[He has a point there, not that she heard it in his bracket thoughts. To some degree in this set up anything they believe is just a reality they are choosing. It's the sort of thing she's aware of, but doesn't spend too much time thinking about anymore. At a certain point she just wants to live and be as happy as she can under the circumstances while making what improvements she can.
It feels like they defeated the wardens. There is a sense of freedom she didn't feel before even though they are still trapped. She's also at a point where it would be extremely hard to leave anyone here. She'd do it for Pavel. If they could get to his home she would leave with him, but it would be hard to do it and hard to live with it.
She listens to him play and notices the change, wondering how much is state of mind and how much is actual deterioration.] You should come over for dinner sometime.