It's-- stupid, me being stupid. [She thought she could push through the problems and not have to admit to them.]
I didn't want to raise a fuss, you know-- I... Okay, fine - I don't want Aidan to worry about it. [They may not be dating anymore but still. No sense giving him any reason to worry about her that he doesn't need to have.] I don't want to stop pulling my weight in taking care of the gardens.