[He hadn't heard Ray's conversation with Shiro then, but that was fine.]
I could probably cite a lonely childhood, but most of it has to do with the fact that even after four PHDs, a successful business, multiple philanthropy efforts, and attempts to drag my city out of the depth of poverty, when I 'died' [Finger quotes] nobody cared.
Sure, they changed the name in my honor, but I didn't change anything. If anything, Star City got worse, not better despite my efforts.
And then a time traveler shows up and lets me know that my life has little impact on the time stream as a whole, so there goes the big picture.