[He's been glad to have Spike here through all of this. He's always loved him but the last few years have made him feel closer to him than ever, more in love, more humble, more undeserving than ever of having him in his life. He's tried to show it, and he knows he doesn't have to say anything for him to understand. It makes him press happily into the kiss, a few drops of blood sloshing out onto his fingers but who cares?]
If I was keeping track, which of course I'm not, I would probably have to admit how true that is.