twice. Anyone can do it. [ Not that he knows about the second time, but whatever. ]

I'm glad you're not dead, but also I think a lot of people need to get comfortable with the idea that sometimes we don't come back and that's okay.

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noahism
2017-08-10 02:23 am UTC (link)

I've chased death around this place and never caught it, funny how that works. [How many times has he put himself in a situation, gambling at high stakes but never seemed to really bite the bullet in roulette. He still hasn't eaten, setting down the fork in lieu of the brandy because his stomach is still knotted. This isn't church, she doesn't need to hear all his sins...]

I've killed countless people, Charlotte. [He looks up to her, almost sad.] Too many to count, but it was different then. I was different. I cared, but not enough to stop myself - what I was, at the time, from doing it anyway.

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pushedback
2017-08-10 07:11 am UTC (link)

[ She nods, slowly, not sure when she found that out but entirely certain that it never really mattered that much to her. It's weird, coming from a girl who was murdered, but it's almost like it doesn't matter because she knows that every single one of them is a scared kid on the inside. She can see it in him now. ]

People warned me about you. A lot. And I kept wondering... what are you doing to make him feel differently? Are you just condemning him as a killer, or are you doing literally anything else?

And now, here you are.

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noahism
2017-08-10 07:24 am UTC (link)

[He smiles, filling his gut with more brandy.] The reason why I did it is what they took away. What made it okay, the way I coped. And they still took it away, not as a favor but a way to remove the threat from me.

But they left the rest to suffer with what I did. [He sounds dreadful at this point.] But perhaps it is karma after all. I just expected it to be death, not like this.

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	pushedback 2017-08-10 08:18 am UTC (link)
	Tyki.. [ She reaches out to carefully put her hand on his arm. ] I wouldn't have let them do that if I'd know. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	noahism 2017-08-10 04:28 pm UTC (link)
	[He looks up to her, wondering how weak he seems. What a change.] I'll be fine. Eventually. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	pushedback 2017-08-10 08:33 pm UTC (link)
	[ Not weak, just vulnerable. Human. She always liked this side in him. ] Promise? [ With such intent he can probably guess what'll happen if he breaks it. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	noahism 2017-08-11 05:54 am UTC (link)
	I promise. [He almost smiles, lip lifting in the corner.] I'll make this right, in good time. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	pushedback 2017-08-11 07:56 am UTC (link)
	I know you will. [ She squeezes his arm gently. ] I really am glad to see you, no matter what you think. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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